My Thoughts

Feel abit upset with nowadays situation and surrounding around me... things just doesn't go as plan.. Something unpredictable and hurted happened... everyone (in our gang) got hurted.... no one actually mean it.. but I think it's the time to share our thoughts.. I think working (although it's just assignments) and friends should be separate.. no one should actually take advantage on friends while doing serious matter... If that is not a serious matter to you it doesn't mean others people don't care.. In that sense, responsibility and punctuality is very crucial..Another matter would be the way of communication... I understand and agreed that the rude way of speaking should be avoid since we are friends... but I also agreed that once the person became the culprit of the problem.. and everyone get mad, annoyed of that person... of course people will lost temper... I don't think this should be blame on the one that lost temper... If no one took advantage on each other, then shouln't and wouldn't be any problem... We know we are here to learn communication.. everyone has their strengths and weaknesses.. don't expect people to understand and accept the whole you... but in another way, I didn't mean to change yourself and cope with others people... just learn to grow up, take some responsibility and know your own roles.... then that's good enough...

2007, Poster for Sony DV Cam (Good Take)

2007, Poster for Sony DV Cam..... cut ! cut! cut! NG ! re-capture!!

shooting nice shot.... along roadside...

It's my "showtime"....

see.... what have you shoot???

"Wow" Let's shoot.... !!!!!

Busy and Stuck

Bz.. bz... and bz... always busy with assignments recently.. shouldn't said recently because I used to be busy in my whole semester... this year is 2007.. of course I have a lot of things to achieve and work out.. but I just don't have any motivation to carry out my task.. I don't know what exactly happen to me or I don't even have passion in my studies anymore?? I hope I am not.. I hope it's just I think too much.. I hope it's just a part of my growing process.... Long time didn't post.. although I felt guilty and sorry to those who cares of me, it's just a matter of scare.. the scare to post things online... the mst excited period for me in this year(until this moment) was the 3 days broadcasting shooting period and 3 days post production, editing period... even though it's quite a hard time but I felt happy, enjoyable and at least... it worth it... !!!!!!

Friendship

Because of getting into groups for assignments, problems occured! This is what I have expected but it's not what I willing to see... Although everyone may have change and I think it's highly possible for whom I think would change, I couldn't haardly believe this tragedy to happen among us... We are now frustrated with what had happened, and I also felt regret to what had happened... I wish this could just past away by itself... and hope everyone of us don't have any hurt feeling with this... It may be a hard semester, but in another way, I know we could come across this challenge... I'm so sorry for those who really wanted to do assignments with me, I'd tried my very best to rearrange so that everyone could have a chance to work with me but you know, it's not going to be very fair and equal... I'm sure you all can do your best without me too... trust yourself..

Brainstorming

Having the same problem as last time... communication problem is the most biggest problem in this world, I've learnt to realise no one could actually saying their true feelings to you....the process is always the same.. suffering, solving and keep on moving.. there's no other choice... too many things came in together, it's now making me breathless... Have to come out with lots of print advertisement ideas, radio advertisement idea and video idea yet people around is still making problem.. don't exactly know what caused the problem and those problems always stuck in my mind.. and deadline is rushing to to come out with ideas to move on with my assignments... i hate that kind of feeling...

May God bless me

My Week 1 of year 2 past with terrible sickness.. Still,I haven't recover from my sickness, don't really know why am I having long, suffer sickness.. As I know, I must recover as soon as possible because the 'war' is going to begin from week 2(means tomorrow).. going to have loads of assignments and classes.. quite a busy year but it wouldn't push me down.. I'm going to do my best.. lately having problems with group members, don't know who to choose or do things with.. actually, for me, it's the same.. now, I don't really expect anything, I just hope I can handle along with happiness.. God bless me :) anyway, having shoting for next week... good luck to me and wish i could have great ideas about what to shot... (in wondering and brainstorming situation)

Back to University

I've started my new semester 2007.. I'm no longer year 1 broadcasting student but year 2 semester 1 student.. don't feel really good today coz my university is so so so crowded.. Even worst is there's so any people in a same lecture, the air-cond is so limited, I almost can't breath inside... Had my Communication Theories and Intro to Advertising this morning.. just a simple intro to each course.. pretty bored actually.. Guess what.. UTAR merged May intake year 1 student with us(Year2 sem1 student).. Someone said that is because they can't take pendidikan moral this sem therefore, they have to do intro to advertising first.. hehe:p at least they must do pendidikan moral... hahahaha..:D Went home at 2pm.. not feeling well started from this early morning.. until afternoon I'm sure I'm sick.. have terribly sore throat and headache.. *sigh* sick in the first day of school... T_T $@^!*#&%

