Suffer "Traps"

I don't understand.. why am I getting myself into this kind of "traps".

It's extremely suffering.

I guess I've learnt from it. No matter how hard you try to make it, nothing can be force.

If things really happened to be your way, it will still turns to another way too.

God.. Must remember this.

Never ever falling into this kind of "traps" again!

生态定律的一线之差

“有一些人跟事，是永恒不变的”

以前,
从没质疑过这句名言。
但是人越大,
却跟这句名言越来越遥远...

不是不相信,
只是就算不说出口,
心里也清楚,
这世界上,
没有任何人跟事,是永恒不变的。

以前的我们,
懵懂过,激情过,计较过,辛酸过...
这些都是无可否认的事实。
它,曾经那么地真实。
现在,还是那么真实的回忆,
只是这回忆有没有延续呢...

常想,
任何东西都是双方面才有办法维持平衡。

单方面的努力,
不是不可能,
只是很容易疲惫,
一旦疲惫了,
放弃了,
坚决不再回头的,
往往都是一直在默默努力的这一方。

或许,
变质了就是变质了,
不需要强求,
而是需要放手。

Hard Time

Last post dated April. Almost one month ago.

Throughout this one month, I actually felt like blogging, expressing my depressed, thoughts, hardships and feeling, but I have really no time.

Took over a big project, which make me really tense up, I couldn't even smile everyday, since everyone is waiting for your cue, seeing you how to make this never ever done before big project happen (or in negative terms, see how you die)...

That's really not a good feeling, and I hate this kind of feeling.

I'm still new in position, why can't they all give me some support/guiding opinion???

Perhaps this is the real world.

Although I was tired, I still started to think deeply why am I going into this position..

Is that what I want in my life? *miserable*

I like team works, but can we have a good one?

I know I couldn't control how people think and act, but I sincerely hope that this world could have more supportive people around.

Pls don't easily lose control by expressing the temper or negative thoughts... If you think you are having a hard time, others does! It will just making others feel even bad...

Me - Myself

My last blog entry dated Jan 17,which means I dumb my blog long enough.

Or maybe you can said that I don't have time,or I'm not brave enough to write down any of my thought these few days.

This last until I accidentally enter a colleague's (soon leaving colleague) blog. I readed one of his entry and I think maybe it's time for me to face myself.

Not sure whether it applies to media field or most of the working adults, I just feel like I'm trying not to have too many own thoughts (which this will not happen in the past me).

Therefore,I don't dare to think, don't dare to write diary,don't dare to touch my blog.

I know it's is obviously not mentally healthy, maybe it's just a trend I try to fit into the real world.

Right until today,I feel very tired,very fed up, and a thought just cross my mind...

why am I doing all these thing?

I still wonder... but at least, I manage to figure out sometime to once again, have my own thoughts, hopes my little thinking will not flooded by mainstream working field thinking...

Personal Updates

Have been in a new job for 1 week.

Sometimes I feel that I already use to it, but sometimes it's not.

I don't know why. I think most of the time I'll usually get a 'bomb'...

and that's also those time I couldn't hide my shockness...

Luckily I only get my eyes to open so big but not yelling yet XD

Stress is coming to me,

obviously those stress is even stressful than last time.

If it's like to be put in words, it makes me reluctant to take food,

and make me have panda eyes everyday :(

2010, a new year... what a new gift that's given to me...

16th Jan 2010 Onwards,Every Saturday 6pm

As you can see from the TV promo and teaser, yes, it's a program that my team produced,

and that's also what I've been workout for last 7 months.

Heart Talk lays its foundation on previous big news.



In a sight view of news reporter, we always found that it's getting a lot of attention when the big news happened, and readers always flooded by facts and figures such as how many people died etc...

But, we've forgotten one most important thing, it's not the number and facts in the news, but story behind the news itself.

Therefore, we wanted you to see through those previous big news people, find out how's their life and things goes on after the incident.

