Children = naughty ???

Spent half of the day with my small little cousin. It's very comfortable.

Usually people will have a mindset of children=naughty but in my perspective, children=naughty=true.

I wouldn't say that I love children very much.

But I do like them almost all the time because I could express truly to them. They are just as simple as them.

Nothing to hide. Nothing to scared of. Nothing to bother. No thing leads to complexity.

My Day

Noon, went to 1U alone after consulted ms leong. Lonely? Hmm.. sort of.

Get into MS READ Delicious cafe (looks like the surrounding of the cafe is good, but actually it's not). Ordered a Lemongrass Lychee Smoothies instead of selecting coffee.

Took up a book that I've just borrowed from library today and started to read. Couldn't really concentrate.

Generally is because the environment make me very uncomfortable. Partly is because the smoothies is tasteless.

I found that many people are looking at me. Very curiously.

My sense is strong enough to pull me out of the chair and leave that place. I lefted. Wandered around again.

This time, I even felt that people around (of coz not everyone) are curious enough to figure out what this girl is doing here.

While my mind is out of the space and my body continue to wander around, a woman, 30 plus over (I think), stopped me. Asking me weird questions :

"Gal, you are.. currently working?"
"Nope.." and I started to scare and want to escape. But she stopped me and continued.
"Can you do me a favor? I wanna ask you some question.."
"No.." I answered in a very very low voice.

Most of my friends knew, I'm that kind that don't know how to reject a person's request, especially stranger. So, she continued.

"You are a student.. Do you ever heard of E-shopping?"
I kept on shaking my head. I'm scared.
"Would you like to earn $ besides studying? I have a way here....."she started to explain a lot.

This time, I couldn't do nothing. I kept on shaking my head and said bye bye (I don't know why I said bye to her). Then, I ran away.

*Sighing* Is it I shown an innocent face that wrote I'm easy to be cheat? Ridiculous people.

What a day.

My Dear Friends

Last few weeks were scary and tiring week that I wouldn't like to remember.. But, in these scary days, I still managed to spare out a few hours and went out to have a Shabu with my dear friends...



I would said that this is the most precious moment in my hard days...



Meeting them is the most relaxing thing for me.. Although we had not been met for such a long time, our friendship is still as close as last time... and, I really found that I miss everyone of them very very much..



Seeing everyone so happily talking to each other (and it is quite noisy, don' know who to listen to), I'm so so so lucky to have all of them besides me...

And, I've not met my Xue Di Xue Mei for quite some time too.. Excited to meet them and we really have a lot to talk about... hahaha :D

Surprisingly, time flies, but me and Xue Mei have almost the same haircut... So happy to see them live happily....

心•蒙蔽了 Neglected Love

Finally...
Our production..
Our drama....
is out...

Here is the trailer,
complete drama may request
from me...

Enjoy :D

心•蒙蔽了 Neglected Love

Finally... Our production... Neglected Love is out...

This is the trailer, whole drama is with me.... Enjoy :D

Consequences of Independent

Sometimes, felt that over independent is a worst thing in life... Seems like everything have to be handle by yourself.. No one could actually help and no one could actually willing to help since everyone thinks that you are independent enough...

Hate myself over independent, even sick, it's my responsibility to drive to clinic and consult doctor.. (sick didn't recover but I got another illness)

Medic allergic, it's my fault again, my responsibility agian to consult doctor one more time...(Now, I don't even want to bother anymore...)

Independent, for me, isn't a good thing, but I would rather said it's a worst feeling...

I would rather prefer someone to be beside to help, or just to share with me...

Sufffering Sore Throat & Dry Cough

Maybe I was lack of sleep (but I always lack of sleep) that cause me to have a sudden sore throat and dry cough these few days...

Maybe is my everyday consumption pattern that lead me to this too...

Maybe is the weather lately, and I'm not use to it...

*sigh* No more maybe... sore throat and dry cough means I'm sick....

Physically, Mentally Sick

These few days keep busying and worrying about tv production drama editing.. Don't have much time to rest..

Although it's tiring, as long as satisfy, I don't mind staying up late, doing all hard works..

Today, after last lecture, multimedia lecture, suddenly felt down... Physically not feeling well, mentally sick.. Got tied up.. everything is still so rush, problems happen together..

Do not know what else can I do.. No matter how hard I tried to solve problems, still, a lot of problems come to me...

Depress and stress, nowadays, find myself useless, don't have ability to solve problems anymore.. Too many problems for me, that's enough..

This subject got problems, before solving, another person tell me another subject's problems... Got really fed up...