I'm myself

Hmm.. don't feel like posting here anymore because I want myself to be my true self, telling the true life.. why am I writing here again is because my true friends, who always stay besides me, telling me I'm not updating my blog... I'm glad to have them besides me.. sure everyone is interested to know actually what happened to me, but as usual, I don't really like to talk about it anymore.. it hurts me and affects me deeply.. although I'm quite ok when people look at me now, I know I'm not that ok and I would feel like crying too when I thought of this things happened on me.. Someone who helps me a lot said I'm too negative in thinking and I would say to myself that this is not positive or negative but facing the real situation.. I don't know who would read my blog,maybe someone who wants to treat me or maybe (positive abit) someone who really cares me... I hope to express my true self and that's why today I'm here again.. I'll stay with my true words in this blog.. I'm not opening a chat box.. so if you wanna tell me something you can do it in comment(under each post), I'll definitely know... don't worry.. ^.^

The End

Hmmm... long time didn't post.. lately quite busy joining camp and doing my own things:p and forgot to post.. but usually december(the end of one year and coming of another new year) have to do a lot of things.. seeing all my old friends, since they finish STPM and some of them is going overseas soon.. )*sigh* I will miss them very very much.. A few weeks ago, one of my best friend just went back to her own country.. Don't know whether we could meet each other again or not.. I wish she would and I'm sure she will do good in everything...Great wishes to you !!! muackss!!! >.<

"Teacher" vs Teacher

Went to shopping with my friend today and i bought a lot of stuff... hahaha:D very happy till this moment because long time didn't go for shopping... I saw one of my teacher when I was having my lunch... she's a good teacher but I don't really familiar with her so I didn't greet her... but I realize one thing, she smoked.... that's surprised me because in my impression, one teacher should have act like a teacher... although nowadays smoking is common, especially for women, I just can't understand why should a person who educates people act differently in their life.... that raise a question, is it nowadays teacher only "teach" student what's in the textbook but not how to behave in a good way in life? maybe I wouldn't have that answer... everyday, the world is changing... that's too many things I can't understand....

Night Life

I luv n prefer beautiful, romantic night life

I'm totally fall into a deep dilemma... I think I have to adjust myself to my life,my philosophy and others many many more... having kind of normal life now, but I feel something missing in my life... I don't know what is it about and that's why recently I'm more emotional compared to last time... I'll be more sensitive than others time when it comes to night, especially late in the night... although it makes me feel ad sometimes, I still prefer to stay awake late in the night... I love night life... no matter I spend my night life at home or outside, I'll feel night is the beautiful, romantic moment for a whole day.... ^.^

娱协奖 PWH Music Awards

Yesterday was an excited day for me because I was able to attend a grand chinese music awards,娱协奖, at Bukit Jalil Putra Stadium...wow... really thanks to wai leng for giving me tickets, thanks and congrats to you... it was a great successful music awards I could ever seen in Malaysia.. feel proud of what you and your colleagues had done in this music awards... and shin yee, hahaha... you are honest!!! *give you the honest awards* you didn't lie to me, it was a really great and youch music awards... so exciting watching guang liang also, I love all of his songs very much, especially tong hua(Fairytale) and tian tang(Heaven)... wow... it's amazing!!!! this musicawards makes me fely that every singer in M'sia are very good in composing music, what a talented musician they are... even some of those popular songs in Taiwan were composed by m'sian musician... everthing is just fantastic.... too proud of them... I believed definitely theyare going to have a bright future in this music world... congrats a lot :D

Joy of Life

Recently I'm too free but I really enjoy the life I have.. Sometimes it's just too good to stay alone.. but in another time I have my friend with me... glad everthing is perfectly OK recently... I'm able to sleep till 9 sumthing in the morning.. if I decide to stay at home the whole day, then TV becomes the most important things for me.... switch on the TV, sitting comfortably on the sofa,reading novel and drinking wine..... wow... do you realize? it's an extremely fabulous life I'm having... If there's no interesting programme to watch on, I'll switch it to ASTRO radio.. there's a great channel, classical music channel... every classical music spark up your life... do you envy about my life? Hmmm... you're able to create your own joy of life too, right?

Sunway Lagoon Day

It's an unforgettable saturday. I went to Sunway Lagoon today with my family and siblings. Having lots of fun at Sunway Lagoon. It's been a long time since I last visited to there, therefore I really miss it and enjoy it. And today is my mum's campany, KPMG, family day too. Every employees and their family member were invited to attend their company's family day. Hence, we went to enjoy fantastically without paying... hehe :p don't envy o.... The whole day including the buffet lunch provided was good but I think there's a bad thing too... The only bad thing happened on me... my skin had become SO SO SO SO black and I realise some part where I wore swimming suit had two tone in colour.... T_T haih... how sad to see that....

