Self-Talk

Last week, worked for 7 days...

Today, at last, got a chance to rest...

I chosed to sat down alone in a Starbucks, ordered a cup of Latte..

Starred out of the glass, intended to rest my mind...

"How's your life?" a voice from my deep heart appeared,

it stop for a short while

"I'm fine..." a small voice answered, enhance by "I'm always fine and doing good"

Understood life is never easy,nothing could be always goes on as what you wish.....

You can choose to be a Latte, soft and warm.........

But doesn't mean the world will treat you as the same...

Nothing called fair and equal in the reality..

Learn to suit into the world without losing your true self, is what you should do right now....

Industrial Training # Day 50

Finally I got some time to update my blog. Almost 2 weeks since I changed department.

I'm happy to announce to the rest of the world "I"M IN NEWS & CURRENT AFFAIRS DEPARTMENT !!!!"

so happy, but so stress... 8TV mandarin news is the currently the Malaysia's top news...

And, everyone of them are so so so professional...

Have some experience in running assignments and aoing on-air..

Really happy : D

Industrial Training # Day 29

There's only one reason why I didn't post for such a long time - I'm busy.

If you are eager to know how's my life at 8tv, I would say that it's busy, it's fun, and it's sometimes, stressful...

I did a lot of things lately.

Went for One in a Million, did tagging.

Follow Brand Management Group to Why Why Love Press Conference.

Then, went to Sunway Pyramid, did Why Why Love fans gathering.

Did a New Year Party in 8tv.

I'll be officially changing to News and Current Affair department on 28th January.

Suppose to be very happy but I felt hard to leave Content Creation Group.

They are so good, so kind, so fun....

I really have a great time with them...

Industrial Training # Day 14

Working life is busy. Nothing much to describe.

I'm happy with this environment. Everyone is good. Work is serious.

Although public holidays and weekend might need to work, I don't mind.

Though, I love doing events.

10 more days to go before I shift department.

Look forward. Starting to countdown.......

Post from admin CEO office

Industrial Training # Day 7

Finally finish my first week in 8tv. What a tiring week, weekend also need to work.*sigh*

In another point of view, this weekend are the most happiest day for me, within this week.

Workout Project Superstar.. Wow !!! *like dreams come true*

I did register for all contestants. It's a lot. And various things happened too. Ask me in detail if you want to know.

My admin CEO department head really treat me well, wuwuwu.. I'm so touch T_T She called others to bring me in to different audition room and let me observe and learn.

On the other hand, I get to know a lot of Chinese Content Group people (in another term is production people) too....

They all are good to me. We make fun and enjoy. I like this kind of environment.

Although they might crazy and playful (almost all the time),they still did their job seriously. Everything go on smoothly.

So professional, I'm going to learn. Gambatae : )

Industrial Training # Day 5

I'm terribly tired but I feel like sharing to my friend, so that's why I'm here now.. hehe ;p

A lot of things to say between day 2 to 6, many things happen, many changes too.

However, I'm not going to talk very detail because need a long time and I just come back from Project Superstar, I need a good rest.

Hope you don't mind I let pictures do the talking...

Took this at 3rd day of working, admin CEO office christmas tree.I reach office too early and I manage to get very kindhearted colleague to open the front door for me (I'm too new and my entry tag is not ready yet).

But I couldn't get into another office of mine. Because only my head and her assistant got that office key. So, I took picture... ;p

Finally got my entry tag at 4th day.

5th day. Work at CEO office. Not admin CEO, is REAl CEO office of 8tv, En Omar. Not many document to do today.

So, my head call me to arrange all the CD at En Izham Omar's room. This is the first time I get into his room. I was shock.

Huge and comfortable. Not like normal office. This picture is only 1 side of the office.

This is another side of the office. So nice. So relax. So,so,so.... whatever so...

This is one shock. Another shock is inside this room, he has a few huge CD racks. I can say it's like a CD library ok? Can you imagine, I need to arrange his CD according to alphabetical order.. fine, who call me is intern... do la..

A lot of interesting thing inside.. En Izham Omar has various instruments also. From those, I know he really love music. Some of the instruments I don't really know too. This is 1 of the best instrument, 4 string bass, very very nice.

