Me - Myself

My last blog entry dated Jan 17,which means I dumb my blog long enough.

Or maybe you can said that I don't have time,or I'm not brave enough to write down any of my thought these few days.

This last until I accidentally enter a colleague's (soon leaving colleague) blog. I readed one of his entry and I think maybe it's time for me to face myself.

Not sure whether it applies to media field or most of the working adults, I just feel like I'm trying not to have too many own thoughts (which this will not happen in the past me).

Therefore,I don't dare to think, don't dare to write diary,don't dare to touch my blog.

I know it's is obviously not mentally healthy, maybe it's just a trend I try to fit into the real world.

Right until today,I feel very tired,very fed up, and a thought just cross my mind...

why am I doing all these thing?

I still wonder... but at least, I manage to figure out sometime to once again, have my own thoughts, hopes my little thinking will not flooded by mainstream working field thinking...

Days After 20th Dec 2008

I'm free, totally free of any burden now because glad to annouce that

I graduate ! (even though convocation will be at Marcch 2009)

I'm planning ahead of my holidays : )

Going off to a few places for vacation,

meeting up my 'old friends' and ex-colleagues,

shopping around, watch my lovey movie and drama series,

sleep whenever I feel like to................ and etc etc.

Wow!!!! What a fabulous life I've dream of for a long time.

Feel like shouting out loud,

"Freedom & Happiness is my highest priority now!!!!"

Needing Silence

Due to the final exam, I've live a more, so called 'peaceful' days.

Got a chance to have more in-depth thinking,

no matter on my future, on friends and relationships or any other matter.

Indeed, as time passes, finding myself speaks less and not that frequent anymore.

There's no hidden reason, but don't find any reason to voice out.

It's wouldn't help.

In turn, it would most probably become a burden for me.

That's not worth.

So, I need a silence from you, for me.

I'm myself

Hmm.. don't feel like posting here anymore because I want myself to be my true self, telling the true life.. why am I writing here again is because my true friends, who always stay besides me, telling me I'm not updating my blog... I'm glad to have them besides me.. sure everyone is interested to know actually what happened to me, but as usual, I don't really like to talk about it anymore.. it hurts me and affects me deeply.. although I'm quite ok when people look at me now, I know I'm not that ok and I would feel like crying too when I thought of this things happened on me.. Someone who helps me a lot said I'm too negative in thinking and I would say to myself that this is not positive or negative but facing the real situation.. I don't know who would read my blog,maybe someone who wants to treat me or maybe (positive abit) someone who really cares me... I hope to express my true self and that's why today I'm here again.. I'll stay with my true words in this blog.. I'm not opening a chat box.. so if you wanna tell me something you can do it in comment(under each post), I'll definitely know... don't worry.. ^.^

I'm awake

Didn't blog for such a long time because don't feel like wanna blog at all... It's a one week public holiday(but for me everyday is a holiday.. hahaha :D) went back to mum's hometown Gerik for one weeks time, totally release by now... although we have to travel for a long journey but i think it's worth.. I didn't have much time to go back and spend time with all my cute cousin since i grown up... this trip let awaken me that everything is just a tiny part of life... see everyone in Gerik, they're so happy, so generous, so kind and so so so true... I love this true feeling so much... :) they have gone through lots of thing in life but they can still live happily... this is what we called the attitude of life...