Our future is bright

Feeling bored and wondering whetherI should go out for a tea with my friend.... but after a while i've decided to forget it because everyone is so busy with their own life... sometimes me myself is the same too.... especially those friends who is now feeling stress and tension of the coming SPTM... I know you all can do it :) you all always work so hard.... I believe everything would go smoothly... don't worry ok? :D I'm trying my best too.... we fight together!!!! hahahhaha :D

I'm awake

Didn't blog for such a long time because don't feel like wanna blog at all... It's a one week public holiday(but for me everyday is a holiday.. hahaha :D) went back to mum's hometown Gerik for one weeks time, totally release by now... although we have to travel for a long journey but i think it's worth.. I didn't have much time to go back and spend time with all my cute cousin since i grown up... this trip let awaken me that everything is just a tiny part of life... see everyone in Gerik, they're so happy, so generous, so kind and so so so true... I love this true feeling so much... :) they have gone through lots of thing in life but they can still live happily... this is what we called the attitude of life...

Thanks loads

Didn't post for a long time since I was in a serious dilemma about myself and my life... Now I've "reborn" because I understand life can't be changed much although you try any harder... I've met my old friends (and somehow my true friends) these few days... really enjoy the moment I spent with them...Thanks for always beside me and giving me loads of support, I truly appreciate all of your efforts.... XD anyway, I knew some of my university's friend cared me a lots, thank you very much... hehe :p since we are having long term holiday, we are still keeping in touch till now... I was surprised and glad to have you all as my friend too... but it's not enough for us to sms, and chit-chatting at msn o... we must get together and go yam cha o... >.<

Useless World

I'm totally speechless against this world... can't everyone just try to think of others? I'm helpless... don't know what can I do to myself and my own life... it's just gone it's meaning... I don't know when and why I started to be like this but I hope to end this kind of feeling very soon.. no mood to write anymore...

My b-day

I've disappointed with my life and everything happened.. useless and speechless now... I know it's not easy to get through life but isn't that too much for me? Today is my 19th Birthday... I'm quiet happy on this day.. I lost a friends and finally I 'found' it back... many of us are too happy to have this friends back... A lot of funny things happened on today as well... I felt too touch to have this group of friend because they let me know that I'm not alone... their present even surprising and really shocked me because I didn't thought of 'that' as present before... It's showed and proved they really cared of me.. they really take my words into heart... Thank you loads... I love you all very much!!! you all make me stronger and brave enough to live it on... =) Although it's a great 26 Septenber 2006, I end up crying for my last 30 minutes birthday because of stupid, idiot matter (at least this matter had been bothering me for quiet a long period).... I hate those feeling that suddenly came up to me... I shoudn't been crying for so long because of those unnecessary matter.... Useless !!!!!!

Run from life

It's already a few days having gastric.. it seems like it didn't get any better.. mood also didn't change.. still depressed, struggling in heart.. day after day I realize I don't know how to face human.. sad to say that human is too complicated in their own way.. you wish everything should be fine and ok but it isn't go your way.. you wish to have the ability to solve every problem in your life but you definitely couldn't.. and that's the reason why most of the people choose to run away from life.. dilemma is one part of life which we couldn't avoid.. for me, I don't think I'm brave enough to face my life.. yet I don't have the ability to face human.. I've done my best.. I hope I am.. when I don't know what should I do it's most probably the time for me to run.. or what I can say is my ability only allow me to run away..

Real world

lately quite tired with the life I have.. life is really not easy.. Sometimes I really don't know what should and shouldn't be expect in life... surprisingly, life is not as easy as math.. it's not always being equal and please.. don't ever expect equal treatment in life.. these few days I really learn a lot... son't expect the same way as you treat people... don't trust anyone (even you think the one that closest to you)... don't ever try to put your heart to anyone or any matter... if not.. in turn, you are the one that will get hurt.. that kind of feeling no one can understand even though you try to share with others... don't be kind to others, people will think you have intention towards them or trying to show off how helpful you are... is time for me to wake up... I'm here to welcome myself into the real world...

