Miserable

Tired of everything's in life..

No matter how hard I tried..
How hard to live happily...
Still, I'm physically and mentally exhausted..

Life didn't go smooth..
Things remain unchanged...
I'm still the one who suffered all this..

No matter what...

I'm still on my own..

Alone on my own...

Maybe..
This is a part of my life...

I couldn't mananged to avoid..

Congrats

Congrats to my dear friends that succeed to get into local universities... I can understand it's hard to get a place in local univerisity and I really happy to hear that almost all of you get it..

Unfortunately, for some of you who get Sabah and Sarawak universities, I feel sorry about it.. but I think Sabah and Sarawak are good places to study and concentrate..

Although it might be a little bit hard for us to meet each others, as long as you all happy studying in universities, I'll be satisfy with that.. : )

cheer up :D it's our university's time..

Depressed Americano

11.46pm, jz stopped today's work.. nothing special, still busy and still tired.. Today, had my first cup of coffee late in the late evening at San Francisco Bukit Bintang.. Didn't have a chance to have a cup of coffee until the late evening..

Tried Americano Coffee... It's a kind of black coffee, pretty nice especially it's aroma.. Sat at the window site, looked at city's people, rushing here and there.. suddenly felt depressed with it.. Is it because of Americano? or because of KL people?

Usually I'll have a cup of coffee and fall into my own deep thinking, let my mind wander.. but today's Americano didn't give me that chance.. Couldn't really sink into my deep thinking because I'm with a group of my friends...

Wasted a golden chance to appreciate Americano...

Super Tuff Job

Brainstorm ideas is never an easy task, grouping ideas into one even more difficult... As earlier I've mentioned, I don't have the motivation to be the Scriptwriter (since plus TV production, I've to come out with 3 different drama script)

It's extremely hard to get a balance in 10 person's ideas... Furthermore, we have different opinions, thinking and perfect genres in ourselves, my ideas may not be yours so do yours may not be mine...

Since I've taken all your HIGHLY request to be the Scriptwriter, I never regret for taking over this SUPER TUFF JOB..

Though it might be very difficult,I still try my very best to get THE BEST OUT OF THE BEST.. I need all of you to cooperate with me, bear with me..

Please don't make anything worst, this is not what I want to see between us.. If you have any suggestion, any question, any unacceptable idea, please tell me.. I would like to listen to you in our discussion or worst come to worst tell me privately...

Ignorance Of Deep Feeling

"Live happily" is a simple life philosophy, everyone understand it yet not everyone can achieve that... Now, this simple philosophy can truly represent my situation and deep feeling inside my heart..

Everyday I feel good going to university, attend classes, even doing all assignmenns happily.... but I just couldn't stand with facing you face to face.. everytime I see you, even you didn't do anything to me, my heart get extremely weak, my mind went blank, my mood fluctuate, up and down non-stop..

Do you realize you are directly and indirectly affecting my life??

Sometimes I felt irritate to see your uncertain facial expressions.. that's only show you don't care.. No matter is my fault or yours you just don't care about it.. I'm terribly disappointed with you..

Back to Normal ?

Glad to see everything back to normal operation, groups settled, everyone working hard in assignments by now..

6 subjects in Year 2 Semester 2.. Each and every one of it is quite heavy as compared to previous years or semesters..

1. Tv Production

2. Screenplay and Scriptwriting

3. Media Planning

4. International Advertising

5. Communication Research Method

6. Multimedia Design and Application

I think, for most of us, the most excited subject would be TV Production.. ^.^ (coz this time we are going to produce drama)... Hahahaaha :D

For me, I think week 8 will be the busiest, stressful week for me because I have to hand in Communication Research Report, hand in Screenplay individual script, my turn to present Communication Research Report and I have to go out for TV Production drama shooting..

*Sigh* Let's start our busy life...

Warm

Grandma came back from Singapore last weekend.. I got really excited to see her although she didn't change much.. She leave for a long period and I didn't noticed that I do miss her a lot until I meet her..

Now, she's in KL for 1 month.. We visit her and she cooked for us.. *feel so touch*

When I ate what she cooked, my heart was full with warmness....

Till now only I realize I had been trying very hard to leave on my own, do everything on my own and I feel tired.....

It's so good that after a war or got upset, you have someone that always give you their love and caring...

I really appreciate grandma's goodness..

Crucial Understanding

Nowadays I'm getting speechless and speechless.. Just started a new semester and we are getting into lots of trouble and everyday going to university seems like a war for me.. If you would ask about my feeling, definitely, I will said I don't like this kind of feeling... because suppose we are still students who are going to be adults but we are not yet adults..

I can understand that we shouldn't be so stress and care about assignments and especially group members... We are not that kind that will sacrifice friends and just care about assignments.. I hope whoever involve (in our gang) can understand, we are trying our best to protect you and our friendship..

As I said before, working and friendship should be 2 separate things.. I would wish this is not 2 different things but it's a realistic world.. It's time to be matured in thinking.. If we couldn't work together doesn't mean we can't be friend.. in return, I think avoiding all working matter, we can be good friends, even better than before...

I'm sorry and would like to apologise to whoever being hurted (in our gang).. I would like to listen from you regarding your opinion and feeling since we are communication student and we must communicate.. I have my own reasons for doing things and in making every decision..

Remember, this is a realistic world, competence stands up, weaker will be failed... In order not to be fail, weaker have to stand up and follow the fast pace in society...

Sally Yeh Concert

Last friday got a surprise trip to Genting again.. 3 little girl got free ticket to Sally Yeh concert.. hahaha XD Although we don't know Sally Yeh much but life at KL is too bored.. therefore, we rushed back and went to Genting..

At first, I kept yawn in the concert because I don't know her song and I felt tired because that day was friday, we end our class quite late... but in the middle me, xiu wen and zjo were very high... how high??? hahaha high until the uncle aunty around us got very high and shout with us as well... hahahaha.. so funny la..

After concert , zjo's friend invite us to clubbing... again, we went to Safari but that night was not Ladies night, every person need to paid entrance fees and Zjo's friend paid for us.. wahh.. so good.. That night actually quite dangerous, a lot of weird people around..

5 sumthing in the morning we got a RM100 deluxe Genting Highlands room for a quick knap.. then wake up at 9 sumthing and went home...