Dreamz Valley

Suffer "Traps"

2010-07-18T22:06:00.000-07:00

I don't understand.. why am I getting myself into this kind of "traps".

It's extremely suffering.

I guess I've learnt from it. No matter how hard you try to make it, nothing can be force.

If things really happened to be your way, it will still turns to another way too.

God.. Must remember this.

Never ever falling into this kind of "traps" again!

生态定律的一线之差

2010-06-13T15:45:00.000-07:00

“有一些人跟事，是永恒不变的”

以前,
从没质疑过这句名言。
但是人越大,
却跟这句名言越来越遥远...

不是不相信,
只是就算不说出口,
心里也清楚,
这世界上,
没有任何人跟事,是永恒不变的。

以前的我们,
懵懂过,激情过,计较过,辛酸过...
这些都是无可否认的事实。
它,曾经那么地真实。
现在,还是那么真实的回忆,
只是这回忆有没有延续呢...

常想,
任何东西都是双方面才有办法维持平衡。

单方面的努力,
不是不可能,
只是很容易疲惫,
一旦疲惫了,
放弃了,
坚决不再回头的,
往往都是一直在默默努力的这一方。

或许,
变质了就是变质了,
不需要强求,
而是需要放手。

Hard Time

2010-05-07T23:14:00.000-07:00

Last post dated April. Almost one month ago.

Throughout this one month, I actually felt like blogging, expressing my depressed, thoughts, hardships and feeling, but I have really no time.

Took over a big project, which make me really tense up, I couldn't even smile everyday, since everyone is waiting for your cue, seeing you how to make this never ever done before big project happen (or in negative terms, see how you die)...

That's really not a good feeling, and I hate this kind of feeling.

I'm still new in position, why can't they all give me some support/guiding opinion???

Perhaps this is the real world.

Although I was tired, I still started to think deeply why am I going into this position..

Is that what I want in my life? *miserable*

I like team works, but can we have a good one?

I know I couldn't control how people think and act, but I sincerely hope that this world could have more supportive people around.

Pls don't easily lose control by expressing the temper or negative thoughts... If you think you are having a hard time, others does! It will just making others feel even bad...

Me - Myself

2010-04-06T22:52:00.000-07:00

My last blog entry dated Jan 17,which means I dumb my blog long enough.

Or maybe you can said that I don't have time,or I'm not brave enough to write down any of my thought these few days.

This last until I accidentally enter a colleague's (soon leaving colleague) blog. I readed one of his entry and I think maybe it's time for me to face myself.

Not sure whether it applies to media field or most of the working adults, I just feel like I'm trying not to have too many own thoughts (which this will not happen in the past me).

Therefore,I don't dare to think, don't dare to write diary,don't dare to touch my blog.

I know it's is obviously not mentally healthy, maybe it's just a trend I try to fit into the real world.

Right until today,I feel very tired,very fed up, and a thought just cross my mind...

why am I doing all these thing?

I still wonder... but at least, I manage to figure out sometime to once again, have my own thoughts, hopes my little thinking will not flooded by mainstream working field thinking...

Personal Updates

2010-01-17T12:34:00.000-08:00

Have been in a new job for 1 week.

Sometimes I feel that I already use to it, but sometimes it's not.

I don't know why. I think most of the time I'll usually get a 'bomb'...

and that's also those time I couldn't hide my shockness...

Luckily I only get my eyes to open so big but not yelling yet XD

Stress is coming to me,

obviously those stress is even stressful than last time.

If it's like to be put in words, it makes me reluctant to take food,

and make me have panda eyes everyday :(

2010, a new year... what a new gift that's given to me...

16th Jan 2010 Onwards,Every Saturday 6pm

2010-01-10T19:06:00.000-08:00

As you can see from the TV promo and teaser, yes, it's a program that my team produced,

and that's also what I've been workout for last 7 months.

Heart Talk lays its foundation on previous big news.

In a sight view of news reporter, we always found that it's getting a lot of attention when the big news happened, and readers always flooded by facts and figures such as how many people died etc...

But, we've forgotten one most important thing, it's not the number and facts in the news, but story behind the news itself.

Therefore, we wanted you to see through those previous big news people, find out how's their life and things goes on after the incident.

It's being very hard for us, especially as we gone through those cases happened in 70s or 80s.. I would said that one of the biggest challenge is to find out these people's contact.

It's always a hard thing when you only get facts, figures and name on the old newspaper, but not contact number or address. By using any networks, and gone through many diversions, we finally found out those people.

This doesn't mean that we manage to proceed on smoothly, we still need to talk to them, get to know what happen to them throughout years after the incident, and persuade them to let us proceed on with the shooting.

I will said it's really a very very very tough job, and we always change on the cases as most of them do not want to be discover by media anymore.

You may think that I'm pushing hardly for this program, hard-selling everywhere. Frankly speaking, I really do hope audience will watch it and see our effort.

It's not easy to produce a program. What it rewards and make us move forward is only YOUR WATCHING !

Heart Talk - TV Promo 1

2010-01-06T22:39:00.000-08:00

ntv7 brand new current affairs.

Starting 16th january 2010, every saturday 6pm :)

Teaser

2009-12-12T22:42:00.001-08:00

It's Always There

2009-12-11T21:16:00.000-08:00

I thought I went through it.

Yes, I thought.

But in fact,I realize it's a thought that still always deep in my heart,

and now,

it prove that I'm just too naive,

it's always there.

没了"烦扰" 但也少了你

2009-12-01T23:20:00.000-08:00

几经盼望终于盼到了
但是还是失落而归

在倒数新生活的日子里
欣喜没了"烦扰"
可是
失去你却是我意料之外的事

是我期望太高？
还是早该预料到会少了你
这...
应该就是所谓的无缘吧
想着想着
心里不自觉哼起了"少了你的我该怎么办"

Sandy Lam Live Concert 2009

2009-11-28T01:19:00.000-08:00

Got a chance to watch Sandy Lam concert *muahahaha*

So happy and glad although I'm not her fans,

and I know very little of her :)

I got shocked when she first sang and after a few hours.

Her voice is so pleasant yet so powerful,

and her live presentation even manage to control the whole atmosphere.

为你我受冷风吹,伤痕,诱惑的街,爱上一个不回家的人,夜太黑,听说爱情回来过,

至少还有你...

are songs that I love and brightens up the night.

*OMG* I starts to fall in love with this Diva

Share a video clip you all.

Let's feel the atmosphere together ;)

Never Ever Anymore

2009-11-27T22:42:00.000-08:00

In a terrible mood since yesterday night. And it continues until today.

I do not really experience this kind of feeling after I graduate.

I hate irresponsible. I hate being unrespectful.

I hate it needs me to readjust my thing JUST to fit in the so "UNPLAN" thing instead it is a so simple yet planned matter.

I even hate it sounds like it is my fault afterall.

I didn't voice my anger because I don't think it's necessary after all these,

but it doesn't mean I'm not angry and I don't have any opinion about it.

Fine, I will just conclude all this is ridiculous.

It's because I care therefore I angry. But then I will remind myself not anymore.

Because from this moment onwards, I will no longer care.

Recent

2009-11-12T23:10:00.000-08:00

=.=" it's already mid november, omg! I've dump my blog for so long.

Everytime I feel like blogging, there must be obstacle.

Most of it is "I'm very tired", "I'm at outstation, busy shooting around",

and of course "I still have lots of work to do, where got time to blog".

T.T so sorry...

Ok,fine~~

it's really time to update of my recent activities :)

Basically still working like hell, because we've did first stage of shooting,

come back and straight away editing =.="

And now, still planning for second stage of shooting,

which will be kick off from 1st December *sigh*

But, at the same time, still have to rush for editing =.="

Everything need to be settle before January 2010.

Why everytime I have lots to mumble of my work...

but actually please don't misunderstand..

besides too tired, nervous and worry,

indeed I quite enjoy :) Maybe it's a job that I like.

I love this program more compare to Sunshine Project,

and Editors Time. It's a very-hard-to-do program,

but maybe is it's style, I really like this kind of warmth program.

Cheers & Gambatae to myself :)

FIR. (p/s : Not F.I.R taiwan band)

2009-10-03T21:45:00.000-07:00

A good saturday (or perhaps a healthy saturday), filled up a healthy lifestyle.

I seldom practice healthy lifestyle, part and parcel is because of my work.

It couldn't allow me to live that way. But somehow,

I still have some 'basic' healthy living.

And I've choose to practice it more frequent.

Jogging is one of it, and another one,

I've give it a try today.

FIR sauna. Not sure whether this is a new system,

but it's fresh to me since I never heard of this before :P

It uses Far Infrared to make your body sweat,

detox, lose weights, beauty etc :)

My health has no big problem,

but after I tried it, it did feel very good.