Disappointed Day

Finally final exam is over... actually quite happy and release.. but it's quite tiring as well because I couldn't sleep last night... totally lost in my own world... thinking about everything happened on me... decided to go to Sg Wang after exam but incidentally... something very sad happended... *haih* I'm really disappointed wih all kind of things happened... we've been waiting for a girl for a long time.. (at least 1 and a half hour) not only we couldn't get her... we don't even know why acually she need so much time.. if you really need so much time, why don't you just tell directly.. *sigh* I really couldn't take on this kind of attitude.. I hope she will change after i've told her about her CRAZY LATE MISTAKE... Melanie is now finish writing.. a special blog writing at MC... Signing Off...

up in tower.... * girl's team *

nice scene....

hehe.... dun act cute wif my cyndi's cap lor....

great time... me n siew man ;p

hav fun.....

on the boat.... don't fall down AHH !!!!

start cycling lor ^o^

Sweet, enjoyable memory....

24 August is a tiring yet happiest day... long time didn't have that feeling... feel release, relax and happy.... spending whole day with my uni friends... we went to Tmn Pertanian in Shah Alam for cycling... actually we arrive at 12 noon.. unfortunately it's qite hot... but we are still very excited... then we look for bicycle... OMG ! it's expensive lor... RM3 for first hour and RM1for every following hour... :p nevermind... we've piad for it... but it's an embarrass time for me... i'm not that tall therefore, really hard for me to cycle... *sigh* NEVERMIND !!! i can control myself... ;p then we cycle from here and there... *happy time* after we cycle for a while we stop at a rest house and eat what we have bring (basically it's only tuna sandwich and bites..) then we take a lot of photos... especially funny photos... hahaha... after some time janice, hui luan and 1 of their friends came... following few hours we went to 4 season house WOW !!! it's surprisingly nice !! actually it stated hat it's summer season inside... and we don't feel like to go in because it needs RM3 for entrance... but afterwards we just walk in and we are too shock with the besutiful scenes... Next thing we do is take photos withoutbothering of the entrance fees... hahaha (first time I did that) really have fun inside... after we came out we still didn't pay for it... not long after that they found a tree and they had climbed up there... it's really high... don't ever call me to climb up.. and of coz I really didn't climb...

another high period for me is at night... we went for our course party with dr yap... the theme is eat, drink, play and fun !! haha i like it... in the game period, I didn't even think of I will win in any game... but i do win... because of the smallest hand...(really don't know what to say) UNBELIEVABLE !!!! hehehe then my group is the big winner of that night... hence, every member get a whole packet of sweets... hahaha...

after I fetch hui luan to LRT station... me, siew man and zjo zjo went to Yipee Cup for supper... then we've discuss lots of thing... at that particular moment I really feel what is life... it's always changeable... actually I think every one face some similar problem... *sigh-ing* again.... I just wanted a good, healthy and happy environment... is that hard? I think the only way is i try my best to work it out but would it succeed... then I'll never know....

Tiring Life

It's nearly final exam... but things seems not going to over... broadcasting assignment and MMS presentation haven't over.... quite worry about it... affraid I do the wrong things and mess up whole thing... especially MMS, maybe it's because of my opinion... my group member have to take the risk with me... *sigh* it's all my fault... I'm too stubborn... Why don't I choose the safest way? the alternative way is in a high risk... what am I thinking?? besides sighing... it's also sighing...

Lonely

feel lonely lately... thinking of some problem... most probabaly is life problem... maybe I really don't l=know what kind of life I'm having... finding out the roots of problem ? No ~ Everything just seems to be very OK... no problem... but how come I feel scared when people talk about my true life... ?? I'm wondering... but I scared to face my true self... I don't know what happened to me... that's kind of feeling (maybe it's lonely) disturb me always... I don't like it.. but it's always around me... isn't that I don't trust people? yes... it's true... I really don't trust anyone since I'm small... no one would be sincere to me... I choose to hide... that's the best way to protect myself from getting hurt... Most probably I would just live my life that way... just don't tell me my true self... don't ask me about my life and that's fine... it's good for you and me...

Frustrated Warehouse Sales !!!

Went to Armada Hotel for the Warehouse Sales... Of course there's a lot of people there... At first I didn't feel anything special... it's still a hotel with VIP room for the Warehouse Sales...But after I get in the VIP hall... straight away I feel regret and frustrated... too many people in the hall and the worst thing is there's no air-cond in the what we call "VIP" hall.... how come this kind of thing would happened in a hotel? really unbelievable... after I take a look on several pairs of shoes... it's nothing special with it(it's also my "style" of shoes)... Then I quickly walked out from the hall... When I felt totally fed up, I saw a lot of rubbish outside the main hall... it's all around... I really found no words for this kind of thing and I think this is what we called MALAYSIAN !!!

My live DJ in UTAR..... ^^v 10x Azaria 4 the photo....