Felt always solving problems alone... Getting speechless and speechless, don't have a specific reasons that cause that.. simply just do not know what to talk and lazy to face human....

Tired Life Tired Heart Tired of Everything

It's the first time I felt to face myself bravely, face my true feeling to the real world.... but finally.. what do I get??

Once I decided that, I never thought of the consequences.... now, the consequences comes to me...

How long I had been hiding my true feeling? I didn't know.. for years, I felt hard to live and sometimes, I even felt that I had lost myself in a mysterious world....

Life is always not as easy as we think, but I just want to be myself.. isn't that a hard thing to achieve??

I'm miserable.....

TV production team

See ! Our pictures are so professional... Thanks to X'tina for making black crew shirt for us..

Production period was over, currently we move into a post-production stage, which I have not much things to do....

(just to write the final message and record it in broadcast lab)

and you all have to do more than me now... hahaha :D hardly come across this.... coz felt uncomfortable that you all are editing and I have nothing much to do....

Really miss our production period, although is a tuff period, almost everyone fall sick, a proud thing I would like to share is we mange to control our temper (except for 1 and 2... but finally ok also...)

This is the biggest improvement I could ever see in our group... felt glad that everyone works for their best in their position...

Wait for our "Qing Gong" (celebration) then we can have another fun night together ya ^.^

Touchable

It's a glad, touchable and thankful day... Whole week drama production really tiring, yet I still have my own Communication Research Method (CRM) individual presentation....

Don't think much for CRM presenattion because I myself very worried of our production and whole week average sleep 1 to 2 hours only... *exhausted until no time to worry*

Today class.. 9.30am Screenplay lecture, sadly, I'm the only one who attend, very blur and blank, don't know what Dr Sham is talking (and giving him blank look)

And I'm very very very worry about my team, don't know you all can wake up or not, can move the equipment or not, don't know how to help you all sign attendance...

Therefore, thinking to go back to Bukit Jalil to help you all,but you all said no need, n knowing I have serious sore throat and i mentioned painful till don't know how to present...

So rush you all still go anf buy Strepsils for me and purposely rush back to university just to give me Strepsils instead of drop off all heavy equipment at Jasmine first... T_T

Elaine also... T_T purposely rushed back to university and bring laptop for me and wan ying... Got a phone call from Elaine saying that she will rushed back to university on time, not to worry really touch me... T_T

Thirdly, I know everyone in our grous is so tired but purposely attend me and wan ying's presentation... just to support 2 of us... Seeing you all, I really speechless... I feel very glad and thankful to have you all besides...

Some words for you all :

Guo Wei :
Seeing your silhoutte walking fast at 1st floor, bringing me Strepsils really touching.. Thanks a lot for your concern... and thanks for supporting instead of going home.. but if you really go home I also won't blame you because your work load and responsibility very heavy.. As your assistant, I don't know I got really help out or not, but seeing you carry so much responsibility, I also feel very sorry...

Elaine :
Thanks for everything, I know you all love me and care of me very much... got your phone call and heard your tone that said you will definitely rushed back.. I really don't know what to say, no matter how hard, you all still try to rush back and still help wan ying download thriller at the very last minute... others than thanks, I really don't know what to say.. Lately only I know, university also got friend understand me, feel what I feel.. thanks !!!!

Janice :
Sorry for alwas "ZAT" you... not purposely want to say you aunty or what.. just feel that seeing your reaction very very funny la... thanks for giving me a lot of fun... hahaha.. Now onwards, don't ever said I always help Luan or who else only, I DO help you a lot in audio (set up, recording, and checking sound...)

Wan Ying :
Sigh... We are same black luck... present on our production week really troublesome and terrible... I also know coordinater got a lot of pre-production work like me... so I can understand and let you go home earlier... so don't blame me on not considerate o...

Hui Luan :
Thanks for giving me $$ wor... hahahaha.. nola.. we know that lighting very very very hard (I personally hate lighting very much) and I know you do really try your very best to design and execute.. thanks for rushing lighting treatment, thanks for holding all hot temperature, heavy red head and portable light (even raining.. haha)

Chee Haur :
Your "Denggi" really scared me.. Luckily you are ok now, don't have to worry you will affect me.. hahaha.. so you feel touch when I fetch you to see doctor (I'm presenting on the next day lor, if I get affected then sure die adi) Although RM138 very expensive, as a fren and team member, I think as long as you are healthy and stable, we don't mind...

Thanks to everyone... I can sense your love and care to me... *warm*

A Mix

WARNING : this is going to be a long, self-express post, no offend, no other purposes

These few days I really got myself tied up, I understand the feeling that every one in our group don't feel happy that we are not being agreed...