Skin gets smoother and feel energetic :)

Pls Give Me Some Space To Breath

2009-09-18T01:49:00.000-07:00

.... don't know how to start this post actually, but in fact,

I really feel like blogging this matter which I couldn't find some words to describe it.

I've gone through a day (exactly is a few hours only) that I..

would now conclude as wasted.

Can't believe that I spent my night in 'this way'...

*sigh* It's awkward for me to react that way,

however, sadly, and perhaps, I did those :(

It's a good lesson, a very very good lesson,

telling me that nothing can be force...

Over

2009-09-14T23:46:00.000-07:00

2 weeks, or 3 weeks. Finally, it leads to an end.

I hope I use a "normal heart" to treat all these.

I hope, but in fact, I'm lying.

Deep inside my heart, I know I couldn't.

Although I couldn't let off my hopes, I wish it is lesser,

as compared to last time.

Take a deep breath, I know, I have tried my best.

When things aren't in my control,

don't think on it.

Book Fair Outing Day

2009-09-08T20:51:00.000-07:00

Went to book fair with my friend. A book lover too :)

Share some photos here ^_^

It's Chooi Ling on stage.

The only photo we took in book fair because we were wandering in book world XD.

Others photos of course we took outside of KL Convention Center *LOL*

Random

2009-09-07T23:56:00.000-07:00

Have been non-stop busy for 2 weeks.

This morning, a public holiday morning,

finally managed to finish up the proposal.

It's really a hard time when u need to work,

and after work, u still need to think of proposal.

Luckily I still managed to relax for quarter of the public holiday :)

Went to lunch with a dear friend, Janice,

(pity her.. no public holiday for KL state), at mid valley.

After that, have a book reading time together with mask session

:) so lovely...

Then, went for a dinner. Have yummy foods *winks*

Tomorrow going to be a new day to work again. Gambatae !

No Closure :(

2009-09-01T22:26:00.000-07:00

Finally there is 1 person from my department

got affected with influenza A (H1N1).

I just knew it.

Hoping that my department will has a closure,

at least a short onw will do, but then *sigh*

things also go against your wish.

There is no closure on my department :( so sad.

My closure dream spoilt, and now,

even force to wear mask every second :(

Realization

2009-07-27T01:13:00.000-07:00

Frankly speaking, this is not the first day of realizing this.

I don't know it somehow happen to me only,

or it happen to my friend too.

This is none other than I'm spending almost 80% of my life on work.

*Sigh* Should I said this is life? or

that's media's life?

Not mumbling about my work...

just a little 'unbalance' in heart...

PKFZ Live Show

2009-07-23T00:34:00.000-07:00

Dumped my blog for few weeks @.@

>.< Sorry, I would said that those few weeks were ...

(lost all my words) ... weeks.

That's all a sudden. I was called to do a SUDDEN (yes, indeed, it's too sudden, less than 1 week time) Live Show.

If you did noticed, that's a 'Face to Face with Ong Tee Keat, PKFZ live show'

went on last monday, 20/7/2009, 10pm.

It was an one hour live show and I was just told to work it out a few days before that monday. @.@

And another unbelievable matter was, I, was the only one doing the pre-production.

I really couldn't believe this.

Okay... fine.. it's really hell and tension...

Finally it's over.

I somehow, manage to did it,

but I don't even want to mention it again after the show,

don't even want to comment too...

I just want it to get out of my life~~

Life

2009-07-08T22:21:00.000-07:00

Haiz... Life is.. full of unexpected...

Sighing about life again. This time, is heart painful feeling.

When you've prepared something for a certain period,

although it's what you don't really like it,

I believe you've get ready for it.

However, there's a tiny little think called faith.

When you think you're almost ready,

something asked for a stop! What can you do?

Perhaps, it's again, the time for you to wrap up everything.

Life ~~~

Let's Go Mamak... AGAIN !

2009-07-05T01:09:00.000-07:00

The first weekend of July, I've gave it to Let's Go Mamak...AGAIN

^.^ not bad... at least it gave me another wonderful memory in turn,

Bravo Inner Voices band !!! *non-stop claps & yelling*

Figured out this music concert through my 2 lovely xue mei,

so decided to give it a try ^^

and you know what,this music concert took place at KLPAC,

I never been there before.

This, my first time, and make me totally fall in love with this place.

It's really a WOW, so so so so artistic and beautiful.

OK~~ I maybe exagerating, maybe the place is my "feel" ^^

Let's don't focus on KLPAC.

The music concert itself is another miracle.

This is no doubt, the fact, not exageration.

There are 12 people in this band, but uncountable music instruments...

Chinese instruments, Malay instruments, Indian instruments

and last but not least various Western intruments...

Wonder how all these instruments blend together?

Hahaha XD that's why I said it's miracle.

It blends extrememly well through their play, Oh My God!!! ^^

Some of the songs like 'A Kajang Fellas in Westwood Boulevard',

'Unity Through Music', 'Drums Talk', '4.10AM'......... etc etc

is really amazing and worth it!

This is where we enjoyed the performance, KLPAC Pentas 1.

Another New Identity >>> STUDENT

2009-06-27T23:01:00.000-07:00

So happy that I have a chance to be student again,

Thanks to my boss >.<

It's perhaps, a good chance to learn new things and,

most importantly, heading towards professional in this field :)

I like vocal training, although I was forced to let go last year

due to heavy assignments in University.

Hence, now, I even more appreciate this chance given to me.

Thanks you ~~~~

I promise, I'll learn with my full brain and heart ^.^

What a Day

2009-06-23T23:22:00.000-07:00

Experience 'unexpected' stomach pain this morning.

Ok, it's really hell. Just reach office, not even an hour =.="

Again, I don't want to bother.

So first hour past, second hour past, third hour...

I finally surrendered. Went to my producer's place and request for half day leave.

Driving dangerously while thinking whether to consult doctor,

but sincerely, I don't feel like going to clinic.

Pulling off that thought, go straight away home and lay down on my bed,

and to solve my problem, I choose to take a hot Milo with me.

=.=" This way is not that useful though, but it gets a little better.

Hope tomorrow will be better and manage to work :)

Our Memorable Trip

2009-06-21T16:25:00.000-07:00

Went to a relaxing trip with my dear friends on 13th and 14th june.

Here are our happy memories photos^^

Our plan and first day at PD.

Night at PD apartment.
Waiting for shower and thinking to play Heart Attack afterwards.

Spontaneous event. Travel to Malacca on the day we suppose to travel back.

Took a lot of nice foods (of course including cendol & nyonya laksa)^.^

Time to 'bai bai',after taking all yummy yummy foods

The 6 of us. 6 tired feet XD

Finally manage to get Calanthe Art cafe after walking for sooooo long down under the big sun.
Cafe mission succeed.

Took a group photo in front of it.

荒谬事实还是无中生有?

2009-06-20T23:27:00.000-07:00

最近有些事情很烦

或许也是人生中其中一件不如意的事

只是....... 比较严重?

为什么会搞到今天这种局面?

是我太嫩不明白还是你们太复杂?

理性说:"不要想不要面对"

心里说:"好害怕无助错综复杂"

没有结果

依然受折磨

好像.... 也只能不理会和保持沉默.....

Sunshine Project - Last Day Shooting

2009-05-31T11:38:00.000-07:00

After 3 months of hard work, Sunshine Project finally came to an end.

Here are some photos of our last day shooting >.<

Last day of shooting, went to Ulu Yam Rock Eco Resort, for Ladang Bukit Jalil school motivational camp.

Shooting in progress. Left : Host,Kah Chee, Cameraman Halim, Technician Azlan (Kah Chee punya leng zai, but he is getting marry soon, don't dream of him anymore la k ;p). Behind : Lightingman Usuluddin.

Break time = photo time.
Since it was break time, we went to river side to take photos.

The three of us. Left : Producer KT, A.Producer Me, Host Kah Chee. We are all so sunshine. Hahaha ;p

My cute producer, see what she's doing there :D I must resize this picture bigger so that you all can see her funny act. Hahaha :)

Nice shot.

Last but not least, the team of us.

Rest Days

2009-05-30T15:05:00.000-07:00

Managed to rest a few days out of my busy life.

Have a good meet up with some friend, chit-chatted life,

and most excitedly.... Sing K :D Hahahaha..

You know what, we've spent 7 hours in singing...

and the most important thing is,

we've spent less than RM30 within this 7 hours.

OMG!!! It's so tremendous and unbelievable isn't it?

I've not been to K box when I started off my working life.

Sometimes, I do agree with my friend that,

it's a good way to release stress,

since we're always working under high-pressure...