It's being very hard for us, especially as we gone through those cases happened in 70s or 80s.. I would said that one of the biggest challenge is to find out these people's contact.

It's always a hard thing when you only get facts, figures and name on the old newspaper, but not contact number or address. By using any networks, and gone through many diversions, we finally found out those people.

This doesn't mean that we manage to proceed on smoothly, we still need to talk to them, get to know what happen to them throughout years after the incident, and persuade them to let us proceed on with the shooting.

I will said it's really a very very very tough job, and we always change on the cases as most of them do not want to be discover by media anymore.

You may think that I'm pushing hardly for this program, hard-selling everywhere. Frankly speaking, I really do hope audience will watch it and see our effort.

It's not easy to produce a program. What it rewards and make us move forward is only YOUR WATCHING !

Heart Talk - TV Promo 1

ntv7 brand new current affairs.



Starting 16th january 2010, every saturday 6pm :)

Teaser

It's Always There

I thought I went through it.

Yes, I thought.

But in fact,I realize it's a thought that still always deep in my heart,

and now,

it prove that I'm just too naive,

it's always there.

没了"烦扰" 但也少了你

几经盼望 终于盼到了
但是还是失落而归

在倒数新生活的日子里
欣喜没了"烦扰"
可是
失去你 却是我意料之外的事

是我期望太高？
还是早该预料到会少了你
这...
应该就是所谓的无缘吧
想着想着
心里不自觉哼起了"少了你的我该怎么办"

Sandy Lam Live Concert 2009

Got a chance to watch Sandy Lam concert *muahahaha*

So happy and glad although I'm not her fans,

and I know very little of her :)

I got shocked when she first sang and after a few hours.

Her voice is so pleasant yet so powerful,

and her live presentation even manage to control the whole atmosphere.

为你我受冷风吹,伤痕,诱惑的街,爱上一个不回家的人,夜太黑,听说爱情回来过,

至少还有你...

are songs that I love and brightens up the night.

*OMG* I starts to fall in love with this Diva

Share a video clip you all.

Let's feel the atmosphere together ;)

Never Ever Anymore

In a terrible mood since yesterday night. And it continues until today.

I do not really experience this kind of feeling after I graduate.

I hate irresponsible. I hate being unrespectful.

I hate it needs me to readjust my thing JUST to fit in the so "UNPLAN" thing instead it is a so simple yet planned matter.

I even hate it sounds like it is my fault afterall.

I didn't voice my anger because I don't think it's necessary after all these,

but it doesn't mean I'm not angry and I don't have any opinion about it.

Fine, I will just conclude all this is ridiculous.

It's because I care therefore I angry. But then I will remind myself not anymore.

Because from this moment onwards, I will no longer care.

Recent

=.=" it's already mid november, omg! I've dump my blog for so long.

Everytime I feel like blogging, there must be obstacle.

Most of it is "I'm very tired", "I'm at outstation, busy shooting around",

and of course "I still have lots of work to do, where got time to blog".

T.T so sorry...

Ok,fine~~

it's really time to update of my recent activities :)

Basically still working like hell, because we've did first stage of shooting,

come back and straight away editing =.="

And now, still planning for second stage of shooting,

which will be kick off from 1st December *sigh*

But, at the same time, still have to rush for editing =.="

Everything need to be settle before January 2010.

Why everytime I have lots to mumble of my work...

but actually please don't misunderstand..

besides too tired, nervous and worry,

indeed I quite enjoy :) Maybe it's a job that I like.

I love this program more compare to Sunshine Project,

and Editors Time. It's a very-hard-to-do program,

but maybe is it's style, I really like this kind of warmth program.

Cheers & Gambatae to myself :)

FIR. (p/s : Not F.I.R taiwan band)

A good saturday (or perhaps a healthy saturday), filled up a healthy lifestyle.

I seldom practice healthy lifestyle, part and parcel is because of my work.