But I must said, I felt 10 times more than what all of you felt, I felt even more than upset...

So far, it's like a bomb deep inside my heart, I know I shouldn't put it this way, but until that day when our idea is not being agreed, I can totally confirmed that's what worried me so far...

So far a bomb that stayed inside me and I tried so hard to forget, to ignore......

When ms leung mentioned it, I knew, what I thought, what I felt was true....

Don't ever tell me ms leung tried to stepped down on us, I don't think she wanted that to happen too...

Although I, myself found it very hard to take her words, I knew, she is making it very clear to us, she is trying her very best to help us identify the problem...

What she mentioned, I totally understand, and I totally agreed... Not that I don't want to support our group, do you ever know that what ms leung said I already mentioned in our discussion...

Don't said I didn't voice out... I stated it very CLEARLY !!!!!!!

And I even mentioned more than once, but as the feedback I got:

1. "You can't always want us to follow your idea, you also must consider our idea..."

2. "Where got illogical? Where got not make sense?....."

3. "You are very hard to get along with... always want your idea only..."

4. "Don't think too much..."

THESE are what I got...

*Sigh* I'm not here to blame anyone.. but at that moment when ms leung mentioned the problems, I got really sad because we could totally avoid these....

But.............. you all........... NEVER trust me... DON'T EVER TRUST ME in the very beginnning...

Till this happen, I totally know how you all think of me, think me as a person that

self-centered

couldn't accept other people's idea

wouldn't want to change idea

would strongly prefer to stick with my own idea...

And, you all NEVER NEVER think me as a Scriptwriter that will stands at the script point to voice out the problems...

I got really disappointed with this....

Another matter is since I accept the post as Scripwriter, I NEVER EVER avoid from bearing any consequences....

I know if anything happen, it's my responsibility to bear the consequences, I'm ready to bear it anyway....

But, WE ARE ONE TEAM.... please let me feel that IT'S WORTH FOR ME TO BEAR CONSEQUENCES!!!!!!! I really got mad with those in our group who KEEP ON PUTTING BACK FIRE !!!!!!!!!

Don't understand, nevermind.... I explain ! Don't know, nevermind... I tell ! Don't agree, nevermind... I listen !

But when everyone agreed, everything fixed, don't ever want to change it...

And the worst thing, when we are facing third party, you don't think us as a group, you think yourself individually... you reveal the problems to the third party, and when we got tease back by the third party, how do you EXPECT ME TO RESPOND ????????!!!!!!!!! And, finally, you think that the third party is purposely teasing us !!!!

You don't even understand, when we face a third party, we are actually fighting....

That time, in that war, I knew only 2 person were fighting at the front-line, and you keep on putting back fire, pulling back legs...

NONSENSE !!!!!!!

Now, 3 person facing a third party, two person got speechless, and you keep on saying nonsense, doing nonsense action, what is your ulterior motives????

You try to show that you are capable??? You try to show not your fault????

Now I know how STUPID you are..... how RIDICULOUS you are............

You can be more IDIOT than that..................... WTF !!!!! (you make me said that)

That night, I knew, it was the suffered night for everyone of us...

That was my tuffest night too.... I felt hardly to come across that night, I cried for the whole night

MAINLY because

I KNEW TRULY I'M NOT BEING TRUSTED

PARTLY because

EVEN OUR GROUP MEMBERS PUT FIRED ON US,

AND OUR IDEA NOT BEING AGREED

Piss OFF !

(Just for the sake of expressing... I felt very fard to get across this....)

7/7/2007, 7pm - A Memorable Day

It's a day for our Primary School Gathering... After 7 years, we finally met each others...

Feel satisfied looking at others... Although I might not really remember every one of you, I felt good staying together...

Seeing everyone so unique, all talking about our past and future... I, including our 6F form teacher, felt great and happy...

Time flies and things changed, but I realized our friendship last...

Thanks for everything, keep in touch... we should meet often... >.<

Terrible Week 6

Finally reached the end of week 6, an extreme terrible week for me... I don't know what has I did in this week...

First, rushed got Media Planning (TAA report + Media Monitoring)

Then, rushed for International Advertising tutorial presentation

Next, rushed for TV Production mid-term (end up with reading nothing)

And finally, and most importantly, rushed for TV Production presentation

Everything moved in a hurry... hurry till I'm blur, numb... I don't know what am I doing and talking.. I lost my ability to think critically, I lost my ability to speak normally... I have to apologised for my presentation, I don't really did it well... I admit, at that moment, my mind really went blank, I'm blur of the whole condition... I just try my very best to recall and talk smoothly...

