TV production team

See ! Our pictures are so professional... Thanks to X'tina for making black crew shirt for us..

Production period was over, currently we move into a post-production stage, which I have not much things to do....

(just to write the final message and record it in broadcast lab)

and you all have to do more than me now... hahaha :D hardly come across this.... coz felt uncomfortable that you all are editing and I have nothing much to do....

Really miss our production period, although is a tuff period, almost everyone fall sick, a proud thing I would like to share is we mange to control our temper (except for 1 and 2... but finally ok also...)

This is the biggest improvement I could ever see in our group... felt glad that everyone works for their best in their position...

Wait for our "Qing Gong" (celebration) then we can have another fun night together ya ^.^

Touchable

It's a glad, touchable and thankful day... Whole week drama production really tiring, yet I still have my own Communication Research Method (CRM) individual presentation....

Don't think much for CRM presenattion because I myself very worried of our production and whole week average sleep 1 to 2 hours only... *exhausted until no time to worry*

Today class.. 9.30am Screenplay lecture, sadly, I'm the only one who attend, very blur and blank, don't know what Dr Sham is talking (and giving him blank look)

And I'm very very very worry about my team, don't know you all can wake up or not, can move the equipment or not, don't know how to help you all sign attendance...

Therefore, thinking to go back to Bukit Jalil to help you all,but you all said no need, n knowing I have serious sore throat and i mentioned painful till don't know how to present...

So rush you all still go anf buy Strepsils for me and purposely rush back to university just to give me Strepsils instead of drop off all heavy equipment at Jasmine first... T_T

Elaine also... T_T purposely rushed back to university and bring laptop for me and wan ying... Got a phone call from Elaine saying that she will rushed back to university on time, not to worry really touch me... T_T

Thirdly, I know everyone in our grous is so tired but purposely attend me and wan ying's presentation... just to support 2 of us... Seeing you all, I really speechless... I feel very glad and thankful to have you all besides...

Some words for you all :

Guo Wei :
Seeing your silhoutte walking fast at 1st floor, bringing me Strepsils really touching.. Thanks a lot for your concern... and thanks for supporting instead of going home.. but if you really go home I also won't blame you because your work load and responsibility very heavy.. As your assistant, I don't know I got really help out or not, but seeing you carry so much responsibility, I also feel very sorry...

Elaine :
Thanks for everything, I know you all love me and care of me very much... got your phone call and heard your tone that said you will definitely rushed back.. I really don't know what to say, no matter how hard, you all still try to rush back and still help wan ying download thriller at the very last minute... others than thanks, I really don't know what to say.. Lately only I know, university also got friend understand me, feel what I feel.. thanks !!!!

Janice :
Sorry for alwas "ZAT" you... not purposely want to say you aunty or what.. just feel that seeing your reaction very very funny la... thanks for giving me a lot of fun... hahaha.. Now onwards, don't ever said I always help Luan or who else only, I DO help you a lot in audio (set up, recording, and checking sound...)

Wan Ying :
Sigh... We are same black luck... present on our production week really troublesome and terrible... I also know coordinater got a lot of pre-production work like me... so I can understand and let you go home earlier... so don't blame me on not considerate o...

Hui Luan :
Thanks for giving me $$ wor... hahahaha.. nola.. we know that lighting very very very hard (I personally hate lighting very much) and I know you do really try your very best to design and execute.. thanks for rushing lighting treatment, thanks for holding all hot temperature, heavy red head and portable light (even raining.. haha)

Chee Haur :
Your "Denggi" really scared me.. Luckily you are ok now, don't have to worry you will affect me.. hahaha.. so you feel touch when I fetch you to see doctor (I'm presenting on the next day lor, if I get affected then sure die adi) Although RM138 very expensive, as a fren and team member, I think as long as you are healthy and stable, we don't mind...

Thanks to everyone... I can sense your love and care to me... *warm*

A Mix

WARNING : this is going to be a long, self-express post, no offend, no other purposes

These few days I really got myself tied up, I understand the feeling that every one in our group don't feel happy that we are not being agreed...

But I must said, I felt 10 times more than what all of you felt, I felt even more than upset...

So far, it's like a bomb deep inside my heart, I know I shouldn't put it this way, but until that day when our idea is not being agreed, I can totally confirmed that's what worried me so far...

So far a bomb that stayed inside me and I tried so hard to forget, to ignore......

When ms leung mentioned it, I knew, what I thought, what I felt was true....

Don't ever tell me ms leung tried to stepped down on us, I don't think she wanted that to happen too...

Although I, myself found it very hard to take her words, I knew, she is making it very clear to us, she is trying her very best to help us identify the problem...