It couldn't allow me to live that way. But somehow,

I still have some 'basic' healthy living.

And I've choose to practice it more frequent.

Jogging is one of it, and another one,

I've give it a try today.

FIR sauna. Not sure whether this is a new system,

but it's fresh to me since I never heard of this before :P



It uses Far Infrared to make your body sweat,

detox, lose weights, beauty etc :)

My health has no big problem,

but after I tried it, it did feel very good.

Skin gets smoother and feel energetic :)

Pls Give Me Some Space To Breath

.... don't know how to start this post actually, but in fact,

I really feel like blogging this matter which I couldn't find some words to describe it.

I've gone through a day (exactly is a few hours only) that I..

would now conclude as wasted.

Can't believe that I spent my night in 'this way'...

*sigh* It's awkward for me to react that way,

however, sadly, and perhaps, I did those :(

It's a good lesson, a very very good lesson,

telling me that nothing can be force...

Over

2 weeks, or 3 weeks. Finally, it leads to an end.

I hope I use a "normal heart" to treat all these.

I hope, but in fact, I'm lying.

Deep inside my heart, I know I couldn't.

Although I couldn't let off my hopes, I wish it is lesser,

as compared to last time.

Take a deep breath, I know, I have tried my best.

When things aren't in my control,

don't think on it.

Book Fair Outing Day

Went to book fair with my friend. A book lover too :)

Share some photos here ^_^

It's Chooi Ling on stage.

The only photo we took in book fair because we were wandering in book world XD.

Others photos of course we took outside of KL Convention Center *LOL*

Random

Have been non-stop busy for 2 weeks.

This morning, a public holiday morning,

finally managed to finish up the proposal.

It's really a hard time when u need to work,

and after work, u still need to think of proposal.

Luckily I still managed to relax for quarter of the public holiday :)

Went to lunch with a dear friend, Janice,

(pity her.. no public holiday for KL state), at mid valley.

After that, have a book reading time together with mask session

:) so lovely...

Then, went for a dinner. Have yummy foods *winks*

Tomorrow going to be a new day to work again. Gambatae !

No Closure :(

Finally there is 1 person from my department

got affected with influenza A (H1N1).

I just knew it.

Hoping that my department will has a closure,

at least a short onw will do, but then *sigh*

things also go against your wish.

There is no closure on my department :( so sad.

My closure dream spoilt, and now,

even force to wear mask every second :(

Realization

Frankly speaking, this is not the first day of realizing this.

I don't know it somehow happen to me only,

or it happen to my friend too.

This is none other than I'm spending almost 80% of my life on work.

*Sigh* Should I said this is life? or

that's media's life?

Not mumbling about my work...

just a little 'unbalance' in heart...

PKFZ Live Show

Dumped my blog for few weeks @.@

>.< Sorry, I would said that those few weeks were ...

(lost all my words) ... weeks.

That's all a sudden. I was called to do a SUDDEN (yes, indeed, it's too sudden, less than 1 week time) Live Show.

If you did noticed, that's a 'Face to Face with Ong Tee Keat, PKFZ live show'

went on last monday, 20/7/2009, 10pm.

It was an one hour live show and I was just told to work it out a few days before that monday. @.@

And another unbelievable matter was, I, was the only one doing the pre-production.

I really couldn't believe this.

Okay... fine.. it's really hell and tension...

Finally it's over.

I somehow, manage to did it,

but I don't even want to mention it again after the show,

don't even want to comment too...

I just want it to get out of my life~~

Life

Haiz... Life is.. full of unexpected...

Sighing about life again. This time, is heart painful feeling.

When you've prepared something for a certain period,

although it's what you don't really like it,

I believe you've get ready for it.

However, there's a tiny little think called faith.

When you think you're almost ready,

something asked for a stop! What can you do?

Perhaps, it's again, the time for you to wrap up everything.