However, after the 7 hours, you still have to come back to the reality,

solving all your problems and matters that you haven't finish.

It's kinda upset anyway, but what to do?? That's what we called life.

Lovely Weekend

2009-05-17T02:10:00.000-07:00

Celebrated the recent French Art Festival^^

watched Ensemble C'est Tout (Hunting and Gathering),

and went for a lovely an orchestra performance (or it should be strictly called an opera instead)named Airs de Cours.

Ensemble C'est Tout, unlike others movie which usually and mostly portray France and french people in a romance way, this movie is much more real and close to french poeple's living and philosophy.

In deep love with this kind of film.... : )

And another thing that I think it's worth to share is,

I haven't been relaxing for a long time and got a chance to enjoy an orchestra pleasantly.

Baroque played by Ronaldo Lopes blended softly with Thierry Gregoire magnetic voice truly swing and bound me out of the earth,

leave all worries, bothers, annoys, depress etc out of my mind.

Managed to heard a four Italian songs, two English songs and uncountable French songs.

I thought Italian will be the most suitable language for opera, but I found out that I prefer opera more in French...

Don't know why..... : )

Strongly recommend those who work under high pressure to enjoy an orchestra since it could help a lot in distress.

What a good weekend, but coming weekend I'm going into jungle for shooting.

Looking forward this excited experience ^^

KL night view after came out from MPO.

So Called Urban Life

2009-05-15T21:18:00.000-07:00

Life is... always changeable,

just like the weather.

Urban people,

work, social,

struggle with their financial,

and nonetheless, jamming...

just like the photos took by me a few days ago,

this is when I was driving company's car to parking,

but it was raining and I was stucked in jam,

wasted my 45 minutes lifetime =.="

Sunshine Project

2009-05-08T00:14:00.000-07:00

Friends, I'm here to promote my team's program to you again ^^

Another good program after Editors Time, called Sunshine Project.

I've been working out this program for a few months, it gives me lots.

Difficulties, happiness, Pressures, Encouragement etc

Those children, those crews, those shooting time, those outstation time etc

all these indirectly contribute a large part of my life,

and I feel so great to have these too : )

Hence, I'm eargerly, desperately wants to share all these with you.

So, if you are with me, don't forget to watch ntv7 every saturday, 6pm, Sunshine Project.

So Into My Off Day

2009-04-13T23:44:00.000-07:00

Ended Editors Time, and next week, Sunshine Project is going to take over.

Therefore, I finally, it means truly real finally, I got a chance to take my B.O.D. YEAH ~ ~ !!!

By the way, B.O.D is replacement of off day in my field ^^

And today, I'm so so so happy, coz I manage to 'pull' my friend out,

to accompany me for a movie which I'm SO INTO IT since it went on at other countries...

hehe ;p if you are guessing through my capital letter hint in the upper sentence,

it should be quite easy to get the answer : )

Yes, it's not others movie but He's Just Not That Into You !

Well, this is a genre that I quite love and into it.

Funny, relaxing and bring out some life philosophy too : )

For my female friends, listen...

If he's interested in you, he'll make anything just to get you, but if he's not, it means he won't.
Of course, there are exceptions, but the majority are not.

This is what I learnt and remembered the most throughout the whole movie : )

Wow!!! how good to have an off day with full sleep and a relaxing movie ^^

Recent Updates

2009-03-27T11:20:00.000-07:00

It has been such a long time for not blogging.

Everytime when I feel like doing it, definitely I was busy with work, or I already 'battery exhausted' ^^

Okay, I think it's time to update my recent life to my dear friends >.<

For those that still blur of my current 'status', I was officially graduate on 14th Mac 2009.

In turn, it means, I am no longer a student, but an employee.

Currently, I work at ntv7 News and Current Affairs department, as an Assistant Producer cum Broadcast Journalist for Editors Time (社視100度)

and another new program called Sunshine Project (陽光行動).

Overall, I love my job, love the environments, love my colleagues. But somehow, I'll be always busy since I have to do 2 programs at the same time. Wuu T_T got called back very often recently, off day cancelled... wuuu.. I miss my off day T_T

Wuu T_T today have to do Editors Time editing till midnite. Tomorrow have to do pre-record Editors Time and on-air again.. HELP @_@

By the way, if any of you are free on Saturday evening, 6pm, do feel free to tune into ntv7 to watch Editors Time and 18th April, 6pm, Sunshine Project will take over ohh ^^

偶遇

2009-02-14T23:25:00.000-08:00

真没想到会在今天

这么一个特别的日子里

这么偶然这么恰巧地

遇上你

当看到熟悉的活动场景

心里头已经愣了一下

想说你会在吗

其实知道不应该去寻求答案

但是身体做的却是另一回事

结果也不晓得哪个才是自己真正想要的结果

庆幸的是你依然认真工作

依然健康依然开朗

这应该也是我打从心底想看到的吧

工作加油! :)

A No For An Ego

2009-02-14T10:01:00.000-08:00

Situation is getting more and more tension nowadays.

Looking back previous life, I've fully enjoyed every moment of it,

unfortunately, there is still a tiny regret deep inside my heart,

I've not fully cherish every single second of my life.

Seeing matters appear and coming towards me,

in a way, and usually, I would take it as it is,

or I am, perhaps, always at the positive state of mind,

but recently, I suppose I face too many frustrations,

however, when I think it another way,

a life without obstacles, is that what you want?

my answer is a no.

Haha :) what a big contradiction thought.

No worries, there's no big deal happen in my life,

and yet, this is not a pessimistic thought too,

it's just a thought, simple neutral thought.

how pleasurable keep on listening to 'Dry Your Eyes' from Liang Wen Yin,

it's a good song and pertinent to my feeling at this moment...

Aurora

2009-02-13T00:00:00.000-08:00

Finally, finally I got some hope...

Now, I need to do preparation,

and God, please give me your sincere blessing..

不一样的元宵节

2009-02-09T00:05:00.000-08:00

好爽哦！

从来都不知道到河丰和江沙找叔叔和祈福可以这么自在、好玩。

出乎意料的看到很多很久不见的亲戚

他们依旧那么亲切

明叔叔老当益壮也记忆更是不得了

这么久不见还一眼就认出阿馨哈哈

很难得见到大表哥和一个忘了排第几的小表弟

好长一段时间没见到他们了真的好想念他们哦 >.<

这里的我

可以傻傻地笑

放肆地讲

不断地到处乱跑

十足一个野孩子

没想到经过了这么多的不如意后再重新归零的我

向往当一名野孩子

Can I Not Be Brave?

2009-02-02T01:24:00.000-08:00

I seldom have this feeling, but this time...

I don't know how to describe.

I just feel like I don't want to be brave this time.

This world, change too rapid,

unpredictable matter always couldn't keep up with planning.

It's scary, it's breathless.

我... 真的... 不是你想像的那么勇敢~~

Rest, Relax & Charging Trip

2009-01-31T01:59:00.000-08:00

Sorry friends, now only I updated photos and post on China trip,

was busying with CNY after I came back from my trip ;p paiseh paiseh...

After 3 years of hard time as a broadcast student, I finally able to enjoy,

a rest, relax and charging trip. I found that I really love travel.

The biggest gain for this trip is I found back my roots of touching,

in mandarin, it's call 最初的感動...

It's common for human, and of course, including me, after going through so many matters, ups and downs, forgot the original touch of a decision.

But, this time I truly realize how a life suppose to be...

Another Work Done

2009-01-07T02:31:00.000-08:00

Yeah!!! I'm done !!!

Done with my dearest friend, Jin's performance shooting and capturing.

By the way, she is a saxophonist.

How tremendous a girl like my size could play saxophone^^

Did enjoy her passionate jingles throughout the shooting :)

Let Go

2009-01-06T02:25:00.000-08:00

No matter how hard you try to hold,

gone means gone...

Times will never never return,

there's no point, no body to keep it ahead and alive,

so why don't we live with those past, sweet memories...

"Australia" night

2009-01-04T02:17:00.000-08:00

A new year started off with a good film,

together with a bunch of close friends...

that's the greatest thing in life, I suppose : )

Finally, I've watched Australia,

new film from our beloved director Baz Luhrmann.

Indeed, it didn't disappointed us : )

Went to yam-cha with friends after we watched Australia,

chit-chatting about the film, suddenly realized we've learned to appreciate

and analyze film throughout 3 years of broadcasting studies.

It means a lot !

Recalling 2008

2008-12-31T01:18:00.000-08:00

2008, is a fully-harvested year.

At the beginning of this year,

I got in touch with the real world,

gone through ups and downs, and knew myself better.

