A No For An Ego

Situation is getting more and more tension nowadays.

Looking back previous life, I've fully enjoyed every moment of it,

unfortunately, there is still a tiny regret deep inside my heart,

I've not fully cherish every single second of my life.

Seeing matters appear and coming towards me,

in a way, and usually, I would take it as it is,

or I am, perhaps, always at the positive state of mind,

but recently, I suppose I face too many frustrations,

however, when I think it another way,

a life without obstacles, is that what you want?

my answer is a no.

Haha :) what a big contradiction thought.

No worries, there's no big deal happen in my life,

and yet, this is not a pessimistic thought too,

it's just a thought, simple neutral thought.

how pleasurable keep on listening to 'Dry Your Eyes' from Liang Wen Yin,

it's a good song and pertinent to my feeling at this moment...

Let Go

No matter how hard you try to hold,

gone means gone...

Times will never never return,

there's no point, no body to keep it ahead and alive,

so why don't we live with those past, sweet memories...

Live With My Way

When things or time almost coming to an end, human will start to recall....

This year, there are much to appreciate..

Those memories, those memory-builders are always around in my life..

Loving my life. Loving the way I live.

Just like how my memory-builders love me and I love them in return.

我和幸福有约

有人说，有些人与生俱来就快乐，理所当然地拥有着简单的幸福；也有人告诉我，快乐是需要学习的，它很难，并存在于你的观念之中。

快乐不是必然，但不快乐就很难幸福。

坦白说，我并不知道现在的我是不是快乐的。或许，当我没有想起这问题时，我是快乐的。

最近经常灵光一现，回想起好多好多往事，有中学单纯的幸福生活，有水生火热但又充份享受的大学生涯，当然，理想与现实交错的培训生活也是我记忆里重要的一环。

不知道是不是经历了许多的缘故，感觉最近，越来越想拥有简单的幸福。

不需要每一天都很快乐，只需要做自己，对人对事可以坦然，表现最直接的想法和感觉，再勇敢地做自己想做的事，就已经足够。

或许，长大了。当现实越贴近，感觉越清醒，往往就是惘然的开始。

从最初到现在，从来都不知道什么是珍惜，错过了很多。

或许自己太主观，也或许太悲观，老是觉得可以更好。回头想想，其实那何尝不是有点累。

再回首的一刻，才发现这些酸甜苦辣都只是生活的调剂品。没有了它，又怎么会有这么多的回忆。

庆幸，走到今天，20来头，发现了快乐和幸福的重要性。

虽然已经清楚知道，人越大，离快乐越远，但我会努力追随简单的快乐，因为我，和幸福有约 : )

Revealing

A lot of things happened. Happy, nervous, sad, everything blend together.

It's almost the end of this short semester.

I was happy that I could watch Cyndi's concert in my 20 years old time.

And I got a lot of excited experience too.

I was nervous because everything is not going on as smooth as I think. *sigh*

Life is like tat isn't it......

I was sad. No one could actually understand my situation and feeling.

Life is ruining out of my control. I don't know what makes me today is correct or wrong.

I just know things done, is done, no turning back.

I'm no longer the girl that you know....

But a girl that you may need more time to know.....

Tough Period

I remembered Yiu Sing told me.....


“The strongest man, is not the one that defeat how many person, but who have the competence of learning from failure ”

最強的強者，不是在於他打敗了多少人，而是他有本事從失敗中站起來



“The bravest man is the one who has the courage to face millions of difficulties ”

最有勇氣的人是他勇敢地面對接踵而來的困難

I, will be the bravest fighter @ 最有勇氣的強者!

Last Semester of Year 2

First day of schooling, no mood at all.

Don't know what really matters me. Just don't feel like talking.

Knowing I need to social around, still, didn't force myself to do it.

Looking at people, I feel hard to adapt myself again in school life.

Maybe this is what happen each semester start. I hate this.

Realize... something that I actually trying hard to ignore is still disturbing me.

Though it past, the tough feeling is still deep inside my heart.

Is it I have to go through all the way again to cure my painful experience...

Self-talk

It's late mid in the night..suddenly, feel like blogging.. usually I wouldn't have this kind of feeling but today just very different... everything is flashing back into my mind, I couldn't stand with this emotion anymore, everything seems so fresh... Now only I realize I've gone through a lot of matter, no matter what had I experience, good or bad, it's already over.. I'm myself yet not as ordinary as who i am before anymore...

My Thoughts

Feel abit upset with nowadays situation and surrounding around me... things just doesn't go as plan.. Something unpredictable and hurted happened... everyone (in our gang) got hurted.... no one actually mean it.. but I think it's the time to share our thoughts.. I think working (although it's just assignments) and friends should be separate.. no one should actually take advantage on friends while doing serious matter... If that is not a serious matter to you it doesn't mean others people don't care.. In that sense, responsibility and punctuality is very crucial..Another matter would be the way of communication... I understand and agreed that the rude way of speaking should be avoid since we are friends... but I also agreed that once the person became the culprit of the problem.. and everyone get mad, annoyed of that person... of course people will lost temper... I don't think this should be blame on the one that lost temper... If no one took advantage on each other, then shouln't and wouldn't be any problem... We know we are here to learn communication.. everyone has their strengths and weaknesses.. don't expect people to understand and accept the whole you... but in another way, I didn't mean to change yourself and cope with others people... just learn to grow up, take some responsibility and know your own roles.... then that's good enough...

Great vs Worst Decision

I had made a decision.... a decision I wouldn't expect too.... I have quit my job (can be known as resign also) Work on this job for a few months.... although not really interesting and sometime is really tiring... but I still go on for it.. why ? don't ask me.. I don't know the answer too... Now it's over... a bit frustrated but my life shouldn't stop there.. it's just a temporary job... my life should be more challenging.. more colourful... more on myself... isn't it ?

Isn't in good mood

isn't in a good mood.... heart almost broken... how can these things happen to me?? holiday isn't that should be happy?? but why is it still the same?? everything seems like not going to change... interesting thing wouldn't happen and excited thing will be block either.... *sigh* second semester is coming... maybe i should have prepare for it... i should have more prepare because i can imagine what is going to happen in the future.... is it i shall change myself? or the world should have change and suit me? anyway... it's not the end... and it's not going to end too... I'm just not that kind of people that will simply change and suit the world isn't it??