Since so many CD and instruments, yet arranging CD is bored too, so I ask my head whether I can play some music while working or not. She said OK, then I open some CD (I think we couldn't get those CD here) and that's Wow.............. again........... sound system surprise me... enjoy it.... :D

Industrial Training # Day 1

Report to Media Prima HR at 8.45am. Wait till 9 something.

Had a short brief with HR head Mr Kamal.

Sign agreement then report to 8tv.

So, 11.20am I settle down at Admin CEO department.

It's a powerful department. But, all malay.

Fine. I almost forgot all my Malay. It's time for me to speak and catch up again.

Luckily I still can understand and respond. My colleague are quite friendly too.

However, the work itself, don't seem interesting to me.

I know I could do admin work but I don't like it.

Luckily I will be at Admin CEO for 1 month, then I'll shift to content creation (production) department.

They brief through some of the work. Then I'm on my own. Blur-ing with everything.

Basically I did almost everything.

I see them chit-chating, eating tibbits, seeing me doing work, while I myself have to key in data, find the documentaries,preparing contract and answering all internal and external in coming phones.

Ok. I know it's stupid. I know you are laughing.

But, what to do. I'm new and in the stage of learning.

Fine, sounds like I'm complaining, actually I'm not, I do learn something.

Wish me luck in being an OL for 1 month....

Hell Preparation

Ok. These three days I'm super super busy. Preparing my coming early Industrial Training.

Went to a lot of shopping centre. Bought a lot of stuffs.

Stuffs like jeans, formal attire, sports shoes, high-heels, cosmetics....

All normal things but I lack of them.

Like jeans and sports shoes, you wonder why I need those.

Because they told me production don't wear high-heels and formal attire.

Need to wear jeans and sports shoes.

When they told me this, my mind only flash through a word... "DIE"

I don't like jeans. I only got one jeans and I don't realy wear it.

Somemore sports shoes, I don't even remember my last time wearing sports shoes.

High-heels always with me, I don't know since when.

And, cosmetics, I don't really make-up. Most of the time my friend help me to do make-up.

What to do. Need to learn.

While rushing, their HR still called me, request me to bring some document and passport size photos.

OMG !!!!! they need 3 passport size photos. I don't have so many...

Then rush to take photos again..

After I did my preparation, staraight away I travel to Penang.

Now, just come back from Penang.

Tired. Tomorrow start working.....

Wish me luck : )

Interview at 8tv

Unbelievable. Today, went to 8tv for Industrial Training interview.

I would said that it's quite relax.

I don't know why. I don't feel like I'm being interview. It's more like having a talk show.

Then, they got me straight away. Somemore, they're discussing my placement in front of me..

Weird but happy.

Because one interviewer from admin CEO department, one from admin branding department.

Both want me to get into their department.. See them arguing, really funny... Hahaha :D

Finally admin CEO won with the reason admin CEO is more powerful than admin branding department..

Suppose I'll start next year, 3rd January, but they need people urgently.

So, I'll start next monday.

Before that, I heard some of my coursemates who got Double Vision will start on 10th December, I still laugh, pity them, need to start so early, no study week, no holiday...

But, now, I'm the earliest to start among all my coursemates.

1st December end all my class. 3rd December start working... wuwuwuwu T_T

No study week for me, 15th December still need to take final exam...

In turn, I actually felt very excited because they'll teach me admin things, then there're a lot of production like Project Superstar Audition and 8tv Prom night LIVE show, they said they need me to get in those production too...

Wow.. terribly excited :D

Revealing

A lot of things happened. Happy, nervous, sad, everything blend together.

It's almost the end of this short semester.

I was happy that I could watch Cyndi's concert in my 20 years old time.

And I got a lot of excited experience too.

I was nervous because everything is not going on as smooth as I think. *sigh*

Life is like tat isn't it......

I was sad. No one could actually understand my situation and feeling.

Life is ruining out of my control. I don't know what makes me today is correct or wrong.

I just know things done, is done, no turning back.

I'm no longer the girl that you know....

But a girl that you may need more time to know.....