At the middle of this year,

I was in war, fighted for better performance,

realized how would I prefer to behave when I have no choice,

but to face unlikeable people and circumstances.

At the end of this year,

I was so glad that there are still so many soul-mates

supporting me, knowing me, understand me

and always besides with me :)

SMVMS Trip

2008-12-28T00:46:00.000-08:00

Yeah !!! Finally, we went for our smvms trip ^^

Did enjoy it very much although I was tired brfore, during and after the trip...

Below are photos grabbed from Michele's blog...

Michele, remember to pass photos to me ar...

and all the best in your new semester : )

平安夜不安宁

2008-12-24T01:43:00.000-08:00

今年的平安夜一点儿也不安宁
唉因为身体终于拉起了警报
还是乖乖地到诊所拜访医生了

真讨厌哪有人平安夜在诊所的~~
不对！我就是那个奇怪的人！

回到家倒了杯水
看着桌上的药突然想起了你....

我讨厌吃药因为很苦
不病得死去活来谁也没办法叫我吃药

就只有你
也只有你可以
可以诱骗我吃药
突然好想好想你好久没和你联络了.....

I Did Mind

2008-12-23T00:47:00.000-08:00

2 years, it's not a long neither short period.

I thought I've forgot what did I feel 'on that time', but obviously after 2 years, I realize it's still clearly craved in my heart and mind.

When my friend ask me about you, my heart is painful.

"Stranger..." this is the only word I spoke. Yes, indeed, we are stranger now.

How stupid I am, how naive I am.

I thought although we have wouldn't have any relation, but you will still keep our last promise, but you didn't. And, I'm the only stupid person in the world who still keeping this promise. I never thought I have this day....

On the last day, I actually found out you never, instead, keep our last promise. But I did keep our promise till now.

I thought I don't mind, but my bleeding heart told me I did mind, I very mind...

How could you gave people a feeling that you love peace...

How could you mentioned I was the culprit of all these matter instead I was the victim...

How could you never even spoke what you did...

How could you be so unfair to me...

All these unanswerable question appear to me...

I did mind what you did!

Days After 20th Dec 2008

2008-12-22T02:03:00.000-08:00

I'm free, totally free of any burden now because glad to annouce that

I graduate ! (even though convocation will be at Marcch 2009)

I'm planning ahead of my holidays : )

Going off to a few places for vacation,

meeting up my 'old friends' and ex-colleagues,

shopping around, watch my lovey movie and drama series,

sleep whenever I feel like to................ and etc etc.

Wow!!!! What a fabulous life I've dream of for a long time.

Feel like shouting out loud,

"Freedom & Happiness is my highest priority now!!!!"

Needing Silence

2008-12-12T01:31:00.000-08:00

Due to the final exam, I've live a more, so called 'peaceful' days.

Got a chance to have more in-depth thinking,

no matter on my future, on friends and relationships or any other matter.

Indeed, as time passes, finding myself speaks less and not that frequent anymore.

There's no hidden reason, but don't find any reason to voice out.

It's wouldn't help.

In turn, it would most probably become a burden for me.

That's not worth.

So, I need a silence from you, for me.

Lose Control

2008-12-08T00:03:00.000-08:00

Never never expect that I have a day which I, lose total control because of you.

You might think my attitude to you change, especially recently...

But I'm here, to clarify, my heart didn't change...

It's still the same. The one that I care.

Maybe the only different is I want to make a difference,

I'm not the one that could understand you,

I'm not the one that you will choose to talk to,

And I'm never the one that you will care.

Anyway, I just want you to understand,

I still care a lot of you...

我们的大话西游

2008-11-29T01:10:00.000-08:00

话说...

故事从三年前开始...

即将要不食人间“烟火”的唐三藏(简称唐三藏)、鸡精(Ok@_@ 这不算是一个好名字,但鸡精还是勉为其难的接受了)、猴精、猪精和沙憎从未谋面，也不曾想过会结下什么缘...

就在一个世态炎凉的大环境下，它们认识了.

从相识到相惜，它们个别吵过、骂过、不爽过、不谅解过...

在乎, 心疼, 关心, 体谅...

是它们的出发点, 是为彼此作出改变的初衷.

也正因为这些, 才会有今天的唐三藏、鸡精、猴精、猪精和沙憎.

时间一分一秒地过去, 转眼, 三年就这样过去了.

虽然认为终于可以松上一口气，但是早就埋下的感情也偏偏在这时候作祟了.

三年, 没日没夜地聚集在一起, 疯狂地干过许多“好事”, 也义无反顾地互相拔刀相助过...

终于还是要画上完美的句点了.

虽然接近尾声的时刻, 猪精被狐狸精给缠上了, 但至少, 为了唐三藏、鸡精、猴精和沙憎的友情, 猪精拿出了向狐狸精说“不”的勇气. 唐三藏, 为了鸡精、猴精、猪精和沙憎, 扔下亲人“独守家中”. 鸡精, 为了猴精、唐三藏、猪精和沙憎, 就连“远在天边”的家也不回. 猴精, 为了猪精、沙憎、鸡精和唐三藏(也不知道是不是为了这4只妖怪, 哈哈)不惜形象, 乱串“场子”、搞气氛. 沙憎, 嗯, 这有小难想咯, 哈哈, 开玩笑的啦, 沙憎奉献可大了呢! 为了猴精、唐三藏、鸡精和猪精, 它付出了可贵并且没有“战乱”的场子让大家敞开心扉...

那一天，最不争气的应该是鸡精了(其实唐三藏也不赖啦), 不知道哪根筋搭错线, 竟然在没有预警的情况下“失控”了. 其实, 追根究底都是唐三藏的错. 明明就是自己放不下“人世间的情怀”, 点上了什么歌, 好让神经质的鸡精先“失控”, 真讨厌...

再来就是那睡醒的猪精. 偏偏在这种时候醒(都不知道是不是选时候起身看热闹的). 那歌声加上友谊的肩膀, 又让笨鸡精“失控”了...

沙憎也是的. 千选万选, 却选在鸡精还没复原的时候轻拍了两下鸡精的头. 该死的! 鸡精又不争气地“失控”了!

所以，总结就是鸡精是全程下来最失败的!

无论是不是最失败的, 鸡精还是有些话想说.

唐三藏, 谢谢你一路来的关心. 鸡精很撑的个性让它这一路走来很辛苦. 幸好有你的陪伴, 才让鸡精还可以是今天的鸡精...

猴精, 谢谢你体谅和放纵任性的鸡精. 鸡精其实都清楚几时的自己正在任性着. 你的谅解和尽可能地满足鸡精, 让鸡精很窝心...

猪精, 本来你的思想、差距都和鸡精差很多, 但是你的包容、沟通让鸡精看到了你的好, 谢谢你拉近了大家的距离...

沙憎, 谢谢你的用心. 其实你的细心和体谅, 鸡精都有感觉到, 也都有放在心里, 谢谢你...

庆幸“还有你陪我走过这一切, 记忆中你那些微笑的脸........”

My Dear Friend

2008-11-13T00:13:00.000-08:00

Came across my friend's 21st birthday.

Happy Birthday ya, hui ling!

Glad to know everyone of us doing good and graduating soon :)

Appreciate and really enjoy those moments,

chit-chating about our past and future.

As time passes, I found myself hard to release emotions.

Though, when we sat down,

I realize I'm just myself, a true self, with my dear friends.

Don't have to say much, you all will know.

Sat surrounded by you all, not speaking even a word,

also makes friendship clear that it's worth!

It makes me so warmth, so relax.

Come Across

2008-11-09T00:53:00.000-08:00

Sometimes, it's just to hard to start a relationship.

As you grow older, many things, many considerations,become the obstacles.

To start off, bravity is everything.

But soon, how can you both assure of your coming path.

Right person,

Right timing,

Right perception

are everything to ensure a sparkling future.

Not Feeling Well

2008-11-01T00:45:00.000-07:00

Have been busy for all these days.

Familiar with this kind of busy-ness, still body is upset.

Headache always attack, and it will soon burst me out too.

I believe I still can overcome the 2 weeks left,

however, need some time to recover from upside down body condition.

Coming to an end

2008-10-30T01:44:00.000-07:00

It's coming to an end, 4 more weeks to go,

and that's the end of my degree studies.

So much feelings raise up from the deep bottom of my heart.

Woudn't say I have a tremendously cool, enjoyable University life,

but I would rather summarize my University life as colorful,

full of different emotions.

Seeing my friends, we have come along for a long period.

Know each others well, chit-chatting without consider much,

that's really a likeable matter to me.

Will continue to appreciate the time together :)

Random

2008-10-08T01:14:00.000-07:00

Lived in city since I was born. Used to it.