Life ~~~

Let's Go Mamak... AGAIN !

The first weekend of July, I've gave it to Let's Go Mamak...AGAIN



^.^ not bad... at least it gave me another wonderful memory in turn,

Bravo Inner Voices band !!! *non-stop claps & yelling*

Figured out this music concert through my 2 lovely xue mei,

so decided to give it a try ^^

and you know what,this music concert took place at KLPAC,

I never been there before.

This, my first time, and make me totally fall in love with this place.

It's really a WOW, so so so so artistic and beautiful.

OK~~ I maybe exagerating, maybe the place is my "feel" ^^

Let's don't focus on KLPAC.

The music concert itself is another miracle.

This is no doubt, the fact, not exageration.

There are 12 people in this band, but uncountable music instruments...

Chinese instruments, Malay instruments, Indian instruments

and last but not least various Western intruments...

Wonder how all these instruments blend together?

Hahaha XD that's why I said it's miracle.

It blends extrememly well through their play, Oh My God!!! ^^

Some of the songs like 'A Kajang Fellas in Westwood Boulevard',

'Unity Through Music', 'Drums Talk', '4.10AM'......... etc etc

is really amazing and worth it!



This is where we enjoyed the performance, KLPAC Pentas 1.

Another New Identity >>> STUDENT

So happy that I have a chance to be student again,

Thanks to my boss >.<

It's perhaps, a good chance to learn new things and,

most importantly, heading towards professional in this field :)

I like vocal training, although I was forced to let go last year

due to heavy assignments in University.

Hence, now, I even more appreciate this chance given to me.

Thanks you ~~~~

I promise, I'll learn with my full brain and heart ^.^

What a Day

Experience 'unexpected' stomach pain this morning.

Ok, it's really hell. Just reach office, not even an hour =.="

Again, I don't want to bother.

So first hour past, second hour past, third hour...

I finally surrendered. Went to my producer's place and request for half day leave.

Driving dangerously while thinking whether to consult doctor,

but sincerely, I don't feel like going to clinic.

Pulling off that thought, go straight away home and lay down on my bed,

and to solve my problem, I choose to take a hot Milo with me.

=.=" This way is not that useful though, but it gets a little better.

Hope tomorrow will be better and manage to work :)

Our Memorable Trip

Went to a relaxing trip with my dear friends on 13th and 14th june.

Here are our happy memories photos^^


Our plan and first day at PD.


Night at PD apartment.
Waiting for shower and thinking to play Heart Attack afterwards.


Spontaneous event. Travel to Malacca on the day we suppose to travel back.


Took a lot of nice foods (of course including cendol & nyonya laksa)^.^


Time to 'bai bai',after taking all yummy yummy foods


The 6 of us. 6 tired feet XD


Finally manage to get Calanthe Art cafe after walking for sooooo long down under the big sun.
Cafe mission succeed.

Took a group photo in front of it.

荒谬事实还是无中生有?

最近 有些事情很烦

或许也是人生中其中一件不如意的事

只是....... 比较严重?

为什么会搞到今天这种局面?

是我太嫩不明白 还是你们太复杂?

理性说:"不要想 不要面对"

心里说:"好害怕 无助 错综复杂"

没有结果

依然受折磨

好像.... 也只能不理会 和保持沉默.....

Sunshine Project - Last Day Shooting

After 3 months of hard work, Sunshine Project finally came to an end.

Here are some photos of our last day shooting >.<

Last day of shooting, went to Ulu Yam Rock Eco Resort, for Ladang Bukit Jalil school motivational camp.

Shooting in progress. Left : Host,Kah Chee, Cameraman Halim, Technician Azlan (Kah Chee punya leng zai, but he is getting marry soon, don't dream of him anymore la k ;p). Behind : Lightingman Usuluddin.

Break time = photo time.
Since it was break time, we went to river side to take photos.