Although things didn't went as well as planned, I don't think anyone of us did anything wrong.... Just situation didn't go as our way....

Thanks for Walker company supportive crew member.... I appreciate it a lot

她是你的痛 你是我的痛

好不容易平复的心情
又因为你的故事
再次掉入深沉的“痛”穴中

那是你的一段往事
你的痛
我都能明白

显然
你的从前
我都有用心参与

今日的往事从提
对我而言
不再是当时可怜你
想关心你的心情

现在的我
第一感觉竟是
你何尝不也做出类似的事
何尝不也在伤害真正关心你的人?

你和她
根本没差

曾经
我是多么希望
能帮你走出你的痛

讽刺的是
如今
你已成为了我的痛

注定
你走不出她的痛
我也忘不了
走不出

你对我造成的痛

Miserable

Tired of everything's in life..

No matter how hard I tried..
How hard to live happily...
Still, I'm physically and mentally exhausted..

Life didn't go smooth..
Things remain unchanged...
I'm still the one who suffered all this..

No matter what...

I'm still on my own..

Alone on my own...

Maybe..
This is a part of my life...

I couldn't mananged to avoid..

Congrats

Congrats to my dear friends that succeed to get into local universities... I can understand it's hard to get a place in local univerisity and I really happy to hear that almost all of you get it..

Unfortunately, for some of you who get Sabah and Sarawak universities, I feel sorry about it.. but I think Sabah and Sarawak are good places to study and concentrate..

Although it might be a little bit hard for us to meet each others, as long as you all happy studying in universities, I'll be satisfy with that.. : )

cheer up :D it's our university's time..

Depressed Americano

11.46pm, jz stopped today's work.. nothing special, still busy and still tired.. Today, had my first cup of coffee late in the late evening at San Francisco Bukit Bintang.. Didn't have a chance to have a cup of coffee until the late evening..

Tried Americano Coffee... It's a kind of black coffee, pretty nice especially it's aroma.. Sat at the window site, looked at city's people, rushing here and there.. suddenly felt depressed with it.. Is it because of Americano? or because of KL people?

Usually I'll have a cup of coffee and fall into my own deep thinking, let my mind wander.. but today's Americano didn't give me that chance.. Couldn't really sink into my deep thinking because I'm with a group of my friends...

Wasted a golden chance to appreciate Americano...

Super Tuff Job

Brainstorm ideas is never an easy task, grouping ideas into one even more difficult... As earlier I've mentioned, I don't have the motivation to be the Scriptwriter (since plus TV production, I've to come out with 3 different drama script)

It's extremely hard to get a balance in 10 person's ideas... Furthermore, we have different opinions, thinking and perfect genres in ourselves, my ideas may not be yours so do yours may not be mine...

Since I've taken all your HIGHLY request to be the Scriptwriter, I never regret for taking over this SUPER TUFF JOB..

Though it might be very difficult,I still try my very best to get THE BEST OUT OF THE BEST.. I need all of you to cooperate with me, bear with me..

Please don't make anything worst, this is not what I want to see between us.. If you have any suggestion, any question, any unacceptable idea, please tell me.. I would like to listen to you in our discussion or worst come to worst tell me privately...

Ignorance Of Deep Feeling

"Live happily" is a simple life philosophy, everyone understand it yet not everyone can achieve that... Now, this simple philosophy can truly represent my situation and deep feeling inside my heart..

Everyday I feel good going to university, attend classes, even doing all assignmenns happily.... but I just couldn't stand with facing you face to face.. everytime I see you, even you didn't do anything to me, my heart get extremely weak, my mind went blank, my mood fluctuate, up and down non-stop..

Do you realize you are directly and indirectly affecting my life??

Sometimes I felt irritate to see your uncertain facial expressions.. that's only show you don't care.. No matter is my fault or yours you just don't care about it.. I'm terribly disappointed with you..

Back to Normal ?

Glad to see everything back to normal operation, groups settled, everyone working hard in assignments by now..

6 subjects in Year 2 Semester 2.. Each and every one of it is quite heavy as compared to previous years or semesters..

1. Tv Production

2. Screenplay and Scriptwriting

3. Media Planning

4. International Advertising

5. Communication Research Method

6. Multimedia Design and Application

I think, for most of us, the most excited subject would be TV Production.. ^.^ (coz this time we are going to produce drama)... Hahahaaha :D

For me, I think week 8 will be the busiest, stressful week for me because I have to hand in Communication Research Report, hand in Screenplay individual script, my turn to present Communication Research Report and I have to go out for TV Production drama shooting..