"Diaries" Fault

I never expect. Today, once again, you choose to hurt me.

I know you willl say you didn't.

But I knew. Since the day when we hand in topic that we want to do.

I can sense it. Strongly. You will hurt me. And, I admit, I couldn't stand with it.

Are you happy?? This is what you want to see isn't it??

Since the day I knew the truth, there's no turning back.... no matter what...

Hurt is done and it will be there forever and ever....

Very Soon

I'm going to prove to you I have the ability

I'm going to justify to you that you over lookdown on me

I'm going to WIN !!!!!

Tough Period

I remembered Yiu Sing told me.....


“The strongest man, is not the one that defeat how many person, but who have the competence of learning from failure ”

最強的強者，不是在於他打敗了多少人，而是他有本事從失敗中站起來



“The bravest man is the one who has the courage to face millions of difficulties ”

最有勇氣的人是他勇敢地面對接踵而來的困難

I, will be the bravest fighter @ 最有勇氣的強者!

Last Semester of Year 2

First day of schooling, no mood at all.

Don't know what really matters me. Just don't feel like talking.

Knowing I need to social around, still, didn't force myself to do it.

Looking at people, I feel hard to adapt myself again in school life.

Maybe this is what happen each semester start. I hate this.

Realize... something that I actually trying hard to ignore is still disturbing me.

Though it past, the tough feeling is still deep inside my heart.

Is it I have to go through all the way again to cure my painful experience...

Good but spent a lot Day

Early morning my cousin called for shopping. Thinking I have to end my semester break these few days, I agreed to go with her.

She's those heavily addicted to shopping, really can shop for a long time.

As compared to her, I'm still light shophaholic but today, I also spent a lot T_T

We shop for almost one whole day.

First stop is KL Pavilion. Spent almost 3 hours.

Second stop is Bangsar Shopping Center (bsc). She loves it very much =.="

Then we went to Bangsar Village,which is my 1st time been there.Quite nice ^^

And finally we went to Mid Valley and The Gardens. I love The Gardens.

The building design is far more better than KL Pavilion. Those design, laser reflection make it very class.

We went till 10pm.. OMG!!!!!!! One whole day spent inside shopping center. What a waste.

I thought we are going home, but she suggest we go BSC for a drink...

Though I'm so tired, but I wouldn't want to disappoint her,so I agreed too..

We sat at a Isa Bordega cafe for a drink...

The night atmosphere is good..I drank a cocktail, a very special one.. hehe..

Good but spent a lot day !

Torture

Late mid night. Couldn't sleep.

Yesterday my panel doctor changed a new medicine for me.It's a new medic.

I think it's quite heavy because I only have to eat at night. Once a day.

I felt hard, very uncomfortable. My heartbeat fluctuate.

Up and down. Very fast. Very irregular.

I got headache soon afetr consumed the medic.

Thought it's just a while, so I lay down on my bed. Hope to rest earlier.

But really couldn't sleep. After suffered for a few hours then only back to normal.

*Sigh* Torturing.........

Relax

Yeah !!!! a new look for my blog, hope to have a new mood : )

Yesterday, used half of my day to change my blog. At first, very excited to design my blog (coz wanted to do it long time ago but no mood and lazy).

After creating the header, I felt bored and lazy. So I kept it as simple as possible.. Hahaha lazy way of doing things..

Today, went Pavilion shopping. Not bad. Quite enjoy. ^^

Stable

Didn't post for such a long time.. My holiday is still ok... just sometimes a little bit bored..

Anyway, I feel very stable. Nothing to worry. Nothing to care of.

Readed some books. Got some new perspective.

Particularly, is a good thing for me. At least, I found another me.

Know things from different perspective. Hope to have some self-development.

Another main thing in this holiday that I'm eager to accomplish is prepare a 20th birthday present for myself..

Now, still in progress.. When it's ready, I can share it here with everyone... ^^

Special & Meaningful

17th September 2007. A very special day, for me. No school. No exam. But that's not what make me excited.

I have a special event to attend at 11.30am. At KPMG.

Suppose KPMG has no direct relationship with me because it's an accounting firm. The only thing is my mum work there.