What she mentioned, I totally understand, and I totally agreed... Not that I don't want to support our group, do you ever know that what ms leung said I already mentioned in our discussion...

Don't said I didn't voice out... I stated it very CLEARLY !!!!!!!

And I even mentioned more than once, but as the feedback I got:

1. "You can't always want us to follow your idea, you also must consider our idea..."

2. "Where got illogical? Where got not make sense?....."

3. "You are very hard to get along with... always want your idea only..."

4. "Don't think too much..."

THESE are what I got...

*Sigh* I'm not here to blame anyone.. but at that moment when ms leung mentioned the problems, I got really sad because we could totally avoid these....

But.............. you all........... NEVER trust me... DON'T EVER TRUST ME in the very beginnning...

Till this happen, I totally know how you all think of me, think me as a person that

self-centered

couldn't accept other people's idea

wouldn't want to change idea

would strongly prefer to stick with my own idea...

And, you all NEVER NEVER think me as a Scriptwriter that will stands at the script point to voice out the problems...

I got really disappointed with this....

Another matter is since I accept the post as Scripwriter, I NEVER EVER avoid from bearing any consequences....

I know if anything happen, it's my responsibility to bear the consequences, I'm ready to bear it anyway....

But, WE ARE ONE TEAM.... please let me feel that IT'S WORTH FOR ME TO BEAR CONSEQUENCES!!!!!!! I really got mad with those in our group who KEEP ON PUTTING BACK FIRE !!!!!!!!!

Don't understand, nevermind.... I explain ! Don't know, nevermind... I tell ! Don't agree, nevermind... I listen !

But when everyone agreed, everything fixed, don't ever want to change it...

And the worst thing, when we are facing third party, you don't think us as a group, you think yourself individually... you reveal the problems to the third party, and when we got tease back by the third party, how do you EXPECT ME TO RESPOND ????????!!!!!!!!! And, finally, you think that the third party is purposely teasing us !!!!

You don't even understand, when we face a third party, we are actually fighting....

That time, in that war, I knew only 2 person were fighting at the front-line, and you keep on putting back fire, pulling back legs...

NONSENSE !!!!!!!

Now, 3 person facing a third party, two person got speechless, and you keep on saying nonsense, doing nonsense action, what is your ulterior motives????

You try to show that you are capable??? You try to show not your fault????

Now I know how STUPID you are..... how RIDICULOUS you are............

You can be more IDIOT than that..................... WTF !!!!! (you make me said that)

That night, I knew, it was the suffered night for everyone of us...

That was my tuffest night too.... I felt hardly to come across that night, I cried for the whole night

MAINLY because

I KNEW TRULY I'M NOT BEING TRUSTED

PARTLY because

EVEN OUR GROUP MEMBERS PUT FIRED ON US,

AND OUR IDEA NOT BEING AGREED

Piss OFF !

(Just for the sake of expressing... I felt very fard to get across this....)

7/7/2007, 7pm - A Memorable Day

It's a day for our Primary School Gathering... After 7 years, we finally met each others...

Feel satisfied looking at others... Although I might not really remember every one of you, I felt good staying together...

Seeing everyone so unique, all talking about our past and future... I, including our 6F form teacher, felt great and happy...

Time flies and things changed, but I realized our friendship last...

Thanks for everything, keep in touch... we should meet often... >.<

Terrible Week 6

Finally reached the end of week 6, an extreme terrible week for me... I don't know what has I did in this week...

First, rushed got Media Planning (TAA report + Media Monitoring)

Then, rushed for International Advertising tutorial presentation

Next, rushed for TV Production mid-term (end up with reading nothing)

And finally, and most importantly, rushed for TV Production presentation

Everything moved in a hurry... hurry till I'm blur, numb... I don't know what am I doing and talking.. I lost my ability to think critically, I lost my ability to speak normally... I have to apologised for my presentation, I don't really did it well... I admit, at that moment, my mind really went blank, I'm blur of the whole condition... I just try my very best to recall and talk smoothly...

Although things didn't went as well as planned, I don't think anyone of us did anything wrong.... Just situation didn't go as our way....

Thanks for Walker company supportive crew member.... I appreciate it a lot

她是你的痛 你是我的痛

好不容易平复的心情
又因为你的故事
再次掉入深沉的“痛”穴中

那是你的一段往事
你的痛
我都能明白

显然
你的从前
我都有用心参与

今日的往事从提
对我而言
不再是当时可怜你
想关心你的心情

现在的我
第一感觉竟是
你何尝不也做出类似的事
何尝不也在伤害真正关心你的人?

你和她
根本没差

曾经
我是多么希望
能帮你走出你的痛

讽刺的是
如今
你已成为了我的痛

注定
你走不出她的痛
我也忘不了
走不出

你对我造成的痛