*Sigh* Let's start our busy life...

Warm

Grandma came back from Singapore last weekend.. I got really excited to see her although she didn't change much.. She leave for a long period and I didn't noticed that I do miss her a lot until I meet her..

Now, she's in KL for 1 month.. We visit her and she cooked for us.. *feel so touch*

When I ate what she cooked, my heart was full with warmness....

Till now only I realize I had been trying very hard to leave on my own, do everything on my own and I feel tired.....

It's so good that after a war or got upset, you have someone that always give you their love and caring...

I really appreciate grandma's goodness..

Crucial Understanding

Nowadays I'm getting speechless and speechless.. Just started a new semester and we are getting into lots of trouble and everyday going to university seems like a war for me.. If you would ask about my feeling, definitely, I will said I don't like this kind of feeling... because suppose we are still students who are going to be adults but we are not yet adults..

I can understand that we shouldn't be so stress and care about assignments and especially group members... We are not that kind that will sacrifice friends and just care about assignments.. I hope whoever involve (in our gang) can understand, we are trying our best to protect you and our friendship..

As I said before, working and friendship should be 2 separate things.. I would wish this is not 2 different things but it's a realistic world.. It's time to be matured in thinking.. If we couldn't work together doesn't mean we can't be friend.. in return, I think avoiding all working matter, we can be good friends, even better than before...

I'm sorry and would like to apologise to whoever being hurted (in our gang).. I would like to listen from you regarding your opinion and feeling since we are communication student and we must communicate.. I have my own reasons for doing things and in making every decision..

Remember, this is a realistic world, competence stands up, weaker will be failed... In order not to be fail, weaker have to stand up and follow the fast pace in society...

Sally Yeh Concert

Last friday got a surprise trip to Genting again.. 3 little girl got free ticket to Sally Yeh concert.. hahaha XD Although we don't know Sally Yeh much but life at KL is too bored.. therefore, we rushed back and went to Genting..

At first, I kept yawn in the concert because I don't know her song and I felt tired because that day was friday, we end our class quite late... but in the middle me, xiu wen and zjo were very high... how high??? hahaha high until the uncle aunty around us got very high and shout with us as well... hahahaha.. so funny la..

After concert , zjo's friend invite us to clubbing... again, we went to Safari but that night was not Ladies night, every person need to paid entrance fees and Zjo's friend paid for us.. wahh.. so good.. That night actually quite dangerous, a lot of weird people around..

5 sumthing in the morning we got a RM100 deluxe Genting Highlands room for a quick knap.. then wake up at 9 sumthing and went home...

Useless Environment

Sucks environment ruin my life.. fed up and couldn't stand with all mumbling.. Am I that worst to keep you mumbling on me huh???

I've chosen my path.. I've done my best... isn't that still not enough to satisfy you??

You make me lose temper and irrational.. I don't know what are the reasons I'm staying back with this kind of environment..

Not Ready

I'm not ready yet
I haven't prepare to accept the new challenge
I haven't figure out the best solution to solve obstacles
I'm really really not ready for a new academic semester

Day and day, I found myself getting lost.. Don't know what things to focus on, what things to ignore.. Tired of life, lost passion are the reasons for all the "not ready"..

Sat behind the lecture hall, staring at everyone's back, I couldn't concentrate, my mind wander far far away.. everyone seems the same but everyone knows deep in their heart many things changed..

Life is escaping no where
No one or things could be remain

"Eating" Trip

Before I end my 3 weeks holiday, I went to Malacca for relaxing purpose... I found that I really enjoy this holiday and it seems like too short for me.. I didn't spend much time at home.. Went out almost everyday, meeting people and found back life enthusiasim..

Last Trip for this holiday is Malacca Trip.. I would describe this trip as "Eating Trip" because I ate a lot.. it's terribly delicious and mouth-watering... haha... I seldom said that.. ;p

First time went to Jonker Walk... Love it very much.. There are sooooooo many funny and interesting there... ^^v I should have went there earlier.. Ate special cendol and Nyonya Laksa.. Although I was full, I managed to finish almost all... Never think of that delicious before.. haha..

Then, the next day evening, went to Portuguese Settlement.. Another Big Seafood dinner accompany by Malacca sea and sunset.. hahaha.. I didn't took much photos at Malacca because I spent a lot of time eating... hahaha :D I think this is a very nice photo to share with...