The three of us. Left : Producer KT, A.Producer Me, Host Kah Chee. We are all so sunshine. Hahaha ;p

My cute producer, see what she's doing there :D I must resize this picture bigger so that you all can see her funny act. Hahaha :)

Nice shot.

Last but not least, the team of us.

Rest Days

Managed to rest a few days out of my busy life.

Have a good meet up with some friend, chit-chatted life,

and most excitedly.... Sing K :D Hahahaha..

You know what, we've spent 7 hours in singing...

and the most important thing is,

we've spent less than RM30 within this 7 hours.

OMG!!! It's so tremendous and unbelievable isn't it?

I've not been to K box when I started off my working life.

Sometimes, I do agree with my friend that,

it's a good way to release stress,

since we're always working under high-pressure...

However, after the 7 hours, you still have to come back to the reality,

solving all your problems and matters that you haven't finish.

It's kinda upset anyway, but what to do?? That's what we called life.

Lovely Weekend

Celebrated the recent French Art Festival^^

watched Ensemble C'est Tout (Hunting and Gathering),

and went for a lovely an orchestra performance (or it should be strictly called an opera instead)named Airs de Cours.



Ensemble C'est Tout, unlike others movie which usually and mostly portray France and french people in a romance way, this movie is much more real and close to french poeple's living and philosophy.



In deep love with this kind of film.... : )

And another thing that I think it's worth to share is,

I haven't been relaxing for a long time and got a chance to enjoy an orchestra pleasantly.

Baroque played by Ronaldo Lopes blended softly with Thierry Gregoire magnetic voice truly swing and bound me out of the earth,



leave all worries, bothers, annoys, depress etc out of my mind.

Managed to heard a four Italian songs, two English songs and uncountable French songs.

I thought Italian will be the most suitable language for opera, but I found out that I prefer opera more in French...

Don't know why..... : )

Strongly recommend those who work under high pressure to enjoy an orchestra since it could help a lot in distress.

What a good weekend, but coming weekend I'm going into jungle for shooting.

Looking forward this excited experience ^^



KL night view after came out from MPO.

So Called Urban Life

Life is... always changeable,

just like the weather.

Urban people,

work, social,

struggle with their financial,

and nonetheless, jamming...

just like the photos took by me a few days ago,

this is when I was driving company's car to parking,

but it was raining and I was stucked in jam,

wasted my 45 minutes lifetime =.="

Sunshine Project

Friends, I'm here to promote my team's program to you again ^^

Another good program after Editors Time, called Sunshine Project.

I've been working out this program for a few months, it gives me lots.

Difficulties, happiness, Pressures, Encouragement etc

Those children, those crews, those shooting time, those outstation time etc

all these indirectly contribute a large part of my life,

and I feel so great to have these too : )

Hence, I'm eargerly, desperately wants to share all these with you.

So, if you are with me, don't forget to watch ntv7 every saturday, 6pm, Sunshine Project.

So Into My Off Day

Ended Editors Time, and next week, Sunshine Project is going to take over.

Therefore, I finally, it means truly real finally, I got a chance to take my B.O.D. YEAH ~ ~ !!!

By the way, B.O.D is replacement of off day in my field ^^

And today, I'm so so so happy, coz I manage to 'pull' my friend out,

to accompany me for a movie which I'm SO INTO IT since it went on at other countries...

hehe ;p if you are guessing through my capital letter hint in the upper sentence,

it should be quite easy to get the answer : )

Yes, it's not others movie but He's Just Not That Into You !

Well, this is a genre that I quite love and into it.

Funny, relaxing and bring out some life philosophy too : )

For my female friends, listen...

If he's interested in you, he'll make anything just to get you, but if he's not, it means he won't.
Of course, there are exceptions, but the majority are not.

This is what I learnt and remembered the most throughout the whole movie : )



Wow!!! how good to have an off day with full sleep and a relaxing movie ^^

Recent Updates

It has been such a long time for not blogging.