An incident

Quite surprise on tuesday.... I don't know myself and a group of my friend having an appoinment with our lecturer, Dr Yap, in the afternoon... Somemore I have an important things to do in that afternoon... I think our lecturer is unhappy with us because she purposely drove there and we didn't show up... Really feel sorry to her.... If I was her, I'll totally mad why I have such student... that's why after this incident I felt very scared.... The next day we're having her lecture and we said sorry to her... Luckily she didn't scold us and blame on us.... Now onwards I'll remember to see her next wednesday...

Suffering.....

Having a tiring day lately... Lots of mid-term (although it's over now, if not I'm also won't be able to write my blog right?? hahaha :p) This time I'm really in dangered... don't know how to answer... especially M'sia Cultural and Religious practices mid-term... It's killing me... already suffered in listening lecture, now it pull me in half-death mode... 1 hour paper but I think I waste a lot of time starring at the question... *sad* I tell myself no matter I know it or not I have to write but I really don't know what to write.... Writing seems very difficult at that time... 10marks has been given back to lecturer... To Mr Lee--> I'm so sorry, I really don't know what is mood and motivation according to Clifford Greetz.... although I don't know, plase do not fail me if possible.... Life is just going to be suffered until September.... T_T

World Cup

Ohh :( yesterday watch World Cup till 5am in the morning.... so tired... both eyes change from white to red, it's really tired.... then it's already 5am... couldn't sleep well also... wake up at 10am in the morning... it's tired and sleep but body and mind still not in resting mode... remembering the fantastic final World Cup... really exciting... Italy won... I saw the France really play "REAL" OMG !!!! don't they think it's just a game ? No need hurt and injured anyone.... What a bad habit they had.. Especially the number 7 "Zidane" crashed Italian chest.... how stupid he is... luckily finally the penalty there Italy won.... hehehe how release to see bad people lose.... hahaha :D

Life

Not really in a good mood lately... tired and stress surrounded me... scared a lot of things.. a lot of trouble coming to me too... *sigh* sometimes I seems like helpless, useless... life is just meaningless at that moment... Hard to find a way out although I really want to... Everybody still busy with their own work... no one will actually stop by and take a look on themselves... on future and past... I love my past but I don't know appreciate at that time.. time flies... life is really not going to return to zero... I'm still myself... growing up in my own world...

Sunshine Palace

went to S'pore on last Saturday... quiet a tiring trip... somemore it's not a relaxing journey at all... visiting my siblings for certain matter... actually it's only for the purpose of visiting.. I'm not even want to go shopping or what so ever... but my siblings want to bring me out for food... therefore I went to Sunshines Palace (hehehe :p sounds like my nick name in MSN....) for dinner.. there is really a nice place... have a lot of fun... the food is quite nice but very expensive also...

in Sunshine Palace .......

brats ???

came back at 5 sumthing in the evening... of course feel tired... intended to eat sumthing, take a long, relax bath and watch TV... but life is really fll of surprise... and SHOCK !!! really #*^%@&^!*$ must said that... *sigh* wondering how could this thing happen to me... I received a letter from the Star... OMG !!! It's the brats... actually I'm just applying for fun... and I don't really think of joining it... then as a result... I really get it... what the *#$&^^@ how come... feel miserable and regretful of having that purpose of applying it.... don't know what I should do... It's gonna be a camp on end of July... 2 day 1 night in Negeri Sembilan (somemore it's a farm in Lenggang) haih... what to do in the FARM ??? really weird... I used to be tired of those activity because I really know a lot of this kind of activity... it's not fresh anymore of course I don't feel like skiping MMS lecture and tutorial just for the alternative camp right ?? haih... need to think carefully....

"Cultural" adventure

Having Malaysia: Cultural and Religious Practices presentation today.... quite exciting but panic at the same moment... Me and my friend really couldn't finish our work... including the power point presentation... until the early morning only finish... haih... then we don't even have a time to breath because it's 1 more hour before our presentation... we didn't prepare anything... don't really know what to talk about... At that time, we still face technical problem... ohh ~ ~ quite sad... the speaker can't function... then we act 3 sketch which I consider the worst thing in my life... I really don't know what am I doing... Don't know it's really funny that makes our classmates laugh or they really "give face"... lecturer even said are we going into a wrong class?? Woow.... so embarrasing.... then each person have to talk 20 minutes long... actually we talk quite fast, therefore we add in a lot of "stupid" thing.... haih... after we finish we also what are we talking about... hahaha :D luckily lecturer said our presentation not bad... hahaha what a day it is....

taking photo with 2nd Malaysian Idol "Daniel !!!"

waiting for another shot....

with the main host of the show "Lee Mao Shan"