However, as I grew older, and when it reaches midnight...

I wonder how good to have a sea in the city.

It helps overcome loneliness...

The natural sound helps calming thought and emotion...

Live With My Way

2008-10-07T01:34:00.000-07:00

When things or time almost coming to an end, human will start to recall....

This year, there are much to appreciate..

Those memories, those memory-builders are always around in my life..

Loving my life. Loving the way I live.

Just like how my memory-builders love me and I love them in return.

Holiday Days

2008-09-30T21:53:00.000-07:00

Spended the day with my ex-schoolmate..

We've watched Painted Skin, shops around (spended much too =.=") and...

had 'yummy' lunch together.. The lunch that I will not forgot forever...

We tried out Yogi Tree cafe, one of the Organic restaurant at The Gardens..

At first,I was very excited,but then I got a pasta with full of EGGS..yucksss ~~

I ate some, very few of it..

While the waiter intended to clean up our table, he was curious, asked me is that pasta not nice and I was like.. hmm.. how to answer..

At last, I only managed to answer, "Not really, actually not the pasta's problem.."

My friend added, "she don't like eggs..." =.=" OK~~ this is kind of embarrasing...

Anyway, this was a happy day, which I have eager for it for such a long time..

Thanks for spending the day with me..

Oh ya, Thanks for your present too ya :)

21st ~ officially adult

2008-09-28T02:53:00.000-07:00

I know, this title is kinda funny to some of my friend (since they still do not agree that I grow up and could be an adult) =.=" BUT, friends, glad to announce here, I turned into 21st this year.

Thanks to those who remember my birthday~~

and also, specially thanks to those who gave me a memorable, unpredictable, special 21st birthday celebration. I love it and enjoy it very much :) Thanks you, muacksss >.<

Happy Birthday to my dear friend, Mr Pig Chow Guo Wei too, turned into 21st 2 days earlier than me... hehe :p Hope that you don't mind to celebrate together with me for 3 years.. yupe, correct, is 3 years, unbelievable~~

Dear friends, 21st birthday was so warmth to me. I will definitely remember this day forever and ever.

Okiess, it's time to make a promise to you all, or I would say it's taking all your kindly advice. Melanie grew up! I promise I will take good care of myself, always.

Let's stay happily together :D

New Comprehend

2008-09-23T01:48:00.000-07:00

Frankly speaking,Singapore, is not an unfamiliar place to me. I went to there almost few times per year. This year, another feeling, or it's more like a new comprehend about this city.

This is a city where everyone works so hard in pursuing a better life. Somehow similar to my perception although I still do not agree with their boring way of living.

These days, I see another side of it. Quality living comes from yourself. Everyone has a rights to choose how they want to live. Go with what you will enjoy with and that's already a satisfaction of life.

Seeing the Singapore River, along with wonderful night life, is already a prove to this.

Suddenly fall in love with a fresh, new Singapore River.

Healthy Life

2008-09-15T13:28:00.000-07:00

Exam is coming to an end. There's still one subject, Film Studies, to go...

During these 3 weeks final exam, there are a lot of things cross my mine, a lot more things to do, and loads which I wish to do too...

I suppose I have to live a healthy life (at least for this holiday) since I have been living a so called "ab-normal" life fo such a long time...

Thinking to refurnish my room, jogging every morning, read several books that I intended to read for so long, sleep more (at least 8 hours a day), plan my future, yamcha with friends, watch movies and dramas, and the most important thing is take care of myself, do not make myself to fall sick (Haha... :D my mission)

Hmm, looking forwards to my 3 weeks 'new life'

Sometimes

2008-08-30T20:15:00.000-07:00

Sometimes, I feel that world is just too complicated...

Sometimes, I feel it's hard to get across obstacles...

Sometimes, I feel no one could understand the 'newly' world that I'm facing...

Sometimes, my friends are besides me, giving unlimited support...

Sometimes, I feel glad with the current situation that I have...

Sometimes, it's just inside feelings...

Sometimes, it's just sometimes...

Sick

2008-08-16T08:31:00.000-07:00

The end of week 12, a week that need to rush for 3 assignments, I finally collapse...

Fall sick around 6.15am morning, which the night I didn't sleep, whole day and night working out the Communcation Law report (sux subject)

Got fever, but still need to rush to Star Tower early in the morning, to carry n with our live show setting...

I was blur, thought I couldn't do that setting anymore. But, how miracle, when I get into th studio, don't know what forces, my sick is gone... and I manage to do it efficiently...

However, after it ends, I turns back to sick again.. *poor me*

Had a tough week, but then I realize I have something, so called "inner-determination" that could holds me till the end of my work...

Wonder this is a good thing or a bad thing...

True Blessing

2008-07-19T00:02:00.000-07:00

Still on-going with university busy life. This year, after came back from internship, I realize that almost everyone around me, change lots...

Guess including myself, I admit, I changed a lot too...

Glad to see this development in my friends. This means that everyone do grow up, during this 3 months internship.

I guess, the over flexibility in this field, make us feel that we, somehow, must appreciate few months time left at our university...

Although, I know, sometimes, I don't really keep in touch with others, especially during internship (or most probably after graduate), but what is true and real, will last....

Thanks to my dear friends that always be by my side, even though I was so busy and might ignore your kindness to me ;p

But, don't forget, I did, feel touch and remember all your kindness... So, your kindness has not wasted, I put it deep in my true heart : )

I will love to see everyone of us take a suitable road and get your own charming, colourful, bright future : ) True blessing to you and me ~ ~

我和幸福有约

2008-07-08T22:02:00.000-07:00

有人说，有些人与生俱来就快乐，理所当然地拥有着简单的幸福；也有人告诉我，快乐是需要学习的，它很难，并存在于你的观念之中。

快乐不是必然，但不快乐就很难幸福。

坦白说，我并不知道现在的我是不是快乐的。或许，当我没有想起这问题时，我是快乐的。

最近经常灵光一现，回想起好多好多往事，有中学单纯的幸福生活，有水生火热但又充份享受的大学生涯，当然，理想与现实交错的培训生活也是我记忆里重要的一环。

不知道是不是经历了许多的缘故，感觉最近，越来越想拥有简单的幸福。

不需要每一天都很快乐，只需要做自己，对人对事可以坦然，表现最直接的想法和感觉，再勇敢地做自己想做的事，就已经足够。

或许，长大了。当现实越贴近，感觉越清醒，往往就是惘然的开始。

从最初到现在，从来都不知道什么是珍惜，错过了很多。

或许自己太主观，也或许太悲观，老是觉得可以更好。回头想想，其实那何尝不是有点累。

再回首的一刻，才发现这些酸甜苦辣都只是生活的调剂品。没有了它，又怎么会有这么多的回忆。

庆幸，走到今天，20来头，发现了快乐和幸福的重要性。

虽然已经清楚知道，人越大，离快乐越远，但我会努力追随简单的快乐，因为我，和幸福有约 : )

Tagged

2008-05-29T01:38:00.000-07:00

Tagged again. By Michele.

The Rules:-
1. Link to your tagger and post these rules.
2. List five (5) random facts about yourself
3. Elaborate five(5) characteristics/ positive elements u see in the one who tagged you.
4. Tag eight(8) people at the end of this post and list their names.
5. Let them know they’ve been tagged by leaving them a comment on their blogs.

Random Fact 1
I love my life, although a tiring life, I enjoy it very much.

Random Fact 2
I have a lot of interests, but I found it hard to carry on, because I always find myself tired and the one and only interest that I can do is sleep.

Random Fact 3
I have very little time left. Day after day, I'm getting nearer to the real world.

Random Fact 4
I need someone to undertsand me, support me, when cruel realistic ruins me.

Random Fact 5
I appreciate people who love me and always by my side.

Michele
Random Fact 1
A friend that sat besides me when we were at secondary school.

Random Fact 2
She loves sports and science.

Random Fact 3
A happy-go-lucky person.

Random Fact 4
A tough person, I guess. Can handle things on her own.

Random Fact 5
She is caring. Always mumble about my high-pitch voice. Haha ;p

Tagged

2008-05-24T00:01:00.000-07:00

My friend, now I understand what is Tag ! ;p

Tagged by Sze Wei

Rules
1.Link to your tagger and post these rules.
2.Answer the questions below.
3.At the end of your article, mention anyone you would like to tag, or not tagging anyone also can, no limits! But you must answer the questions if anyone tagged you.
4.Inform those who have been tagged by leaving a comment in their blog.
5.Inform your tagger if you already done the tag.

1.Your personality?
Hmm.. "A simple yet complicated person but prefer a simple lifestyle"... Hahaha :D Satisfied?