However, surprisingly, I got the High Achiever's Award from KPMG. (According to them, they are giving out scholarship and I got selected)

Letter from KPMG

Wow!!! That's sounds really amazing huh.... ^^ Yeah.. quite unbelievably to me too...

So, this particular day, I attended the High Achievers' Award ceremony.. hehe ^.^

Basically, I'm not really interested in the name of High Achiever. In turn, I'm more eager to get that sum of $$$$$

Cheque received ;p Don't wanna let u noe how much $

They grant me the name, of course, a sum of $, a certificate(which they haven't ready)...

Ceremony was conducted at their Boardroom, a very nice, full-equiped Boardroom. Scholarship was given by KPMG Board of Director.

Got it !!! And happy taking H2 Balloon too...

The only thing that I'm not use to it was social with mum's colleagues and Board of Director.. @_@ BORED...

But at least, I'm satisfied with that $, enough for me to survive for at least half or 1 year... hehe ^^

In addition, got a blue balloon from Bio-Therm when I went out from Wisma KPMG.. Is Hidrogen balloon o... hahahaha.. so happy.. :D

"Give Me A Break"

Night, exam time, shouldn't be posting here. Just don't feel like studying.

Recently borrowed a book from library. At first, just intended find some extra material for Screenplay and Scripwriting final exam but end up borrowed this book.

I was attracted by it's title "Give Me A Break"..... Title per se sounds like fiction.

Yes, sort of. But, it's a kind of non-fiction with the elements of fiction.

An autobiographt book written by a journalist, sharing about his experience and change.

An interesting book and suit my current mood. Just want a break. Although now it's almost holiday for me and I'm going to have my break, I really hope I can take of my burden, rest for a while.

Tired, tired, tired..... will at last, cause me to have serious frustration...

Have to get myself really to put down everything... just a short period will do..

Children = naughty ???

Spent half of the day with my small little cousin. It's very comfortable.

Usually people will have a mindset of children=naughty but in my perspective, children=naughty=true.

I wouldn't say that I love children very much.

But I do like them almost all the time because I could express truly to them. They are just as simple as them.

Nothing to hide. Nothing to scared of. Nothing to bother. No thing leads to complexity.

My Day

Noon, went to 1U alone after consulted ms leong. Lonely? Hmm.. sort of.

Get into MS READ Delicious cafe (looks like the surrounding of the cafe is good, but actually it's not). Ordered a Lemongrass Lychee Smoothies instead of selecting coffee.

Took up a book that I've just borrowed from library today and started to read. Couldn't really concentrate.

Generally is because the environment make me very uncomfortable. Partly is because the smoothies is tasteless.

I found that many people are looking at me. Very curiously.

My sense is strong enough to pull me out of the chair and leave that place. I lefted. Wandered around again.

This time, I even felt that people around (of coz not everyone) are curious enough to figure out what this girl is doing here.

While my mind is out of the space and my body continue to wander around, a woman, 30 plus over (I think), stopped me. Asking me weird questions :

"Gal, you are.. currently working?"
"Nope.." and I started to scare and want to escape. But she stopped me and continued.
"Can you do me a favor? I wanna ask you some question.."
"No.." I answered in a very very low voice.

Most of my friends knew, I'm that kind that don't know how to reject a person's request, especially stranger. So, she continued.

"You are a student.. Do you ever heard of E-shopping?"
I kept on shaking my head. I'm scared.
"Would you like to earn $ besides studying? I have a way here....."she started to explain a lot.

This time, I couldn't do nothing. I kept on shaking my head and said bye bye (I don't know why I said bye to her). Then, I ran away.

*Sighing* Is it I shown an innocent face that wrote I'm easy to be cheat? Ridiculous people.

What a day.

My Dear Friends

Last few weeks were scary and tiring week that I wouldn't like to remember.. But, in these scary days, I still managed to spare out a few hours and went out to have a Shabu with my dear friends...



I would said that this is the most precious moment in my hard days...



Meeting them is the most relaxing thing for me.. Although we had not been met for such a long time, our friendship is still as close as last time... and, I really found that I miss everyone of them very very much..



