Suffer "Traps"

I don't understand.. why am I getting myself into this kind of "traps".

It's extremely suffering.

I guess I've learnt from it. No matter how hard you try to make it, nothing can be force.

If things really happened to be your way, it will still turns to another way too.

God.. Must remember this.

Never ever falling into this kind of "traps" again!

生态定律的一线之差

“有一些人跟事，是永恒不变的”

以前,
从没质疑过这句名言。
但是人越大,
却跟这句名言越来越遥远...

不是不相信,
只是就算不说出口,
心里也清楚,
这世界上,
没有任何人跟事,是永恒不变的。

以前的我们,
懵懂过,激情过,计较过,辛酸过...
这些都是无可否认的事实。
它,曾经那么地真实。
现在,还是那么真实的回忆,
只是这回忆有没有延续呢...

常想,
任何东西都是双方面才有办法维持平衡。

单方面的努力,
不是不可能,
只是很容易疲惫,
一旦疲惫了,
放弃了,
坚决不再回头的,
往往都是一直在默默努力的这一方。

或许,
变质了就是变质了,
不需要强求,
而是需要放手。

Hard Time

Last post dated April. Almost one month ago.

Throughout this one month, I actually felt like blogging, expressing my depressed, thoughts, hardships and feeling, but I have really no time.

Took over a big project, which make me really tense up, I couldn't even smile everyday, since everyone is waiting for your cue, seeing you how to make this never ever done before big project happen (or in negative terms, see how you die)...

That's really not a good feeling, and I hate this kind of feeling.

I'm still new in position, why can't they all give me some support/guiding opinion???

Perhaps this is the real world.

Although I was tired, I still started to think deeply why am I going into this position..

Is that what I want in my life? *miserable*

I like team works, but can we have a good one?

I know I couldn't control how people think and act, but I sincerely hope that this world could have more supportive people around.

Pls don't easily lose control by expressing the temper or negative thoughts... If you think you are having a hard time, others does! It will just making others feel even bad...

Me - Myself

My last blog entry dated Jan 17,which means I dumb my blog long enough.

Or maybe you can said that I don't have time,or I'm not brave enough to write down any of my thought these few days.

This last until I accidentally enter a colleague's (soon leaving colleague) blog. I readed one of his entry and I think maybe it's time for me to face myself.

Not sure whether it applies to media field or most of the working adults, I just feel like I'm trying not to have too many own thoughts (which this will not happen in the past me).

Therefore,I don't dare to think, don't dare to write diary,don't dare to touch my blog.

I know it's is obviously not mentally healthy, maybe it's just a trend I try to fit into the real world.

Right until today,I feel very tired,very fed up, and a thought just cross my mind...

why am I doing all these thing?

I still wonder... but at least, I manage to figure out sometime to once again, have my own thoughts, hopes my little thinking will not flooded by mainstream working field thinking...

Personal Updates

Have been in a new job for 1 week.

Sometimes I feel that I already use to it, but sometimes it's not.

I don't know why. I think most of the time I'll usually get a 'bomb'...

and that's also those time I couldn't hide my shockness...

Luckily I only get my eyes to open so big but not yelling yet XD

Stress is coming to me,

obviously those stress is even stressful than last time.

If it's like to be put in words, it makes me reluctant to take food,

and make me have panda eyes everyday :(

2010, a new year... what a new gift that's given to me...

16th Jan 2010 Onwards,Every Saturday 6pm

As you can see from the TV promo and teaser, yes, it's a program that my team produced,

and that's also what I've been workout for last 7 months.

Heart Talk lays its foundation on previous big news.



In a sight view of news reporter, we always found that it's getting a lot of attention when the big news happened, and readers always flooded by facts and figures such as how many people died etc...

But, we've forgotten one most important thing, it's not the number and facts in the news, but story behind the news itself.

Therefore, we wanted you to see through those previous big news people, find out how's their life and things goes on after the incident.

It's being very hard for us, especially as we gone through those cases happened in 70s or 80s.. I would said that one of the biggest challenge is to find out these people's contact.

It's always a hard thing when you only get facts, figures and name on the old newspaper, but not contact number or address. By using any networks, and gone through many diversions, we finally found out those people.

This doesn't mean that we manage to proceed on smoothly, we still need to talk to them, get to know what happen to them throughout years after the incident, and persuade them to let us proceed on with the shooting.

I will said it's really a very very very tough job, and we always change on the cases as most of them do not want to be discover by media anymore.

You may think that I'm pushing hardly for this program, hard-selling everywhere. Frankly speaking, I really do hope audience will watch it and see our effort.

It's not easy to produce a program. What it rewards and make us move forward is only YOUR WATCHING !

Heart Talk - TV Promo 1

ntv7 brand new current affairs.



Starting 16th january 2010, every saturday 6pm :)