2.Your strength?
Happy go lucky, idealistic, hardworking (am i ?)

3.Your ambitious?
I used to be very clear at once.. but now, seemed that I need to take many things into account.. so you'll know when I really step into my career...

4.What are you thinking right now?
I need a bath, it's so damn hot these days...

5.Your comment about anything, any facts.
Life is not easy, especially when it comes to the day you need to make your decision.

6.The personality of the person who tag you?
A cheerful gal with all good personalities such as kind, helpful... and a good soul-mate! Haha ;D sure happy to see my answer!

7.The strength of the person who tag you?
Always satisfied, happy and know-well of what she is doing

8.What do you think about the person who tag you?
She is a good friend and good listener who gave me a lot of sweet memories. Remember that last time when we were in Form 4 and especially Form 5, we really stressed up, but we kept each others happy while faced all kinds of difficulties (hehe.. ;p most of the time is add maths period!)

Trips

2008-05-17T15:21:00.000-07:00

These days, too enjoy my holidays. Went to a few vacations. Got terribly excited >.<

In order to "jump out" from a volatile life that I had previously, I spent 1 week at Singapore.

(Left) A S'pore road view

(Right) How wonderful to enjoy a Spa treatment at this kind of Spa Center

Most of the time, I was alone, going no where but just for the sake of taking a look.

Stamford Court, my Low Angle

(Left) Central Fire Station
(Right) It's raining, I was alone walking through Capitol Building

A more memorable trip was my vacation to Kuantan and Terengganu.

An evening spent at Kuantan beach

Batik making, a kind of art inspiration

Even though this is not the first time I've been to there, but maybe is my ex-colleague's back pack epiphany, I found this trip is far more meaningful and out of my expectation.

(Left) totally handly-made wayang kulit

(Right) Different sculptures

What kind of nuts worth RM10 huh??!!

God!Why should people spend $ on snake..
Conventional music players

Apparently, I've become a travel freak :)

Training Photos

2008-05-07T12:43:00.000-07:00

Our family photos

Shah Alam Sri Pentas 2 Studio

One In a Million Grand Finale

Julio & Mandy

(Left) News Special Report, covered at KLCC

(Right) Political news, during general election

General Election

News Polling Night,

a special news live show,

worked with NTV7 news team

Our news Control Room

(Left) my lovely colleague, Broadcast Journalist Bao Yan

(Right) News Production Assistant, Shu Wen

(Left) 8 E-News, June

(Right) Project Superstar Crew

My buddies at 8TV

If you can't see clearly, you could click on the photos to enlarge :p

Industrial Training # Days 94

2008-04-24T01:04:00.000-07:00

As the title mentioned above, 94 working days, I finally finished my internship at 8TV.

And it means my Training blog entries come to an end too......

Actually I end it at 16th april, wednesday.

Sorry, my dear friends...

I know now only post my last week's review is abit late,but after internship, I'm busy with other things too... ;p (as you know, time is gold, I don't really like to waste time)

So, if you want to know how's it after I finished my life at 8TV...I would said..

wonderful, lively but frankly speaking, it's tough and full of grievance too

Now, I would rather prefer that in 8TV content creation,

far more than in 8TV News...

It's very hard and long to tell my 2 and a half months stories as a News Production Assistant cum Broadcast Journalist...

Maybe if you are interested, I can tell you face to face, but not here....

Later, I'll share my training memories here by photos... : ) Stay tune

Industrial Training # Days 86

2008-04-06T00:34:00.000-07:00

Tremendously COOL !!!!! Bravo Death Note !!!

That day, when I was in KL Convention Centre covering Special Report, together with a senior..

My colleague called me, asked me out for movie after we off (that night), and she said got the first screening , free ticket special from our company...

And, I agreed to go (although super tired, super super rush, and till very late too)

At last, I never regret, because it's terribly interesting...

Self-Talk

2008-02-25T21:48:00.000-08:00

Last week, worked for 7 days...

Today, at last, got a chance to rest...

I chosed to sat down alone in a Starbucks, ordered a cup of Latte..

Starred out of the glass, intended to rest my mind...

"How's your life?" a voice from my deep heart appeared,

it stop for a short while

"I'm fine..." a small voice answered, enhance by "I'm always fine and doing good"

Understood life is never easy,nothing could be always goes on as what you wish.....

You can choose to be a Latte, soft and warm.........

But doesn't mean the world will treat you as the same...

Nothing called fair and equal in the reality..

Learn to suit into the world without losing your true self, is what you should do right now....

Industrial Training # Day 50

2008-02-11T01:35:00.000-08:00

Finally I got some time to update my blog. Almost 2 weeks since I changed department.

I'm happy to announce to the rest of the world "I"M IN NEWS & CURRENT AFFAIRS DEPARTMENT !!!!"

so happy, but so stress... 8TV mandarin news is the currently the Malaysia's top news...

And, everyone of them are so so so professional...

Have some experience in running assignments and aoing on-air..

Really happy : D

Industrial Training # Day 29

2008-01-10T23:40:00.000-08:00

There's only one reason why I didn't post for such a long time - I'm busy.

If you are eager to know how's my life at 8tv, I would say that it's busy, it's fun, and it's sometimes, stressful...

I did a lot of things lately.

Went for One in a Million, did tagging.

Follow Brand Management Group to Why Why Love Press Conference.

Then, went to Sunway Pyramid, did Why Why Love fans gathering.

Did a New Year Party in 8tv.

I'll be officially changing to News and Current Affair department on 28th January.

Suppose to be very happy but I felt hard to leave Content Creation Group.

They are so good, so kind, so fun....

I really have a great time with them...

Industrial Training # Day 14

2007-12-19T15:24:00.000-08:00

Working life is busy. Nothing much to describe.

I'm happy with this environment. Everyone is good. Work is serious.

Although public holidays and weekend might need to work, I don't mind.

Though, I love doing events.

10 more days to go before I shift department.

Look forward. Starting to countdown.......

Post from admin CEO office

Industrial Training # Day 7

2007-12-09T23:07:00.000-08:00

Finally finish my first week in 8tv. What a tiring week, weekend also need to work.*sigh*

In another point of view, this weekend are the most happiest day for me, within this week.

Workout Project Superstar.. Wow !!! *like dreams come true*

I did register for all contestants. It's a lot. And various things happened too. Ask me in detail if you want to know.

My admin CEO department head really treat me well, wuwuwu.. I'm so touch T_T She called others to bring me in to different audition room and let me observe and learn.

On the other hand, I get to know a lot of Chinese Content Group people (in another term is production people) too....

They all are good to me. We make fun and enjoy. I like this kind of environment.

Although they might crazy and playful (almost all the time),they still did their job seriously. Everything go on smoothly.

So professional, I'm going to learn. Gambatae : )

Industrial Training # Day 5

2007-12-07T23:37:00.000-08:00

I'm terribly tired but I feel like sharing to my friend, so that's why I'm here now.. hehe ;p

A lot of things to say between day 2 to 6, many things happen, many changes too.

However, I'm not going to talk very detail because need a long time and I just come back from Project Superstar, I need a good rest.

Hope you don't mind I let pictures do the talking...

Took this at 3rd day of working, admin CEO office christmas tree.I reach office too early and I manage to get very kindhearted colleague to open the front door for me (I'm too new and my entry tag is not ready yet).

But I couldn't get into another office of mine. Because only my head and her assistant got that office key. So, I took picture... ;p

Finally got my entry tag at 4th day.

5th day. Work at CEO office. Not admin CEO, is REAl CEO office of 8tv, En Omar. Not many document to do today.

So, my head call me to arrange all the CD at En Izham Omar's room. This is the first time I get into his room. I was shock.

Huge and comfortable. Not like normal office. This picture is only 1 side of the office.

This is another side of the office. So nice. So relax. So,so,so.... whatever so...

This is one shock. Another shock is inside this room, he has a few huge CD racks. I can say it's like a CD library ok? Can you imagine, I need to arrange his CD according to alphabetical order.. fine, who call me is intern... do la..

A lot of interesting thing inside.. En Izham Omar has various instruments also. From those, I know he really love music. Some of the instruments I don't really know too. This is 1 of the best instrument, 4 string bass, very very nice.

Since so many CD and instruments, yet arranging CD is bored too, so I ask my head whether I can play some music while working or not. She said OK, then I open some CD (I think we couldn't get those CD here) and that's Wow.............. again........... sound system surprise me... enjoy it.... :D

Industrial Training # Day 1

2007-12-03T23:46:00.000-08:00

Report to Media Prima HR at 8.45am. Wait till 9 something.

Had a short brief with HR head Mr Kamal.

Sign agreement then report to 8tv.

So, 11.20am I settle down at Admin CEO department.