Seeing everyone so happily talking to each other (and it is quite noisy, don' know who to listen to), I'm so so so lucky to have all of them besides me...

And, I've not met my Xue Di Xue Mei for quite some time too.. Excited to meet them and we really have a lot to talk about... hahaha :D

Surprisingly, time flies, but me and Xue Mei have almost the same haircut... So happy to see them live happily....

心•蒙蔽了 Neglected Love

Finally...
Our production..
Our drama....
is out...

Here is the trailer,
complete drama may request
from me...

Enjoy :D

心•蒙蔽了 Neglected Love

Finally... Our production... Neglected Love is out...

This is the trailer, whole drama is with me.... Enjoy :D

Consequences of Independent

Sometimes, felt that over independent is a worst thing in life... Seems like everything have to be handle by yourself.. No one could actually help and no one could actually willing to help since everyone thinks that you are independent enough...

Hate myself over independent, even sick, it's my responsibility to drive to clinic and consult doctor.. (sick didn't recover but I got another illness)

Medic allergic, it's my fault again, my responsibility agian to consult doctor one more time...(Now, I don't even want to bother anymore...)

Independent, for me, isn't a good thing, but I would rather said it's a worst feeling...

I would rather prefer someone to be beside to help, or just to share with me...

Sufffering Sore Throat & Dry Cough

Maybe I was lack of sleep (but I always lack of sleep) that cause me to have a sudden sore throat and dry cough these few days...

Maybe is my everyday consumption pattern that lead me to this too...

Maybe is the weather lately, and I'm not use to it...

*sigh* No more maybe... sore throat and dry cough means I'm sick....

Physically, Mentally Sick

These few days keep busying and worrying about tv production drama editing.. Don't have much time to rest..

Although it's tiring, as long as satisfy, I don't mind staying up late, doing all hard works..

Today, after last lecture, multimedia lecture, suddenly felt down... Physically not feeling well, mentally sick.. Got tied up.. everything is still so rush, problems happen together..

Do not know what else can I do.. No matter how hard I tried to solve problems, still, a lot of problems come to me...

Depress and stress, nowadays, find myself useless, don't have ability to solve problems anymore.. Too many problems for me, that's enough..

This subject got problems, before solving, another person tell me another subject's problems... Got really fed up...

Felt always solving problems alone... Getting speechless and speechless, don't have a specific reasons that cause that.. simply just do not know what to talk and lazy to face human....

Tired Life Tired Heart Tired of Everything

It's the first time I felt to face myself bravely, face my true feeling to the real world.... but finally.. what do I get??

Once I decided that, I never thought of the consequences.... now, the consequences comes to me...

How long I had been hiding my true feeling? I didn't know.. for years, I felt hard to live and sometimes, I even felt that I had lost myself in a mysterious world....

Life is always not as easy as we think, but I just want to be myself.. isn't that a hard thing to achieve??

I'm miserable.....

TV production team

See ! Our pictures are so professional... Thanks to X'tina for making black crew shirt for us..

Production period was over, currently we move into a post-production stage, which I have not much things to do....

(just to write the final message and record it in broadcast lab)

and you all have to do more than me now... hahaha :D hardly come across this.... coz felt uncomfortable that you all are editing and I have nothing much to do....

Really miss our production period, although is a tuff period, almost everyone fall sick, a proud thing I would like to share is we mange to control our temper (except for 1 and 2... but finally ok also...)

This is the biggest improvement I could ever see in our group... felt glad that everyone works for their best in their position...

Wait for our "Qing Gong" (celebration) then we can have another fun night together ya ^.^

Touchable

It's a glad, touchable and thankful day... Whole week drama production really tiring, yet I still have my own Communication Research Method (CRM) individual presentation....

Don't think much for CRM presenattion because I myself very worried of our production and whole week average sleep 1 to 2 hours only... *exhausted until no time to worry*

Today class.. 9.30am Screenplay lecture, sadly, I'm the only one who attend, very blur and blank, don't know what Dr Sham is talking (and giving him blank look)

And I'm very very very worry about my team, don't know you all can wake up or not, can move the equipment or not, don't know how to help you all sign attendance...