Nice view from Portuguese Settlement with *Malacca sea and sunset*

A Special Evening Spent with Romance and Happiness

Finally went to Eye on Malaysia with michele, wei and yan yee.. hehe.. although it's not as romantic as I think, I'm satisfied with it..

luvly skycrappers

KL view from skycrapper

Sadly, couldn't have a good chance to look at the laser show because it was raining... T_T but I managed to get a quick shot.. haha..

Laser show specially designed for Tourism Malaysia 2007

After that, went to Time Square Neway sing K.. Had our dinner and celebrate wei's birthday there... 8 something was Happy Hour Rate and it's highly expensive.. RM32++.. then it became RM44.. (expensive like hell la~ ~ but with buffet dinner la..) Since I've never tried Neway buffet dinner, I didn't complain much but I ate a lot.. because toooooo expensive... I must eat as much as I can so that it's worth it.. hahaha :D

We drank alcohol and got very high.. haha.. Poor yan yee.. she get drunk so fast.. hahaha ;p

Holiday Normal Diary

12pm - wake up, bath..

1.30pm - wandering, searching food exclude maggi mee..

2pm - aet/fed up, open PC, surf net..

3.30pm - watch TV drama..

5pm - read book/play piano..

6pm - bath again.. (opps.. sorry coz kinda luv bath)

7.30pm - go grandpa's house, have dinner together..

8pm - watch TV again..

9.30pm - listen music, starring at ceiling, mind wandering again..

10.30pm - write blog, chit-chat, reply e-mail..

11pm - watch series...

3am - sleep

This is my in-house normal holiday daily procedures.. sounds a bit boring.. Actually can't say bored but it's just a kind of lost life..

Although I think this kind of life still better than rushing assignments, have arguments, I just can't stay long with this kind of life.. 3 weeks I'm still OK.. hahaha :D

Another good point of this life is heart and mind feel stable..

Discover Funny Gathering

Suppose this holiday is bored.. but it's not as bored as I expected.. a lot of old friends called out.. One very special call was primary school friend..hehe ;p called for primary school gathering ^.^ of course i'm OK..

Then 4pm meet at Wong KoK Parkson.. But why 4pm only I was there?? Stupid them.. they are late... nevermind, I was patient.. (intentionally don't want to spoilt my holiday mood hehe :D) 4.20pm.. shit them.. finally they came.. 1, 2 ,3, 4... only 4 person?? =.=" this is what they called primary school gathering?? haih.. NEVERMIND...

After we sat down at Wong Kok, they said too little people.. fine, everyone keep calling others come Wong Kok except me..( hehe only me don't have any contact ;p) Actually, we don't have much number, therefore they said want to go house by house, knock house by house @_@ sounds stupid... but I still followed..

Finally we knocked 2 persons house... hahaha one of it is our class monitor house.. hahaha.. I never think of doing those stupid action la.. then we go 糖黏豆 yam cha again..

aiyor... whole stomach also water already..

Although very little people, this is really a good, memorable gathering , and we promise will do a class gathering on 30th june since fei is leaving to Australia... haha..

happy chit-chatting around ^.^

Self-talk

It's late mid in the night..suddenly, feel like blogging.. usually I wouldn't have this kind of feeling but today just very different... everything is flashing back into my mind, I couldn't stand with this emotion anymore, everything seems so fresh... Now only I realize I've gone through a lot of matter, no matter what had I experience, good or bad, it's already over.. I'm myself yet not as ordinary as who i am before anymore...

My Holiday

The day after exam I went for a trip with some of my coursemates.. Experience two days 1 night enjoyable trip at Genting... Hohohho =.=" Opps!!! wrong style.. and I've got a lot of 1ST TIME EXPERIENCE ^.^

Hohohoho is here ; p

Crazy people doing crazy thing

The 1st time into Outdoor Theme Park with a group of friends.. hahaha.. of course I've been to outdoor theme park but this is the first time I went with a whole gang of friend.. I still remembered that the last time I went there was Form 3.. with librarian.. Although it can be counted as went with a group of friends too, still, not all of them is my friend... that's why actually not that fun but this time very different... just that I think I was over excited and I want to challenge everything... THEN, terrible, shamful things happened.. Car racing not enough tall to enter T_T so embarrassed..... 2nd thing is I underestimate Soon Chee Haur challeng and I vomit.. haih.. don't know what to said... aiyorrrr.. that stupid guy is toooooo crazyyyy.. keep on turning turning and I don't know why he will not faint...