It's a powerful department. But, all malay.

Fine. I almost forgot all my Malay. It's time for me to speak and catch up again.

Luckily I still can understand and respond. My colleague are quite friendly too.

However, the work itself, don't seem interesting to me.

I know I could do admin work but I don't like it.

Luckily I will be at Admin CEO for 1 month, then I'll shift to content creation (production) department.

They brief through some of the work. Then I'm on my own. Blur-ing with everything.

Basically I did almost everything.

I see them chit-chating, eating tibbits, seeing me doing work, while I myself have to key in data, find the documentaries,preparing contract and answering all internal and external in coming phones.

Ok. I know it's stupid. I know you are laughing.

But, what to do. I'm new and in the stage of learning.

Fine, sounds like I'm complaining, actually I'm not, I do learn something.

Wish me luck in being an OL for 1 month....

Hell Preparation

2007-12-02T11:43:00.000-08:00

Ok. These three days I'm super super busy. Preparing my coming early Industrial Training.

Went to a lot of shopping centre. Bought a lot of stuffs.

Stuffs like jeans, formal attire, sports shoes, high-heels, cosmetics....

All normal things but I lack of them.

Like jeans and sports shoes, you wonder why I need those.

Because they told me production don't wear high-heels and formal attire.

Need to wear jeans and sports shoes.

When they told me this, my mind only flash through a word... "DIE"

I don't like jeans. I only got one jeans and I don't realy wear it.

Somemore sports shoes, I don't even remember my last time wearing sports shoes.

High-heels always with me, I don't know since when.

And, cosmetics, I don't really make-up. Most of the time my friend help me to do make-up.

What to do. Need to learn.

While rushing, their HR still called me, request me to bring some document and passport size photos.

OMG !!!!! they need 3 passport size photos. I don't have so many...

Then rush to take photos again..

After I did my preparation, staraight away I travel to Penang.

Now, just come back from Penang.

Tired. Tomorrow start working.....

Wish me luck : )

Interview at 8tv

2007-11-29T23:28:00.000-08:00

Unbelievable. Today, went to 8tv for Industrial Training interview.

I would said that it's quite relax.

I don't know why. I don't feel like I'm being interview. It's more like having a talk show.

Then, they got me straight away. Somemore, they're discussing my placement in front of me..

Weird but happy.

Because one interviewer from admin CEO department, one from admin branding department.

Both want me to get into their department.. See them arguing, really funny... Hahaha :D

Finally admin CEO won with the reason admin CEO is more powerful than admin branding department..

Suppose I'll start next year, 3rd January, but they need people urgently.

So, I'll start next monday.

Before that, I heard some of my coursemates who got Double Vision will start on 10th December, I still laugh, pity them, need to start so early, no study week, no holiday...

But, now, I'm the earliest to start among all my coursemates.

1st December end all my class. 3rd December start working... wuwuwuwu T_T

No study week for me, 15th December still need to take final exam...

In turn, I actually felt very excited because they'll teach me admin things, then there're a lot of production like Project Superstar Audition and 8tv Prom night LIVE show, they said they need me to get in those production too...

Wow.. terribly excited :D

Revealing

2007-11-29T00:13:00.000-08:00

A lot of things happened. Happy, nervous, sad, everything blend together.

It's almost the end of this short semester.

I was happy that I could watch Cyndi's concert in my 20 years old time.

And I got a lot of excited experience too.

I was nervous because everything is not going on as smooth as I think. *sigh*

Life is like tat isn't it......

I was sad. No one could actually understand my situation and feeling.

Life is ruining out of my control. I don't know what makes me today is correct or wrong.

I just know things done, is done, no turning back.

I'm no longer the girl that you know....

But a girl that you may need more time to know.....

"Diaries" Fault

2007-11-06T00:50:00.000-08:00

I never expect. Today, once again, you choose to hurt me.

I know you willl say you didn't.

But I knew. Since the day when we hand in topic that we want to do.

I can sense it. Strongly. You will hurt me. And, I admit, I couldn't stand with it.

Are you happy?? This is what you want to see isn't it??

Since the day I knew the truth, there's no turning back.... no matter what...

Hurt is done and it will be there forever and ever....

Very Soon

2007-11-02T12:08:00.000-07:00

I'm going to prove to you I have the ability

I'm going to justify to you that you over lookdown on me

I'm going to WIN !!!!!

Tough Period

2007-10-22T02:36:00.000-07:00

I remembered Yiu Sing told me.....

“The strongest man, is not the one that defeat how many person, but who have the competence of learning from failure ”

最強的強者，不是在於他打敗了多少人，而是他有本事從失敗中站起來

“The bravest man is the one who has the courage to face millions of difficulties ”

最有勇氣的人是他勇敢地面對接踵而來的困難

I, will be the bravest fighter @ 最有勇氣的強者!

Last Semester of Year 2

2007-10-16T23:15:00.000-07:00

First day of schooling, no mood at all.

Don't know what really matters me. Just don't feel like talking.

Knowing I need to social around, still, didn't force myself to do it.

Looking at people, I feel hard to adapt myself again in school life.

Maybe this is what happen each semester start. I hate this.

Realize... something that I actually trying hard to ignore is still disturbing me.

Though it past, the tough feeling is still deep inside my heart.

Is it I have to go through all the way again to cure my painful experience...

Good but spent a lot Day

2007-10-12T01:49:00.000-07:00

Early morning my cousin called for shopping. Thinking I have to end my semester break these few days, I agreed to go with her.

She's those heavily addicted to shopping, really can shop for a long time.

As compared to her, I'm still light shophaholic but today, I also spent a lot T_T

We shop for almost one whole day.

First stop is KL Pavilion. Spent almost 3 hours.

Second stop is Bangsar Shopping Center (bsc). She loves it very much =.="

Then we went to Bangsar Village,which is my 1st time been there.Quite nice ^^

And finally we went to Mid Valley and The Gardens. I love The Gardens.

The building design is far more better than KL Pavilion. Those design, laser reflection make it very class.

We went till 10pm.. OMG!!!!!!! One whole day spent inside shopping center. What a waste.

I thought we are going home, but she suggest we go BSC for a drink...

Though I'm so tired, but I wouldn't want to disappoint her,so I agreed too..

We sat at a Isa Bordega cafe for a drink...

The night atmosphere is good..I drank a cocktail, a very special one.. hehe..

Good but spent a lot day !

Torture

2007-10-07T04:12:00.000-07:00

Late mid night. Couldn't sleep.

Yesterday my panel doctor changed a new medicine for me.It's a new medic.

I think it's quite heavy because I only have to eat at night. Once a day.

I felt hard, very uncomfortable. My heartbeat fluctuate.

Up and down. Very fast. Very irregular.

I got headache soon afetr consumed the medic.

Thought it's just a while, so I lay down on my bed. Hope to rest earlier.

But really couldn't sleep. After suffered for a few hours then only back to normal.

*Sigh* Torturing.........

Relax

2007-10-06T19:49:00.000-07:00

Yeah !!!! a new look for my blog, hope to have a new mood : )

Yesterday, used half of my day to change my blog. At first, very excited to design my blog (coz wanted to do it long time ago but no mood and lazy).

After creating the header, I felt bored and lazy. So I kept it as simple as possible.. Hahaha lazy way of doing things..

Today, went Pavilion shopping. Not bad. Quite enjoy. ^^

Stable

2007-10-04T18:25:00.000-07:00

Didn't post for such a long time.. My holiday is still ok... just sometimes a little bit bored..

Anyway, I feel very stable. Nothing to worry. Nothing to care of.

Readed some books. Got some new perspective.

Particularly, is a good thing for me. At least, I found another me.

Know things from different perspective. Hope to have some self-development.

Another main thing in this holiday that I'm eager to accomplish is prepare a 20th birthday present for myself..

Now, still in progress.. When it's ready, I can share it here with everyone... ^^

Special & Meaningful

2007-09-21T17:51:00.000-07:00

17th September 2007. A very special day, for me. No school. No exam. But that's not what make me excited.

I have a special event to attend at 11.30am. At KPMG.

Suppose KPMG has no direct relationship with me because it's an accounting firm. The only thing is my mum work there.

However, surprisingly, I got the High Achiever's Award from KPMG. (According to them, they are giving out scholarship and I got selected)

Letter from KPMG

Wow!!! That's sounds really amazing huh.... ^^ Yeah.. quite unbelievably to me too...

So, this particular day, I attended the High Achievers' Award ceremony.. hehe ^.^

Basically, I'm not really interested in the name of High Achiever. In turn, I'm more eager to get that sum of $$$$$

Cheque received ;p Don't wanna let u noe how much $

They grant me the name, of course, a sum of $, a certificate(which they haven't ready)...