Everytime when I feel like doing it, definitely I was busy with work, or I already 'battery exhausted' ^^

Okay, I think it's time to update my recent life to my dear friends >.<

For those that still blur of my current 'status', I was officially graduate on 14th Mac 2009.

In turn, it means, I am no longer a student, but an employee.

Currently, I work at ntv7 News and Current Affairs department, as an Assistant Producer cum Broadcast Journalist for Editors Time (社視100度)

and another new program called Sunshine Project (陽光行動).

Overall, I love my job, love the environments, love my colleagues. But somehow, I'll be always busy since I have to do 2 programs at the same time. Wuu T_T got called back very often recently, off day cancelled... wuuu.. I miss my off day T_T

Wuu T_T today have to do Editors Time editing till midnite. Tomorrow have to do pre-record Editors Time and on-air again.. HELP @_@

By the way, if any of you are free on Saturday evening, 6pm, do feel free to tune into ntv7 to watch Editors Time and 18th April, 6pm, Sunshine Project will take over ohh ^^

偶遇

真没想到 会在今天

这么一个特别的日子里

这么偶然 这么恰巧地

遇上你

当看到熟悉的活动场景

心里头 已经愣了一下

想说 你会在吗

其实知道不应该去寻求答案

但是 身体做的却是另一回事

结果 也不晓得哪个才是自己真正想要的结果

庆幸的是 你依然认真工作

依然健康 依然开朗

这 应该也是我打从心底想看到的吧

工作加油! :)

A No For An Ego

Situation is getting more and more tension nowadays.

Looking back previous life, I've fully enjoyed every moment of it,

unfortunately, there is still a tiny regret deep inside my heart,

I've not fully cherish every single second of my life.

Seeing matters appear and coming towards me,

in a way, and usually, I would take it as it is,

or I am, perhaps, always at the positive state of mind,

but recently, I suppose I face too many frustrations,

however, when I think it another way,

a life without obstacles, is that what you want?

my answer is a no.

Haha :) what a big contradiction thought.

No worries, there's no big deal happen in my life,

and yet, this is not a pessimistic thought too,

it's just a thought, simple neutral thought.

how pleasurable keep on listening to 'Dry Your Eyes' from Liang Wen Yin,

it's a good song and pertinent to my feeling at this moment...

Aurora

Finally, finally I got some hope...

Now, I need to do preparation,

and God, please give me your sincere blessing..

不一样的元宵节

好爽哦！

从来都不知道到河丰和江沙找叔叔和祈福可以这么自在、好玩。

出乎意料的看到很多很久不见的亲戚

他们依旧那么亲切

明叔叔老当益壮也 记忆更是不得了

这么久不见还一眼就认出阿馨 哈哈

很难得见到大表哥和一个忘了排第几的小表弟

好长一段时间没见到他们了 真的好想念他们哦 >.<

这里的我

可以傻傻地笑

放肆地讲

不断地到处乱跑

十足一个野孩子

没想到 经过了这么多的不如意后再重新归零的我

向往当一名野孩子

Can I Not Be Brave?

I seldom have this feeling, but this time...

I don't know how to describe.

I just feel like I don't want to be brave this time.

This world, change too rapid,

unpredictable matter always couldn't keep up with planning.

It's scary, it's breathless.

我... 真的... 不是你想像的那么勇敢~~

Rest, Relax & Charging Trip

Sorry friends, now only I updated photos and post on China trip,

was busying with CNY after I came back from my trip ;p paiseh paiseh...

After 3 years of hard time as a broadcast student, I finally able to enjoy,

a rest, relax and charging trip. I found that I really love travel.

The biggest gain for this trip is I found back my roots of touching,

in mandarin, it's call 最初的感動...

It's common for human, and of course, including me, after going through so many matters, ups and downs, forgot the original touch of a decision.

But, this time I truly realize how a life suppose to be...