Therefore, thinking to go back to Bukit Jalil to help you all,but you all said no need, n knowing I have serious sore throat and i mentioned painful till don't know how to present...

So rush you all still go anf buy Strepsils for me and purposely rush back to university just to give me Strepsils instead of drop off all heavy equipment at Jasmine first... T_T

Elaine also... T_T purposely rushed back to university and bring laptop for me and wan ying... Got a phone call from Elaine saying that she will rushed back to university on time, not to worry really touch me... T_T

Thirdly, I know everyone in our grous is so tired but purposely attend me and wan ying's presentation... just to support 2 of us... Seeing you all, I really speechless... I feel very glad and thankful to have you all besides...

Some words for you all :

Guo Wei :
Seeing your silhoutte walking fast at 1st floor, bringing me Strepsils really touching.. Thanks a lot for your concern... and thanks for supporting instead of going home.. but if you really go home I also won't blame you because your work load and responsibility very heavy.. As your assistant, I don't know I got really help out or not, but seeing you carry so much responsibility, I also feel very sorry...

Elaine :
Thanks for everything, I know you all love me and care of me very much... got your phone call and heard your tone that said you will definitely rushed back.. I really don't know what to say, no matter how hard, you all still try to rush back and still help wan ying download thriller at the very last minute... others than thanks, I really don't know what to say.. Lately only I know, university also got friend understand me, feel what I feel.. thanks !!!!

Janice :
Sorry for alwas "ZAT" you... not purposely want to say you aunty or what.. just feel that seeing your reaction very very funny la... thanks for giving me a lot of fun... hahaha.. Now onwards, don't ever said I always help Luan or who else only, I DO help you a lot in audio (set up, recording, and checking sound...)

Wan Ying :
Sigh... We are same black luck... present on our production week really troublesome and terrible... I also know coordinater got a lot of pre-production work like me... so I can understand and let you go home earlier... so don't blame me on not considerate o...

Hui Luan :
Thanks for giving me $$ wor... hahahaha.. nola.. we know that lighting very very very hard (I personally hate lighting very much) and I know you do really try your very best to design and execute.. thanks for rushing lighting treatment, thanks for holding all hot temperature, heavy red head and portable light (even raining.. haha)

Chee Haur :
Your "Denggi" really scared me.. Luckily you are ok now, don't have to worry you will affect me.. hahaha.. so you feel touch when I fetch you to see doctor (I'm presenting on the next day lor, if I get affected then sure die adi) Although RM138 very expensive, as a fren and team member, I think as long as you are healthy and stable, we don't mind...

Thanks to everyone... I can sense your love and care to me... *warm*

A Mix

WARNING : this is going to be a long, self-express post, no offend, no other purposes

These few days I really got myself tied up, I understand the feeling that every one in our group don't feel happy that we are not being agreed...

But I must said, I felt 10 times more than what all of you felt, I felt even more than upset...

So far, it's like a bomb deep inside my heart, I know I shouldn't put it this way, but until that day when our idea is not being agreed, I can totally confirmed that's what worried me so far...

So far a bomb that stayed inside me and I tried so hard to forget, to ignore......

When ms leung mentioned it, I knew, what I thought, what I felt was true....

Don't ever tell me ms leung tried to stepped down on us, I don't think she wanted that to happen too...

Although I, myself found it very hard to take her words, I knew, she is making it very clear to us, she is trying her very best to help us identify the problem...

What she mentioned, I totally understand, and I totally agreed... Not that I don't want to support our group, do you ever know that what ms leung said I already mentioned in our discussion...

Don't said I didn't voice out... I stated it very CLEARLY !!!!!!!

And I even mentioned more than once, but as the feedback I got:

1. "You can't always want us to follow your idea, you also must consider our idea..."

2. "Where got illogical? Where got not make sense?....."

3. "You are very hard to get along with... always want your idea only..."

4. "Don't think too much..."

THESE are what I got...

*Sigh* I'm not here to blame anyone.. but at that moment when ms leung mentioned the problems, I got really sad because we could totally avoid these....