Ceremony was conducted at their Boardroom, a very nice, full-equiped Boardroom. Scholarship was given by KPMG Board of Director.

Got it !!! And happy taking H2 Balloon too...

The only thing that I'm not use to it was social with mum's colleagues and Board of Director.. @_@ BORED...

But at least, I'm satisfied with that $, enough for me to survive for at least half or 1 year... hehe ^^

In addition, got a blue balloon from Bio-Therm when I went out from Wisma KPMG.. Is Hidrogen balloon o... hahahaha.. so happy.. :D

"Give Me A Break"

2007-09-13T00:36:00.000-07:00

Night, exam time, shouldn't be posting here. Just don't feel like studying.

Recently borrowed a book from library. At first, just intended find some extra material for Screenplay and Scripwriting final exam but end up borrowed this book.

I was attracted by it's title "Give Me A Break"..... Title per se sounds like fiction.

Yes, sort of. But, it's a kind of non-fiction with the elements of fiction.

An autobiographt book written by a journalist, sharing about his experience and change.

An interesting book and suit my current mood. Just want a break. Although now it's almost holiday for me and I'm going to have my break, I really hope I can take of my burden, rest for a while.

Tired, tired, tired..... will at last, cause me to have serious frustration...

Have to get myself really to put down everything... just a short period will do..

Children = naughty ???

2007-09-08T16:53:00.000-07:00

Spent half of the day with my small little cousin. It's very comfortable.

Usually people will have a mindset of children=naughty but in my perspective, children=naughty=true.

I wouldn't say that I love children very much.

But I do like them almost all the time because I could express truly to them. They are just as simple as them.

Nothing to hide. Nothing to scared of. Nothing to bother. No thing leads to complexity.

My Day

2007-09-05T20:54:00.000-07:00

Noon, went to 1U alone after consulted ms leong. Lonely? Hmm.. sort of.

Get into MS READ Delicious cafe (looks like the surrounding of the cafe is good, but actually it's not). Ordered a Lemongrass Lychee Smoothies instead of selecting coffee.

Took up a book that I've just borrowed from library today and started to read. Couldn't really concentrate.

Generally is because the environment make me very uncomfortable. Partly is because the smoothies is tasteless.

I found that many people are looking at me. Very curiously.

My sense is strong enough to pull me out of the chair and leave that place. I lefted. Wandered around again.

This time, I even felt that people around (of coz not everyone) are curious enough to figure out what this girl is doing here.

While my mind is out of the space and my body continue to wander around, a woman, 30 plus over (I think), stopped me. Asking me weird questions :

"Gal, you are.. currently working?"
"Nope.." and I started to scare and want to escape. But she stopped me and continued.
"Can you do me a favor? I wanna ask you some question.."
"No.." I answered in a very very low voice.

Most of my friends knew, I'm that kind that don't know how to reject a person's request, especially stranger. So, she continued.

"You are a student.. Do you ever heard of E-shopping?"
I kept on shaking my head. I'm scared.
"Would you like to earn $ besides studying? I have a way here....."she started to explain a lot.

This time, I couldn't do nothing. I kept on shaking my head and said bye bye (I don't know why I said bye to her). Then, I ran away.

*Sighing* Is it I shown an innocent face that wrote I'm easy to be cheat? Ridiculous people.

What a day.

My Dear Friends

2007-09-01T02:33:00.000-07:00

Last few weeks were scary and tiring week that I wouldn't like to remember.. But, in these scary days, I still managed to spare out a few hours and went out to have a Shabu with my dear friends...

I would said that this is the most precious moment in my hard days...

Meeting them is the most relaxing thing for me.. Although we had not been met for such a long time, our friendship is still as close as last time... and, I really found that I miss everyone of them very very much..

Seeing everyone so happily talking to each other (and it is quite noisy, don' know who to listen to), I'm so so so lucky to have all of them besides me...

And, I've not met my Xue Di Xue Mei for quite some time too.. Excited to meet them and we really have a lot to talk about... hahaha :D

Surprisingly, time flies, but me and Xue Mei have almost the same haircut... So happy to see them live happily....

心•蒙蔽了 Neglected Love

2007-08-16T22:49:00.000-07:00

Finally...
Our production..
Our drama....
is out...

Here is the trailer,
complete drama may request
from me...

Enjoy :D

心•蒙蔽了 Neglected Love

2007-08-16T07:23:00.000-07:00

Finally... Our production... Neglected Love is out...

This is the trailer, whole drama is with me.... Enjoy :D

Consequences of Independent

2007-08-11T12:13:00.000-07:00

Sometimes, felt that over independent is a worst thing in life... Seems like everything have to be handle by yourself.. No one could actually help and no one could actually willing to help since everyone thinks that you are independent enough...

Hate myself over independent, even sick, it's my responsibility to drive to clinic and consult doctor.. (sick didn't recover but I got another illness)

Medic allergic, it's my fault again, my responsibility agian to consult doctor one more time...(Now, I don't even want to bother anymore...)

Independent, for me, isn't a good thing, but I would rather said it's a worst feeling...

I would rather prefer someone to be beside to help, or just to share with me...

Sufffering Sore Throat & Dry Cough

2007-08-07T21:45:00.000-07:00

Maybe I was lack of sleep (but I always lack of sleep) that cause me to have a sudden sore throat and dry cough these few days...

Maybe is my everyday consumption pattern that lead me to this too...

Maybe is the weather lately, and I'm not use to it...

*sigh* No more maybe... sore throat and dry cough means I'm sick....

Physically, Mentally Sick

2007-08-03T21:43:00.000-07:00

These few days keep busying and worrying about tv production drama editing.. Don't have much time to rest..

Although it's tiring, as long as satisfy, I don't mind staying up late, doing all hard works..

Today, after last lecture, multimedia lecture, suddenly felt down... Physically not feeling well, mentally sick.. Got tied up.. everything is still so rush, problems happen together..

Do not know what else can I do.. No matter how hard I tried to solve problems, still, a lot of problems come to me...

Depress and stress, nowadays, find myself useless, don't have ability to solve problems anymore.. Too many problems for me, that's enough..

This subject got problems, before solving, another person tell me another subject's problems... Got really fed up...

Felt always solving problems alone... Getting speechless and speechless, don't have a specific reasons that cause that.. simply just do not know what to talk and lazy to face human....

Tired Life Tired Heart Tired of Everything

2007-08-02T18:39:00.000-07:00

It's the first time I felt to face myself bravely, face my true feeling to the real world.... but finally.. what do I get??

Once I decided that, I never thought of the consequences.... now, the consequences comes to me...

How long I had been hiding my true feeling? I didn't know.. for years, I felt hard to live and sometimes, I even felt that I had lost myself in a mysterious world....

Life is always not as easy as we think, but I just want to be myself.. isn't that a hard thing to achieve??

I'm miserable.....

Dreamz Valley

Suffer "Traps"

生态定律的一线之差

Hard Time

Me - Myself

Personal Updates

16th Jan 2010 Onwards,Every Saturday 6pm

Heart Talk - TV Promo 1

Teaser

It's Always There

没了"烦扰" 但也少了你

Sandy Lam Live Concert 2009

Never Ever Anymore

Recent

FIR. (p/s : Not F.I.R taiwan band)

Pls Give Me Some Space To Breath

Over

Book Fair Outing Day

Random

No Closure :(

Realization

PKFZ Live Show

Life

Let's Go Mamak... AGAIN !

Another New Identity >>> STUDENT

What a Day

Our Memorable Trip

荒谬事实还是无中生有?

Sunshine Project - Last Day Shooting

Rest Days

Lovely Weekend

So Called Urban Life

Sunshine Project

So Into My Off Day

Recent Updates

偶遇

A No For An Ego

Aurora

不一样的元宵节

Can I Not Be Brave?

Rest, Relax & Charging Trip

Another Work Done

Let Go

"Australia" night

Recalling 2008

SMVMS Trip

平安夜 不安宁

I Did Mind

Days After 20th Dec 2008

Needing Silence

Lose Control

我们的大话西游

My Dear Friend

Come Across

Not Feeling Well

Coming to an end

Random

Live With My Way

Holiday Days

21st ~ officially adult

New Comprehend

Healthy Life

Sometimes

Sick

True Blessing

我和幸福有约

Tagged

Tagged

Trips

Training Photos

Industrial Training # Days 94

Industrial Training # Days 86

Self-Talk

Industrial Training # Day 50

Industrial Training # Day 29

Industrial Training # Day 14

Industrial Training # Day 7

Industrial Training # Day 5

Industrial Training # Day 1

Hell Preparation

平安夜不安宁