2nd thing is first time clubbing,went into Disco.. is Safari Disco

Surprisingly, that day is Ladies night, all female got a free entrance.. WOWWW ! great time to exposure.. only regret thing is I didn't bring suitable clothes and my high heels for clubbing purpose.. haih.. end up wore sports suits.. T_T yerrr.. first time clubbing got this kind of experience o, different from my memory... another thing is I have to carry my wallet and handphone and I don't have pocket with me.. in order not to carry during dancing, I've to wore my jacket and put all my stuff inside... but overall the experience is OK...but I hate the remix music, keep on remix and remix with the same rhythm... IDIOT!!!very tiring la...

girls on couple bridge

Skycrappers!!!! I love skycrappers.....

The next day we came down around 2pm.... should be earlier than that but we are so unlucky that Skyway having maintenance.. and we have to went down by bus.. the fastest bus we got were 2pm bus.. =.=" have to sit there for 1 hour...

End of our 2 days 1 night trip... now, we are having our own holiday....

wish everyone healthy and happy

Finally....

Finally... I finished my year 2 semester 1... finally.. I've a chance to breath after 4 months battle.. finally... I realised university life could be colourful and happy as well.... finally.... I've came out from the blackness.... finally I saw the light source of life...

Is that really just a feeling

2.43am, late mid night but currently do not feel sleepy.. or maybe I'm having insomnia again... Mind is flying here and there non-stop, everything seems fresh in my mind... Couldn't understand why I will definitely feel this during mid night, am I really miss out something in my life? predicting my life after next Monday, 7th May.. that's my 3 weeks holiday... that's the time for me to rest my head nad heart.. Hopefully I could feel stable in this holiday.. Emotion lately keep increasing and decreasing sharply.. Nothing cause it but a weird expression from heart... My heart is now as fragile as this....
Thinking that.... maybe.... I still need to develop myself and recover from past bad experience.... Just like sickness... hope I can get well soon...

Growing is a must

Suddenly feel like growing and knowing yourself is a must in a life cycle... Knowing oneself is a hard process but one must go through this process, learn about yourself, what is your life philosophy then only it could help you develop... Throughout this process, I realize stay happily is a another vital understanding and applying... During previous moment, I could hardly came across this but now, I realize the most important thing for me is only time and self-development.. After that particular period, I could easily accept that what was done was done.. I couldn't do anything but accept this and face another new challenge...

Very Moment

Suppose to study hard at this very moment, but just couldn't concentrate.. getting playful and playful.. Although studying might be essential, play is another part of life.. These few days I spent almost all my time with television and the Internet.. I know I shouldn't do that, but exactly, I don't really know what to study (except for Communication Theories).. Nowadays final exam seems like base on your foundation and creativity.. it's quite hard to determine what could you get because it may be creative to you but not to the others.. so I don't think I want to put so much effort in studying basic guidelines...

Is feeling vital to human?

I'm back to my blog.. It's been a long time since I my last post.. Recently just end a period of busy life.. Finally I've finished year 2 semester 1.. It's time for me to take a good rest before another challenge come in next 3 weeks... By the way, my final exam will start next week, which means tomorrow but I don't really expect myself to study very hard.. because I've spent lots of time playing, relaxing and enjoying my "short break"... hehe;p and I found that this semester I have difficulties to concentrate.. do you want to know why?? I couldn't let you know because I don't know the cause to it.. Today seems like having a complex, hard feeling.. I suppose I shouldn't so anything today but I did that and it ends up hurting myself... Thought time passes and I could feel better, face better, adopt better, but the hurt feeling is still there.. although I tried very hard to forget but the harms had been done.. and it just become a part of bad consequences stayed in my mind and soul...

My Thoughts

Feel abit upset with nowadays situation and surrounding around me... things just doesn't go as plan.. Something unpredictable and hurted happened... everyone (in our gang) got hurted.... no one actually mean it.. but I think it's the time to share our thoughts.. I think working (although it's just assignments) and friends should be separate.. no one should actually take advantage on friends while doing serious matter... If that is not a serious matter to you it doesn't mean others people don't care.. In that sense, responsibility and punctuality is very crucial..Another matter would be the way of communication... I understand and agreed that the rude way of speaking should be avoid since we are friends... but I also agreed that once the person became the culprit of the problem.. and everyone get mad, annoyed of that person... of course people will lost temper... I don't think this should be blame on the one that lost temper... If no one took advantage on each other, then shouln't and wouldn't be any problem... We know we are here to learn communication.. everyone has their strengths and weaknesses.. don't expect people to understand and accept the whole you... but in another way, I didn't mean to change yourself and cope with others people... just learn to grow up, take some responsibility and know your own roles.... then that's good enough...