But.............. you all........... NEVER trust me... DON'T EVER TRUST ME in the very beginnning...

Till this happen, I totally know how you all think of me, think me as a person that

self-centered

couldn't accept other people's idea

wouldn't want to change idea

would strongly prefer to stick with my own idea...

And, you all NEVER NEVER think me as a Scriptwriter that will stands at the script point to voice out the problems...

I got really disappointed with this....

Another matter is since I accept the post as Scripwriter, I NEVER EVER avoid from bearing any consequences....

I know if anything happen, it's my responsibility to bear the consequences, I'm ready to bear it anyway....

But, WE ARE ONE TEAM.... please let me feel that IT'S WORTH FOR ME TO BEAR CONSEQUENCES!!!!!!! I really got mad with those in our group who KEEP ON PUTTING BACK FIRE !!!!!!!!!

Don't understand, nevermind.... I explain ! Don't know, nevermind... I tell ! Don't agree, nevermind... I listen !

But when everyone agreed, everything fixed, don't ever want to change it...

And the worst thing, when we are facing third party, you don't think us as a group, you think yourself individually... you reveal the problems to the third party, and when we got tease back by the third party, how do you EXPECT ME TO RESPOND ????????!!!!!!!!! And, finally, you think that the third party is purposely teasing us !!!!

You don't even understand, when we face a third party, we are actually fighting....

That time, in that war, I knew only 2 person were fighting at the front-line, and you keep on putting back fire, pulling back legs...

NONSENSE !!!!!!!

Now, 3 person facing a third party, two person got speechless, and you keep on saying nonsense, doing nonsense action, what is your ulterior motives????

You try to show that you are capable??? You try to show not your fault????

Now I know how STUPID you are..... how RIDICULOUS you are............

You can be more IDIOT than that..................... WTF !!!!! (you make me said that)

That night, I knew, it was the suffered night for everyone of us...

That was my tuffest night too.... I felt hardly to come across that night, I cried for the whole night

MAINLY because

I KNEW TRULY I'M NOT BEING TRUSTED

PARTLY because

EVEN OUR GROUP MEMBERS PUT FIRED ON US,

AND OUR IDEA NOT BEING AGREED

Piss OFF !

(Just for the sake of expressing... I felt very fard to get across this....)

7/7/2007, 7pm - A Memorable Day

It's a day for our Primary School Gathering... After 7 years, we finally met each others...

Feel satisfied looking at others... Although I might not really remember every one of you, I felt good staying together...

Seeing everyone so unique, all talking about our past and future... I, including our 6F form teacher, felt great and happy...

Time flies and things changed, but I realized our friendship last...

Thanks for everything, keep in touch... we should meet often... >.<

Terrible Week 6

Finally reached the end of week 6, an extreme terrible week for me... I don't know what has I did in this week...

First, rushed got Media Planning (TAA report + Media Monitoring)

Then, rushed for International Advertising tutorial presentation

Next, rushed for TV Production mid-term (end up with reading nothing)

And finally, and most importantly, rushed for TV Production presentation

Everything moved in a hurry... hurry till I'm blur, numb... I don't know what am I doing and talking.. I lost my ability to think critically, I lost my ability to speak normally... I have to apologised for my presentation, I don't really did it well... I admit, at that moment, my mind really went blank, I'm blur of the whole condition... I just try my very best to recall and talk smoothly...

Although things didn't went as well as planned, I don't think anyone of us did anything wrong.... Just situation didn't go as our way....

Thanks for Walker company supportive crew member.... I appreciate it a lot

她是你的痛 你是我的痛

好不容易平复的心情
又因为你的故事
再次掉入深沉的“痛”穴中

那是你的一段往事
你的痛
我都能明白

显然
你的从前
我都有用心参与

今日的往事从提
对我而言
不再是当时可怜你
想关心你的心情

现在的我
第一感觉竟是
你何尝不也做出类似的事
何尝不也在伤害真正关心你的人?

你和她
根本没差

曾经
我是多么希望
能帮你走出你的痛

讽刺的是
如今
你已成为了我的痛

注定
你走不出她的痛
我也忘不了
走不出

你对我造成的痛