Recalling 2008

2008, is a fully-harvested year.

At the beginning of this year,

I got in touch with the real world,

gone through ups and downs, and knew myself better.

At the middle of this year,

I was in war, fighted for better performance,

realized how would I prefer to behave when I have no choice,

but to face unlikeable people and circumstances.

At the end of this year,

I was so glad that there are still so many soul-mates

supporting me, knowing me, understand me

and always besides with me :)

SMVMS Trip

Yeah !!! Finally, we went for our smvms trip ^^

Did enjoy it very much although I was tired brfore, during and after the trip...

Below are photos grabbed from Michele's blog...

Michele, remember to pass photos to me ar...

and all the best in your new semester : )

平安夜 不安宁

今年的平安夜 一点儿也不安宁
唉 因为身体终于拉起了警报
还是乖乖地到诊所拜访医生了

真讨厌 哪有人平安夜在诊所的~~
不对！我就是那个奇怪的人！

回到家 倒了杯水
看着桌上的药 突然想起了你....

我讨厌吃药 因为很苦
不病得死去活来 谁也没办法叫我吃药

就只有你
也只有你可以
可以诱骗我吃药
突然 好想好想你 好久没和你联络了.....

I Did Mind

2 years, it's not a long neither short period.

I thought I've forgot what did I feel 'on that time', but obviously after 2 years, I realize it's still clearly craved in my heart and mind.

When my friend ask me about you, my heart is painful.

"Stranger..." this is the only word I spoke. Yes, indeed, we are stranger now.

How stupid I am, how naive I am.

I thought although we have wouldn't have any relation, but you will still keep our last promise, but you didn't. And, I'm the only stupid person in the world who still keeping this promise. I never thought I have this day....

On the last day, I actually found out you never, instead, keep our last promise. But I did keep our promise till now.

I thought I don't mind, but my bleeding heart told me I did mind, I very mind...

How could you gave people a feeling that you love peace...

How could you mentioned I was the culprit of all these matter instead I was the victim...

How could you never even spoke what you did...

How could you be so unfair to me...

All these unanswerable question appear to me...

I did mind what you did!

Days After 20th Dec 2008

I'm free, totally free of any burden now because glad to annouce that

I graduate ! (even though convocation will be at Marcch 2009)

I'm planning ahead of my holidays : )

Going off to a few places for vacation,

meeting up my 'old friends' and ex-colleagues,

shopping around, watch my lovey movie and drama series,

sleep whenever I feel like to................ and etc etc.

Wow!!!! What a fabulous life I've dream of for a long time.

Feel like shouting out loud,

"Freedom & Happiness is my highest priority now!!!!"

Needing Silence

Due to the final exam, I've live a more, so called 'peaceful' days.

Got a chance to have more in-depth thinking,

no matter on my future, on friends and relationships or any other matter.

Indeed, as time passes, finding myself speaks less and not that frequent anymore.

There's no hidden reason, but don't find any reason to voice out.

It's wouldn't help.

In turn, it would most probably become a burden for me.

That's not worth.

So, I need a silence from you, for me.

Lose Control

Never never expect that I have a day which I, lose total control because of you.

You might think my attitude to you change, especially recently...

But I'm here, to clarify, my heart didn't change...

It's still the same. The one that I care.

Maybe the only different is I want to make a difference,

I'm not the one that could understand you,

I'm not the one that you will choose to talk to,

And I'm never the one that you will care.

Anyway, I just want you to understand,

I still care a lot of you...