2007, Poster for Sony DV Cam (Good Take)

2007, Poster for Sony DV Cam..... cut ! cut! cut! NG ! re-capture!!

shooting nice shot.... along roadside...

It's my "showtime"....

see.... what have you shoot???

"Wow" Let's shoot.... !!!!!

Busy and Stuck

Bz.. bz... and bz... always busy with assignments recently.. shouldn't said recently because I used to be busy in my whole semester... this year is 2007.. of course I have a lot of things to achieve and work out.. but I just don't have any motivation to carry out my task.. I don't know what exactly happen to me or I don't even have passion in my studies anymore?? I hope I am not.. I hope it's just I think too much.. I hope it's just a part of my growing process.... Long time didn't post.. although I felt guilty and sorry to those who cares of me, it's just a matter of scare.. the scare to post things online... the mst excited period for me in this year(until this moment) was the 3 days broadcasting shooting period and 3 days post production, editing period... even though it's quite a hard time but I felt happy, enjoyable and at least... it worth it... !!!!!!

Friendship

Because of getting into groups for assignments, problems occured! This is what I have expected but it's not what I willing to see... Although everyone may have change and I think it's highly possible for whom I think would change, I couldn't haardly believe this tragedy to happen among us... We are now frustrated with what had happened, and I also felt regret to what had happened... I wish this could just past away by itself... and hope everyone of us don't have any hurt feeling with this... It may be a hard semester, but in another way, I know we could come across this challenge... I'm so sorry for those who really wanted to do assignments with me, I'd tried my very best to rearrange so that everyone could have a chance to work with me but you know, it's not going to be very fair and equal... I'm sure you all can do your best without me too... trust yourself..

Brainstorming

Having the same problem as last time... communication problem is the most biggest problem in this world, I've learnt to realise no one could actually saying their true feelings to you....the process is always the same.. suffering, solving and keep on moving.. there's no other choice... too many things came in together, it's now making me breathless... Have to come out with lots of print advertisement ideas, radio advertisement idea and video idea yet people around is still making problem.. don't exactly know what caused the problem and those problems always stuck in my mind.. and deadline is rushing to to come out with ideas to move on with my assignments... i hate that kind of feeling...

May God bless me

My Week 1 of year 2 past with terrible sickness.. Still,I haven't recover from my sickness, don't really know why am I having long, suffer sickness.. As I know, I must recover as soon as possible because the 'war' is going to begin from week 2(means tomorrow).. going to have loads of assignments and classes.. quite a busy year but it wouldn't push me down.. I'm going to do my best.. lately having problems with group members, don't know who to choose or do things with.. actually, for me, it's the same.. now, I don't really expect anything, I just hope I can handle along with happiness.. God bless me :) anyway, having shoting for next week... good luck to me and wish i could have great ideas about what to shot... (in wondering and brainstorming situation)

Back to University

I've started my new semester 2007.. I'm no longer year 1 broadcasting student but year 2 semester 1 student.. don't feel really good today coz my university is so so so crowded.. Even worst is there's so any people in a same lecture, the air-cond is so limited, I almost can't breath inside... Had my Communication Theories and Intro to Advertising this morning.. just a simple intro to each course.. pretty bored actually.. Guess what.. UTAR merged May intake year 1 student with us(Year2 sem1 student).. Someone said that is because they can't take pendidikan moral this sem therefore, they have to do intro to advertising first.. hehe:p at least they must do pendidikan moral... hahahaha..:D Went home at 2pm.. not feeling well started from this early morning.. until afternoon I'm sure I'm sick.. have terribly sore throat and headache.. *sigh* sick in the first day of school... T_T $@^!*#&%

I'm myself

Hmm.. don't feel like posting here anymore because I want myself to be my true self, telling the true life.. why am I writing here again is because my true friends, who always stay besides me, telling me I'm not updating my blog... I'm glad to have them besides me.. sure everyone is interested to know actually what happened to me, but as usual, I don't really like to talk about it anymore.. it hurts me and affects me deeply.. although I'm quite ok when people look at me now, I know I'm not that ok and I would feel like crying too when I thought of this things happened on me.. Someone who helps me a lot said I'm too negative in thinking and I would say to myself that this is not positive or negative but facing the real situation.. I don't know who would read my blog,maybe someone who wants to treat me or maybe (positive abit) someone who really cares me... I hope to express my true self and that's why today I'm here again.. I'll stay with my true words in this blog.. I'm not opening a chat box.. so if you wanna tell me something you can do it in comment(under each post), I'll definitely know... don't worry.. ^.^